I want to break you down so badly

I cried today.
For the first time in a while.
I just cried.
And it made me feel better.
A lot better.
I think I'll truely be okay.
I will.

I feel empty.
I feel lonely.
Sometimes I dont feel at all.
I dont know what to say.
I dont know what to do.
So amny things Iw ant to say to you.
But will it matter?
I dont understand why.
I cant explain the things you can't explain.
I want it to end. 
I want to leave.
I want to stop thinking
but you keep clouding my mind.
I tell myself I'm okay.
And maybe I am.
A ( Read more... )

I was okay today. 
I really was okay today.
I was happy.
I don't think I was upset once today.
I stayed after school to help with Jemishia's posters since she's
running for Vice President
I'm going to run for Historian
no one else is
it'll give me something to do.

I came home.
Did some spanish homework.
Talked to Candy.
My friend Jackie IMed me
and she brought ( Read more... )

It's not the times where you say too much that you need to worry about
it's the times where you want to say something and you hold it in.

I don't know.
Sometimes I think I am like the weirdest person ever
I can feel something at one tme
and feel completely different about it another.

I'm just waiting to really be okay.
I mean I can tell you I'm okay.
And I ( Read more... )

Hey your glass is empty
its a hell of a long way
home why dont you let me
take you its no good to go 
alone.

I've been thinking
about a lot of things lately.
And I hate posting these long posts
because I feel like I'm repeating myself
and that people will think it's just emo
when apart of me knows that's not it at all.
=/.

I've just been thinking
what if things ( Read more... )

I really have a thing for taking pics now a days ( Read more... )

Ive been looking
in the mirror for so long
that I've come to believe
my souls on the other side
All the little pieces fallen
shattered
shard of me too sharp to put 
back together
to small to matter
but big enough to cut me
into so many little pieces
if I try to touch her
and I bleed
and I bleed
and I breathe no more

the smallest words make a difference
and the ( Read more... )

She was fucked up
and drugged up
and she was drunk alot
she never thought
she was good at anything

but I loved her anyway

She was divorced
and had a kid
but didn't recieve 
custody.
She had two more children
different fathers

I loved her anyway.

My sister.
I love her to death seriously.
She is one of the greatest people
in my life.
She's messed up a lot
but she's ( Read more... )

Today was pretty fun
earlier today I got on 
the computer I talked to
my friend Jordan
Candy, and Mel.

I finally got a hold of Jason
but he couldn't go to the movies
so me and my friend Jackie
went to see Scary Move 4,
that movie was HILARIOUS
I loved it.
Dr.Phil can't act but that's besides
the point I suggest all of you
go see it

Before that
we saw Timothy ( Read more... )

I don't want to 
pretend so this is
the end of you and me

So
I didn't meet Jason today
he had to go and visit his
uncle in the hospital
but we hope to do something
tomorrow

Me and Candy are fine
we're on the phone with eachother
watching American's Next Top Model
fun fun fun fun fun!!!!!