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maggie i dont even know where to begin. i wish i could of been there to help you go through this. i cant fathom how scary it was for you. you are seriously so brave. i love you and i hope you are doing alright now. <3333333
I'm sorry to jump in on such a sad subject..but I have to say..
Pretty soon I will know what you're going through. My appointment is scheduled for this Saturday and I will be just over 7 weeks. It is the hardest fucking decision my boyfriend and I could imagine. I'm so scared, nervous, did I mention scared as hell?!
Yesterday my boyfriend asked me "How big is our baby?"..and I told him and asked why he replied "Just to depress myself, I guess. I want to keep it and whenever I talk about it I just get depressed. But I know it'd be our parents supporting it financially and that's not right."
I just hope with time will ease some of your pain. No one can know what you're going through besides you.
♥ Sorry again to barge in. I just wanted you to know..there's a lot of us out here that make the hardest decision of our lives.
I almost wish I were the only one because I don't want anyone else to go through it, but I am starting to feel a little bit better. It really helps to have a supportive boyfriend, seriously. If it makes you feel any better, don't be scared about the pain because it is virtually painless (the actual procedure, i mean,) so if you go in brave and telling yourself it's the right decision you'll come out a lot better than I did.
Thank you for your kind words even though you're going through the same thing. I just wanted to let you know that the procedure was done on Saturday. Although there was no physical pain...the emotional pain is..fucking unbearable. I saw my lil bean, as we nicknamed it, on the ultrasound..my heart sunk..I tried so hard not to cry. Even though I felt sick to my stomach all day long and exhausted every day..I already miss the feeling of being preggo. I told my bf yesterday that it's different actually being able to feel like it's already living inside of you. Last night I just broke down crying..it felt as if that was all I could do.
I know you probably don't want to relive this or anything, but if you ever want to talk, I really don't have anyone else who knows what going through this is like..feel free to e-mail me about anything: toki.usagi1 [at] gmail [dot] com.
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I could never begin to imagine how you must be feeling. I can't even think of anything to write here.
I think you are brave, though, for making such a hard decision.
I hope you can start feeling better, soon.
::hugs:: ♥
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i love you
you are a good, strong ladygirl. through and through.
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Pretty soon I will know what you're going through. My appointment is scheduled for this Saturday and I will be just over 7 weeks. It is the hardest fucking decision my boyfriend and I could imagine. I'm so scared, nervous, did I mention scared as hell?!
Yesterday my boyfriend asked me "How big is our baby?"..and I told him and asked why he replied "Just to depress myself, I guess. I want to keep it and whenever I talk about it I just get depressed. But I know it'd be our parents supporting it financially and that's not right."
I just hope with time will ease some of your pain. No one can know what you're going through besides you.
♥ Sorry again to barge in. I just wanted you to know..there's a lot of us out here that make the hardest decision of our lives.
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I just wanted to let you know that the procedure was done on Saturday. Although there was no physical pain...the emotional pain is..fucking unbearable. I saw my lil bean, as we nicknamed it, on the ultrasound..my heart sunk..I tried so hard not to cry. Even though I felt sick to my stomach all day long and exhausted every day..I already miss the feeling of being preggo. I told my bf yesterday that it's different actually being able to feel like it's already living inside of you. Last night I just broke down crying..it felt as if that was all I could do.
I know you probably don't want to relive this or anything, but if you ever want to talk, I really don't have anyone else who knows what going through this is like..feel free to e-mail me about anything: toki.usagi1 [at] gmail [dot] com.
I'm Chrissy, btw. :)
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