Interlude:
Sometimes I feel okay or even good, but usually I feel overwhelmed or depressed or anxious or apathetic. I keep trying to make posts, but then I open up the tab and have no idea what to say. I'm still not sure what to say. But I feel like this is something that I should document for myself.
Today marked seven years since my mom died. That's approximately a quarter of my life. I was super busy all day, so I didn't even really get a chance to stop and think about it, which is sort of the opposite of previous years when I would spend the whole day actively trying not to think about it. And the funny thing is: now that I've finally experienced that day where I just sort of go through everything like normal and think, "Yeah, something awful and life-changing happened seven years ago, but that was seven years ago, and today I have shit to do," and I didn't really think about it or do anything... now I feel like I should have done something. But what is there to do? My mom died seven years ago, the end. What is there to do about that?
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Today marked seven years since my mom died. That's approximately a quarter of my life. I was super busy all day, so I didn't even really get a chance to stop and think about it, which is sort of the opposite of previous years when I would spend the whole day actively trying not to think about it. And the funny thing is: now that I've finally experienced that day where I just sort of go through everything like normal and think, "Yeah, something awful and life-changing happened seven years ago, but that was seven years ago, and today I have shit to do," and I didn't really think about it or do anything... now I feel like I should have done something. But what is there to do? My mom died seven years ago, the end. What is there to do about that?
Crossposted here on Dreamwidth. You can comment there anonymously or using OpenID. ♥