Blehh
I only weigh 106.5.. what craziness is that? =\ I'm trying to eat furiously. Goddd.. food is so good here.
I'm watching Crossroads on MTV right now.. the guy in it is way hot.
Okay, this is probably really gonna sound gay or something, but I can't help it. I just watched this episode of "Boy Meets World" and it touched me and made me feel sooo sad. It was when Corey and Topanga were broken up and Corey kissed another girl. Topanga found out and was really upset and Corey was trying to explain to her that he learned from it, that he could never love another girl because he loves only her. Topanga doesn't understand and Corey just kinda grabs her and is like "Topanga, we're gonna be together forever, you just haven't realized that yet." Or something.. but it just really touched my heart. That's the kind of thing I want. Despite everyone telling me that I'm only going to be 18, I need to experience instead of wanting love, all I really want is to be in a long-term relationship now. Well, not right NOW now.. but jyeah! I want love tooo..
My last two relationships were long, but didn't go exactly the way I wanted and I'm sad that I was so young and stupid in the head. But.. everything happens for a reason. You make mistakes and you learn from them. I just want to find the guy that'll make me feel like.. fuzzy and I don't want the romantic side to burn out after the beginning like most relationships do.. I don't want to go through assholes to find a real love. I'd rather be alone that settle for "good enough." I guess right now I'm just going to take it easy. Just start school and focus on that and only that. I'm really not that interested in hunting after guys. I don't feel lonely now that I'm single and I don't wish to be "taken". If a guy happens to come along and we dig each other, then cool. I don't want to go back to any relationship. I'm content with my life as of right now. I'm going to try and stay single for as long as possible. I kinda deserve it after being stuck for 3.5 years, right? Bottom line.. school & family = first.. any guy that is reading this-- don't bother me for the entire first semester of school unless you just want to be friends. Hhaha, I'm such a geeek.. but seriously.. I just have something to prove to myself before involving myself in another relationship.
The type of guy I want.. what matters the most is their personality, who they are on the inside. =) don't get me wrong-- looks do matter to me also.. but gyeah.. i like my man to be strong, physically and mentally and emotionally.. not some little bitch that cries over everything, not whipped. i want him to be able to protect me. I don't like my guy to be too muscular, but I don't like him to be skinny neither. It's hot if they have a nice back and nice arms. Guys that are always like "Is my hair okay? I look ugly don't I.." are major turn-offs.. I like my man with some confidence, haha.
What else.. gotta be a funny guy. I don't want them to be all into fighting. I like a man who is man enough to walk away from fights and all that.. but I also like him to be able to kick some major ass when he needs to. I just don't like if a guy is always "MAN, I'M GONNA FUCKING KICK HIS ASS, I COULD TAKE HIM ON." A cocky attitude like that will cause you to lose in a fight.. I don't like guys that act like they know everything. I like him to know the line between being romantic and a sappy little biatch. I want him to be able to look into a crowd of people and only see me.. ALL THAT good stufff.. Okay, I really dunno what I'm talkikng about anymore because I'm trying to watach TV..
Well, tonight I think we're going out. Hopefully to Eden to EAT! Eden is this big Vietnamese shopping/eating square.. Lots of Viets.. watch me get into a fight, haha.. just kidding. Asian gangstas.. you see more than just crappy souped up Hondas there.. they gots Lexuses, BMWS, Porsches..
Bye now..
I'm watching Crossroads on MTV right now.. the guy in it is way hot.
Okay, this is probably really gonna sound gay or something, but I can't help it. I just watched this episode of "Boy Meets World" and it touched me and made me feel sooo sad. It was when Corey and Topanga were broken up and Corey kissed another girl. Topanga found out and was really upset and Corey was trying to explain to her that he learned from it, that he could never love another girl because he loves only her. Topanga doesn't understand and Corey just kinda grabs her and is like "Topanga, we're gonna be together forever, you just haven't realized that yet." Or something.. but it just really touched my heart. That's the kind of thing I want. Despite everyone telling me that I'm only going to be 18, I need to experience instead of wanting love, all I really want is to be in a long-term relationship now. Well, not right NOW now.. but jyeah! I want love tooo..
My last two relationships were long, but didn't go exactly the way I wanted and I'm sad that I was so young and stupid in the head. But.. everything happens for a reason. You make mistakes and you learn from them. I just want to find the guy that'll make me feel like.. fuzzy and I don't want the romantic side to burn out after the beginning like most relationships do.. I don't want to go through assholes to find a real love. I'd rather be alone that settle for "good enough." I guess right now I'm just going to take it easy. Just start school and focus on that and only that. I'm really not that interested in hunting after guys. I don't feel lonely now that I'm single and I don't wish to be "taken". If a guy happens to come along and we dig each other, then cool. I don't want to go back to any relationship. I'm content with my life as of right now. I'm going to try and stay single for as long as possible. I kinda deserve it after being stuck for 3.5 years, right? Bottom line.. school & family = first.. any guy that is reading this-- don't bother me for the entire first semester of school unless you just want to be friends. Hhaha, I'm such a geeek.. but seriously.. I just have something to prove to myself before involving myself in another relationship.
The type of guy I want.. what matters the most is their personality, who they are on the inside. =) don't get me wrong-- looks do matter to me also.. but gyeah.. i like my man to be strong, physically and mentally and emotionally.. not some little bitch that cries over everything, not whipped. i want him to be able to protect me. I don't like my guy to be too muscular, but I don't like him to be skinny neither. It's hot if they have a nice back and nice arms. Guys that are always like "Is my hair okay? I look ugly don't I.." are major turn-offs.. I like my man with some confidence, haha.
What else.. gotta be a funny guy. I don't want them to be all into fighting. I like a man who is man enough to walk away from fights and all that.. but I also like him to be able to kick some major ass when he needs to. I just don't like if a guy is always "MAN, I'M GONNA FUCKING KICK HIS ASS, I COULD TAKE HIM ON." A cocky attitude like that will cause you to lose in a fight.. I don't like guys that act like they know everything. I like him to know the line between being romantic and a sappy little biatch. I want him to be able to look into a crowd of people and only see me.. ALL THAT good stufff.. Okay, I really dunno what I'm talkikng about anymore because I'm trying to watach TV..
Well, tonight I think we're going out. Hopefully to Eden to EAT! Eden is this big Vietnamese shopping/eating square.. Lots of Viets.. watch me get into a fight, haha.. just kidding. Asian gangstas.. you see more than just crappy souped up Hondas there.. they gots Lexuses, BMWS, Porsches..
Bye now..