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[lovrlyjade]

i emailed dave. i couldnt help myself. the thought of him being sad, hurting and alone in NC just broke my heart (even more). he wrote me back so we have been corresponding somewhat. his first email seemed very genuine well the second felt like he was just writing something to write something. it made me kind of sad. here i thought we were going to

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[ultimateq42]

I always have trouble believing the "it's not you, it's me" line. It's both of you. It's him for saying it, you for believing it. Crazy I think it was just a cop-out.

part of being depressed, everyone hates you, so you better get rid eof them before htey get rid of you.and also part of the "world would be better off without me" thinking

Key question to answer, is this just a knee-jerk reaction to stress of grad school, or is it actually over? If it's actually over, then it's over, and think it's time to move on.

ANyway, gnite!

[lovrlyjade]

i'm wondering about the knee-jerk thing too. i just want him to see how stupid that decision was and come running back to me...lofty hope i know.

[digitalhymn]

i can relate to that empty feeling
like something physically chewed your insides, almost?

[lovrlyjade]

not almost.

[jujugirl]

I thought you weren't going to tell your mom? Well, hopefully she didn't bite off too much of your head!

[lovrlyjade]

i wasnt going to but i figured that it was going to slip out eventually or that she was going to figure it out (as my mom knows everything...seriously). the fall out wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. just some dave directed name calling.

besides, dave hasnt written me in a couple of days so our conversation may be over.