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i can't sleep. i'm thinking too much. mostly about money. or work. or my life and how incredibly lame and pathetic it is.
its been a while since i've updated, so i'll just touch on the highlights. ha! as if there are any . . .
* wendy is officially gone. yay! some kid named asa is taking her place. i have a feeling he won't even pass the teller training test, but we'll see. perhaps he'll surprise me. i feel somewhat relieved now that wendy's bad attitude is finally gone, however, it is re-festering itself in stacy's now horrible attitude. she doesn't want to do anything or work for anything and does stupid stuff just because she feels like it, regardless of whether or not it goes against charter one rules and regs. don't you just love insubordination? my new goal: get stacy to ship up or shape out. stacy is the pregnant one. and i just knew this was going to happen. perhaps i'm prejudiced towards working with pregnant women, but whenever i do, they just get incredibly lazy and think regular rules don't apply to them. i realise that pregnancy is difficult and trying and exhausting, but if its really that bad, go out on disability, ya know? don't waste my time and make me lose sleep.
* tomorrow i'm going to cortland for a meeting thing with citizen's bank. all the managers and assistants for my region will be there, which will be exciting. i'll get to see melissa and danielle and erin and mark and dave and todd. plus i'll be learning about citizen's bank and getting a feel for what changes will be made with this merger. so far i've heard nothing but good things about citizens so i'm actually not even upset about it anymore. i get very sentimental about things that are important to me, and losing charter one to citizens bank will always kinda make me slightly sad.. just because charter one was really onto something great. and i know that citizen's bank is obviously impressed with what we've accomplished and will pick up the positive aspects to our bank, tweak things a little, and make it their own. so i'm sure i'll have an even more precise feeling about everything after i go to this meeting tomorrow.
* after months of getting dicked around, i finally recieved my pride payout! woo! so now i have extra money and i'm trying to decide what to do. i talked to our rate specialist/investment rep/whatever you want to call her, and next week she's bringing in a portfolio for me to start a mutual fund... whatever that means. i'm going to talk to my brother and have him break everything down for me. i know i want to invest aggressively, but beyond that, i'm clueless. i obviously don't want to lose my money, but i want a moderate-to-high turnout. i don't think krista [my investment rep] would purposely lead me astray. and i really need to start doing this. i haven't even started my 401k yet.
* i'm also contemplating buying a new car. i really really want an alero, but realised it probably wouldn't be the best financial decision i could make, for various reasons. however, a dealer out in albany is offering a 6500$ rebate on pontiac grand ams. add my dad's GM employee discount, and i've got myself a bargain! of course, i'm going to do a little homework and see if i'd even be eligible for that rebate. i know GM is offering a 3500$ rebate for grand ams, but this dealer is adding an additional 3k to it. i guess i'm just unsure of it all, only because i don't want to spread myself to thin. i definitely need to start investing and saving, but i also need to think about my car situation. i only have 14 payments left on my sunfire. a part of me just wants to fix the minor problems i currently have and then just drive it into the ground. but another part of me doesn't want to have to worry about potentially having to fix a major problem down the road. i mean, my car is 4 years old with 88,000 miles on it. thats a bit much, don't you think? my trade in value totally sucks. which is a reason why i wouldn't want to get an alero. since they aren't making them anymore, i'd get absolutely nothing for it if/when i ever wanted to trade it in. but a part of me would love to have my car completely paid for and even jsut to go one year without a car payment, i'd have an extra 3000$ almost.
* i hate being debt. i hate the feeling of it. i have 3 store credit cards and one visa. i just paid one store card off completely. still have Gap and american eagle left. i'm making leaps and bounds with my visa. still have a lot left on my dell account.. which has the highest interest rate. i know i should just tackle that one first, but i want to get these little things out of the way. i think next month i'm going to pay american eagle off completely. ok now i'm just thinking out loud.. err.. huh?
* and to top all this stupid stuff off... i dunno. i've just been thinking about my life. where its going [or not going]. the other day stacy asked me if i go out to clubs or bars. and i was like, no not really. she was like, so how do you meet people? and that raises an interesting point. how do i meet people? i don't. i don't meet people. i don't have any friends. like. seriously. and i hate when people ask me, "so, hows the love life".. because there is no love life. and its even worse when people ask why. why? why!? because guys don't like me. i don't know if its my face, my body, my attitude, my opinions, .. i don't know. but whatever it is, its not attractive. at all. and every day i hear about so-and-so getting married or so-and-so is pregnant and it just angers me. i will forever be single, living in my parents basement with my cat- the only thing that loves me in the entire world.
its been a while since i've updated, so i'll just touch on the highlights. ha! as if there are any . . .
* wendy is officially gone. yay! some kid named asa is taking her place. i have a feeling he won't even pass the teller training test, but we'll see. perhaps he'll surprise me. i feel somewhat relieved now that wendy's bad attitude is finally gone, however, it is re-festering itself in stacy's now horrible attitude. she doesn't want to do anything or work for anything and does stupid stuff just because she feels like it, regardless of whether or not it goes against charter one rules and regs. don't you just love insubordination? my new goal: get stacy to ship up or shape out. stacy is the pregnant one. and i just knew this was going to happen. perhaps i'm prejudiced towards working with pregnant women, but whenever i do, they just get incredibly lazy and think regular rules don't apply to them. i realise that pregnancy is difficult and trying and exhausting, but if its really that bad, go out on disability, ya know? don't waste my time and make me lose sleep.
* tomorrow i'm going to cortland for a meeting thing with citizen's bank. all the managers and assistants for my region will be there, which will be exciting. i'll get to see melissa and danielle and erin and mark and dave and todd. plus i'll be learning about citizen's bank and getting a feel for what changes will be made with this merger. so far i've heard nothing but good things about citizens so i'm actually not even upset about it anymore. i get very sentimental about things that are important to me, and losing charter one to citizens bank will always kinda make me slightly sad.. just because charter one was really onto something great. and i know that citizen's bank is obviously impressed with what we've accomplished and will pick up the positive aspects to our bank, tweak things a little, and make it their own. so i'm sure i'll have an even more precise feeling about everything after i go to this meeting tomorrow.
* after months of getting dicked around, i finally recieved my pride payout! woo! so now i have extra money and i'm trying to decide what to do. i talked to our rate specialist/investment rep/whatever you want to call her, and next week she's bringing in a portfolio for me to start a mutual fund... whatever that means. i'm going to talk to my brother and have him break everything down for me. i know i want to invest aggressively, but beyond that, i'm clueless. i obviously don't want to lose my money, but i want a moderate-to-high turnout. i don't think krista [my investment rep] would purposely lead me astray. and i really need to start doing this. i haven't even started my 401k yet.
* i'm also contemplating buying a new car. i really really want an alero, but realised it probably wouldn't be the best financial decision i could make, for various reasons. however, a dealer out in albany is offering a 6500$ rebate on pontiac grand ams. add my dad's GM employee discount, and i've got myself a bargain! of course, i'm going to do a little homework and see if i'd even be eligible for that rebate. i know GM is offering a 3500$ rebate for grand ams, but this dealer is adding an additional 3k to it. i guess i'm just unsure of it all, only because i don't want to spread myself to thin. i definitely need to start investing and saving, but i also need to think about my car situation. i only have 14 payments left on my sunfire. a part of me just wants to fix the minor problems i currently have and then just drive it into the ground. but another part of me doesn't want to have to worry about potentially having to fix a major problem down the road. i mean, my car is 4 years old with 88,000 miles on it. thats a bit much, don't you think? my trade in value totally sucks. which is a reason why i wouldn't want to get an alero. since they aren't making them anymore, i'd get absolutely nothing for it if/when i ever wanted to trade it in. but a part of me would love to have my car completely paid for and even jsut to go one year without a car payment, i'd have an extra 3000$ almost.
* i hate being debt. i hate the feeling of it. i have 3 store credit cards and one visa. i just paid one store card off completely. still have Gap and american eagle left. i'm making leaps and bounds with my visa. still have a lot left on my dell account.. which has the highest interest rate. i know i should just tackle that one first, but i want to get these little things out of the way. i think next month i'm going to pay american eagle off completely. ok now i'm just thinking out loud.. err.. huh?
* and to top all this stupid stuff off... i dunno. i've just been thinking about my life. where its going [or not going]. the other day stacy asked me if i go out to clubs or bars. and i was like, no not really. she was like, so how do you meet people? and that raises an interesting point. how do i meet people? i don't. i don't meet people. i don't have any friends. like. seriously. and i hate when people ask me, "so, hows the love life".. because there is no love life. and its even worse when people ask why. why? why!? because guys don't like me. i don't know if its my face, my body, my attitude, my opinions, .. i don't know. but whatever it is, its not attractive. at all. and every day i hear about so-and-so getting married or so-and-so is pregnant and it just angers me. i will forever be single, living in my parents basement with my cat- the only thing that loves me in the entire world.