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[lovesmenot_]

Chances are, no one will read this. And, while I feel compelled to delete this entry, as I have done so many others, I think I will leave it

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[playsinthesand]

Reading this post, I could't think of any response other than to just nod.. I agree with everything you've said. I just recently went through my deadjournal and deleted all of the "Randall" posts.. I'm not sure why, it's just something I don't want to have around anymore. I don't want the reminder of how insecure and weak I felt at that time in my life.. and still am, just like you (as you say). And I also feel terrible sometimes for rambling on so much about Ryan.. but he's a big part of who I am, as is Nick with you.. so if people can't handle hearing about the most important things your life, it's not that hard to just scroll past. Nick was actually saying something a couple weeks ago about on-line journals, and I defended them in the same way you did, kind of.. it's a place for me to just sort out my thoughts, record the things I want to remember, and stay in touch with the people who you might have otherwise lost contact with altogether. All in all, I guess my point is that it feels good to know that there's someone out there

[lovesmenot_]

yes. sometimes, online journals are silly, and Nick rants at me about that sometimes (too much drama). but it's good to hear you say this. (And thanks for liking my poem. when people do, it means a lot). i miss you too!!! i'd love to do something, but i'm pretty busy until may (the play). and i am bad at volleyball. :p

[starshine_ruby]

mine is a minute point, i know, but i just wanted to point out that wordiness is one of my favorite qualities of yours.

[lovesmenot_]

i like being wordy. it's good to know it doesn't irritate some people. :) thanks, babe.

[princess_jes]

i'm glad i've got to know you better as a person. and i can truely see inside how beautiful and happy you are and it matches the outside of you as well.

[spiffy04]

yay
:) at least i was mentioned in some positivity. :)
all in all, however, i do have to agree that there does come a point in time when you realize that the livejournal that you've kept for over 2-3 years... can be deleted. It's like a cleansing in a way. (As odd as that may sound.) When i realized that all my bitching really didn't matter to anyone... that's when i decided to just make it about random nothingness. Most of it has some inner meaning that i have incrypted into my post some how in code. But i would rather look back on my journal and read it knowing that i didn't intentionally try to hurt someone by any of my posts. You know where i'm coming from? I think you do, so i'll stop rambling. In better news: It is 71* outside... heck yes... Heck yes...

<3 much love to you

[lovesmenot_]

definitely. it's cleansing. that's a really good word to describe it that i just didn't come up with last night. ♥

[lovesmenot_]

:)

[gibbor]

so much for no one reading it
huh

[lovesmenot_]

only you would leave that comment.

sorry i bit you. i thought it was funny...