I got to thinking last night,
when I should have been sleeping, 
And not letting my mind- 
Run wild with me. 
Of all the selfishness 
That becomes of a  child. 
We never truly appreciate our parents, 
and the vast things they've done for us, 
Until we're away and wish 
to be young again. 
I was thinking about all of my trips 
with my dad. 
And all the ( Read more... )

Dear Girl; 
You are not part of his past. 
You know that when you delve past August 25th, 
on the deadly addiction that is blogspot,
you get frustrated. 
Seeing the richocheting love that- 
you were not part of- 
an do not understand. 
So it's in your best interest not to do that. 
To avoid the "My's" and the affection, 
And not encourage withing yorself-
the ( Read more... )

5 days, and no cigarette for me. 
A new Guinea will be arriving tonight. 
I do hope this one is healthy. 
The cage is all set and waiting- 
And I've been researching steadily.

Today is a good day thus far. 
I've sort of got the munchies, but who doesn't. 
Good food for dinner tonight- 
That I don't have to pay for (beautiful!)

Just another day in the ( Read more... )

I don't like death. 
No more pets. 
Sad.

So, another weekend has come and gone.
 Another weekend where I spent a day alone. It's my fault, I know. 
As people continue to point out to me- I could have gone out. 
I have a car. 
I have money. 
But I also have this affliction- 
Where everything I do must have some form of validation. 
Going out on Saturday had no vaildation.  I slept until 3.30pm.
So ( Read more... )

So, it's been one of those days. 
The kind of day where you realize something, 
That really- you knew all along. 
I have realized that I Can NOT behave in such a fashion. 
Of course- my subconcious has been screaming this- 
The Whole Time. 
But sometimes it takes longer for the rest of me to catch on.

She is not a threat, I realized this while chatting, 
( Read more... )

It's a heavy day. 
The kind of day where you walk through 
the dredge of  old coffee grounds.
Seeking some sort of enlightenment.
The kind of day where-
You try desperately to escape
From the jealousy and the pain.
Where you’re in a seemingly drug-induced,
Cloud, but there’s no way to come down;
From that which you didn’t consume.
And maybe if you ( Read more... )

I don't need to smoke. 
You know it- I know it. 
But I do need to quite. 
I need to be able to deny the nicotine, 
And the exotic exhale in favor, 
Of myself, and my natural beauty. 
I don't need to smoke. At all. 
I need to quite.

On other notes,
The wee teenie-boppers annoy me. 
And so I have deleted them, 
Let them play their silly games amongst ( Read more... )

I miss girls. 
Not that I want one- permanantly. 
But I miss the flirtation. 
Miss my Michi. 
I miss drunken night with kisses and loves 
And saying lewd things- just because one can. 
And I miss
I miss the softness that is holding someone feminine, 
And the opening of a mind and mentality that is so close to one's own. 
The comfort, and understanding and ( Read more... )

I seem to be caught up in the .differences. today.
First those that I find obvious in myself, and then followed with abruptness 
by the differences in environment, comunity, rationale.

Mostly me though.  It's been mentioned that I'm bipolar, 
Although it was said in jest, 
It was followed up by a serious discussion on the matter
with the conclusion ( Read more... )