-
still
still feel like my life is spiraling out of control
still feel like I'm stuck in the moments before they reveal I'm an idiot
still feel overwhelmed and adrift alone
still exhausted and drained
I just want to be still -
ever feel
like everything is a constant reminder of your inadequacies and failures?
sucks -
out of control
I feel like my life is spiraling. Seems like nothing goes right (or goes right for very long). I keep expecting adjustors to come and wipe us all out as failures at life. Help. -
losing it
Today the voices in my head are winning. I should just accept that I should only aspire to make the best cup of coffee. Why does everything have to be so goddamed hard. -
(Untitled)
So done with my life. It's fucked up and depressing when you realize that all your problems are your fault and you are the fail. It's pretty much a forgone conclusion that the only legacy I'll leave to my kids is a heaping pile of what not to do. I'm so full of sadness and anger and despair I can't even be happy in my alone time with the baby but I ( Read more... ) -
For the first time
Went into Labor and Delivery on Monday night after noting what I would consider abnormal swelling in my extremities. They admitted me for monitoring and are keeping me for maybe a week at this point. I am freaking out of course. 33 weeks today so it won't be the worst thing but we do of course want him to bake as long as possible. Mostly freaking ( Read more... ) -
Baby
After 12 years someone managed to knock me up again.
That is all -
Squee
I have a boyfriend.
That is all! -
the quick and dirty
Lost 30 pounds, less than 100 away from my goal.
despite this i feel like I'm never going to be a couple. All the men i really like don't reciprocate. I hate it
but I am also emotional right now. so whatever. ( here's a picture of something awesome ) -
Stupid app
The entry prior to this was more about me venting than writing a post. But you can't set to private without having a stupid notification appear. I hate notifications I resent them so I had to post it. Welcome to my fucked up logic. I guess in retrospect I could have deleted it. But I just realized that when I typed that last sentence. Fuck.
Posted ( Read more... )