[Chaptered] The Bet 14/?
Aiba`s POV
I blankly stared at the wall, trying to imagine pattern on it. My back was leaned on Sho`s chest, I could feel his slowly beating heart and his steady breath tickled my neck. He moved slightly and tightened his embrace. I slowly caressed his arms around my waist, I tried to memorize this moment, because I understood I won’t experience this kind of moment again.
I felt so sleepy but I wouldn’t let myself sleep, I didn’t want to waste my already limited time with him. I started to pity myself, why did I never get the one I love? But I had loved only Sho… I had never fallen in love before, not as deeply as my feelings for Sho were. Compared to my feelings right now, what I felt for Reiko was just stupid and childish. I hated her because she had hurt me, but this time… I couldn’t do the same with Sho, I couldn’t hate him. In fact, I desperately wanted to get back with him. Although I knew perfectly, that I wasn’t suited for him. I made a big mistake and he won’t look at me again. Every time I remembered this fact I couldn’t hold my tears.
The dark grey sky slowly changed into brightly clear one.
It’s time to leave ,Masaki… I told myself. I strengthened my heart and gathered my courage. I removed his hands from my waist, Sho quietly whimpered in his sleep and I placed his hands on his chest. I pulled myself away and we weren’t connected in the intimate way we were before.
I gathered my clothes that were strewed across the floor and silently put them on. I glanced at Sho who was still sleeping peacefully, then, walked closer and sat on the edge of the bed. I slowly caressed his cheek, trying to not wake him up.
I had thought about that… If Sho didn’t want me anymore, no one wanted me. His feelings and his trust were the only things I had and when I lost them, there wasn’t anything left.
It wasn’t his fault, it was all my fault. If he didn’t want me anymore there was nothing more I could do about it. I decided that I would leave, I would leave and find a new place and wouldn’t return ever again. I would move to a new place and keep thinking about Sho for the rest of my life…
I took my cell phone and took a photo of Sho. I couldn’t help myself but smile widely when I saw the photo. I moved closer to him and kissed his lips.
For the last time…
I didn’t need to pack anything much, I didn’t have anything. I only took some clothes from my closet. I packed them in my schoolbag and wore my uniform.
I slowly walked until I met Sho`s butler who probably wanted to wake up his Young Master.
“Aiba-san,” he bowed.
“Good morning,” I smiled.
“Do you want to go to school early? I`ll prepare the car.”
I smiled and shook my head, “No need to do that, my friend need to take a look at my assignment before class and I want to walk to school today,” I answered.
“I see,” he nodded. “Have a nice day, Aiba-san,” he bowed again.
“Thank you,” I nodded and smiled to him.
I held my resignation letter tightly and slowly walked to the school…
~~~~~~~~~~~~********~~~~~~~~~~~
I slowly closed head master`s door, a lot of students passed before me, some greeted me or smiled at me. For the last time I had to smile brightly to all of them. I saw a girl, who tried to flirt with Sho before, passing by me. She stared at me while walked by, she didn’t even feel uncomfortable when I stared right back at her. Maybe she could date Sho after I left, that thought was hurting me a lot. Someday Sho would date someone, marry, inherit his company, and play with his son. I felt pain in my chest, I realized that I would never exist in his future.
Slowly I walked to his resting room, I opened the door and the room was empty. I walked to his chair and sat there for a while. Memorized the room, imagined that he was there and kissed me like the last time we were there.
When I felt it was enough I let my feet bring me to the library. I explored every corner where I and Sho had been before; we talked about books, laughed, he would trap me against the bookshelf and kiss me. Again, I felt the same pain when I was describing it like it was all the past.
Well… It was past… I told myself.
I left the room to head to the last place of my ‘Memories of Sho Tour’, which I had left as that purposely.
The rooftop…
The place where Reiko dumped me, the place where I talked with Sho for the first time… I could clearly remember how I thought Sho won’t talk to me again after that. But…he helped me again and again…
I was slowly opening the door when I heard Nino`s voice, What a coincidence… I could see him for one last time now… I would miss him and Ohno after I’d leave…
“It’s not only your fault, stop blaming yourself!” that was Ohno`s voice, they were talking and judging from the tone…They were talking about something serious.
“It is my fault, Oh-chan! I was the one who had the idea!” Nino`s voice sounded impatient.
“I didn’t try to stop you, in fact I joined the bet, so… Half of it is my fault…” Ohno said softly.
“No, don’t you dare to blame yourself!” Nino warned the older, “What should I do, Oh-chan? If Sho-kun and Aiba-chan`s relationship broke, it was because of me… If I had made it easier for Sho-kun…they wouldn’t be in this situation… If I wouldn’t have started the bet, Jun wouldn’t have fallen for Aiba-chan… I never predicted that Jun would fall for Aiba-chan… I expected that he would just want the prize of the bet… I never expected he wanted Aiba-chan, the one we betted about…”
“No one would expect that…”
“But… I just wanted to make Sho-kun confess to Aiba-chan. He was the only one who could save him… That’s why I made the bet, that’s why I made us bet to make Aiba-chan fall in love with one of us, to make Sho-kun realize that his position wasn’t safe…at all…”
“I understand…”Ohno softly answered.
“No! Don’t be understanding this easily!” Nino snapped.
“But…Sho-kun won the bet…” Ohno slowly said to Nino.
My hand was trembling on the doorknob. I closed my eyes tightly. What was this all about? A bet? To make me fall in love with one of them? And there was prize if someone would win my love?
I laughed bitterly, I closed the door and smiled to myself. No wonder all Sho`s friends came to me all of a sudden, no wonder a prince like him helped me, I found the reason why my life had changed all of a sudden…
He acted like I was the one who had made an unforgivable sin, he hated me because I gave a blowjob to his best friend, he hated me as if he was an angel who never did anything wrong…
Everything matched, I was just too stupid to understand, too naïve and too blind because of the love. He had just played with my feelings, and I had confessed to him again and again, tried to get back with him. That’s why he never answered them…because he didn’t have any feelings for me. Maybe, if he hadn’t known I gave Jun a blowjob, he would have dumped me in another way…
I walked down the stairs, I needed to do something before I disappeared…
~~~~~~~~~~~~********~~~~~~~~~~~
AN : this entry special for no3lr3i Gomen...I cant post it before u went to sleep >< *kicks my alarm*
I`m really sorry for the delay. you can beat me but RL does sucks~~ thats what can I say~~ T_T
but I hope you enjoy the chapter. Still angst I know...
jya...what do u think guys...? at least Aiba knew about the bet~~
I blankly stared at the wall, trying to imagine pattern on it. My back was leaned on Sho`s chest, I could feel his slowly beating heart and his steady breath tickled my neck. He moved slightly and tightened his embrace. I slowly caressed his arms around my waist, I tried to memorize this moment, because I understood I won’t experience this kind of moment again.
I felt so sleepy but I wouldn’t let myself sleep, I didn’t want to waste my already limited time with him. I started to pity myself, why did I never get the one I love? But I had loved only Sho… I had never fallen in love before, not as deeply as my feelings for Sho were. Compared to my feelings right now, what I felt for Reiko was just stupid and childish. I hated her because she had hurt me, but this time… I couldn’t do the same with Sho, I couldn’t hate him. In fact, I desperately wanted to get back with him. Although I knew perfectly, that I wasn’t suited for him. I made a big mistake and he won’t look at me again. Every time I remembered this fact I couldn’t hold my tears.
The dark grey sky slowly changed into brightly clear one.
It’s time to leave ,Masaki… I told myself. I strengthened my heart and gathered my courage. I removed his hands from my waist, Sho quietly whimpered in his sleep and I placed his hands on his chest. I pulled myself away and we weren’t connected in the intimate way we were before.
I gathered my clothes that were strewed across the floor and silently put them on. I glanced at Sho who was still sleeping peacefully, then, walked closer and sat on the edge of the bed. I slowly caressed his cheek, trying to not wake him up.
I had thought about that… If Sho didn’t want me anymore, no one wanted me. His feelings and his trust were the only things I had and when I lost them, there wasn’t anything left.
It wasn’t his fault, it was all my fault. If he didn’t want me anymore there was nothing more I could do about it. I decided that I would leave, I would leave and find a new place and wouldn’t return ever again. I would move to a new place and keep thinking about Sho for the rest of my life…
I took my cell phone and took a photo of Sho. I couldn’t help myself but smile widely when I saw the photo. I moved closer to him and kissed his lips.
For the last time…
I didn’t need to pack anything much, I didn’t have anything. I only took some clothes from my closet. I packed them in my schoolbag and wore my uniform.
I slowly walked until I met Sho`s butler who probably wanted to wake up his Young Master.
“Aiba-san,” he bowed.
“Good morning,” I smiled.
“Do you want to go to school early? I`ll prepare the car.”
I smiled and shook my head, “No need to do that, my friend need to take a look at my assignment before class and I want to walk to school today,” I answered.
“I see,” he nodded. “Have a nice day, Aiba-san,” he bowed again.
“Thank you,” I nodded and smiled to him.
I held my resignation letter tightly and slowly walked to the school…
~~~~~~~~~~~~********~~~~~~~~~~~
I slowly closed head master`s door, a lot of students passed before me, some greeted me or smiled at me. For the last time I had to smile brightly to all of them. I saw a girl, who tried to flirt with Sho before, passing by me. She stared at me while walked by, she didn’t even feel uncomfortable when I stared right back at her. Maybe she could date Sho after I left, that thought was hurting me a lot. Someday Sho would date someone, marry, inherit his company, and play with his son. I felt pain in my chest, I realized that I would never exist in his future.
Slowly I walked to his resting room, I opened the door and the room was empty. I walked to his chair and sat there for a while. Memorized the room, imagined that he was there and kissed me like the last time we were there.
When I felt it was enough I let my feet bring me to the library. I explored every corner where I and Sho had been before; we talked about books, laughed, he would trap me against the bookshelf and kiss me. Again, I felt the same pain when I was describing it like it was all the past.
Well… It was past… I told myself.
I left the room to head to the last place of my ‘Memories of Sho Tour’, which I had left as that purposely.
The rooftop…
The place where Reiko dumped me, the place where I talked with Sho for the first time… I could clearly remember how I thought Sho won’t talk to me again after that. But…he helped me again and again…
I was slowly opening the door when I heard Nino`s voice, What a coincidence… I could see him for one last time now… I would miss him and Ohno after I’d leave…
“It’s not only your fault, stop blaming yourself!” that was Ohno`s voice, they were talking and judging from the tone…They were talking about something serious.
“It is my fault, Oh-chan! I was the one who had the idea!” Nino`s voice sounded impatient.
“I didn’t try to stop you, in fact I joined the bet, so… Half of it is my fault…” Ohno said softly.
“No, don’t you dare to blame yourself!” Nino warned the older, “What should I do, Oh-chan? If Sho-kun and Aiba-chan`s relationship broke, it was because of me… If I had made it easier for Sho-kun…they wouldn’t be in this situation… If I wouldn’t have started the bet, Jun wouldn’t have fallen for Aiba-chan… I never predicted that Jun would fall for Aiba-chan… I expected that he would just want the prize of the bet… I never expected he wanted Aiba-chan, the one we betted about…”
“No one would expect that…”
“But… I just wanted to make Sho-kun confess to Aiba-chan. He was the only one who could save him… That’s why I made the bet, that’s why I made us bet to make Aiba-chan fall in love with one of us, to make Sho-kun realize that his position wasn’t safe…at all…”
“I understand…”Ohno softly answered.
“No! Don’t be understanding this easily!” Nino snapped.
“But…Sho-kun won the bet…” Ohno slowly said to Nino.
My hand was trembling on the doorknob. I closed my eyes tightly. What was this all about? A bet? To make me fall in love with one of them? And there was prize if someone would win my love?
I laughed bitterly, I closed the door and smiled to myself. No wonder all Sho`s friends came to me all of a sudden, no wonder a prince like him helped me, I found the reason why my life had changed all of a sudden…
He acted like I was the one who had made an unforgivable sin, he hated me because I gave a blowjob to his best friend, he hated me as if he was an angel who never did anything wrong…
Everything matched, I was just too stupid to understand, too naïve and too blind because of the love. He had just played with my feelings, and I had confessed to him again and again, tried to get back with him. That’s why he never answered them…because he didn’t have any feelings for me. Maybe, if he hadn’t known I gave Jun a blowjob, he would have dumped me in another way…
I walked down the stairs, I needed to do something before I disappeared…
~~~~~~~~~~~~********~~~~~~~~~~~
AN : this entry special for no3lr3i Gomen...I cant post it before u went to sleep >< *kicks my alarm*
I`m really sorry for the delay. you can beat me but RL does sucks~~ thats what can I say~~ T_T
but I hope you enjoy the chapter. Still angst I know...
jya...what do u think guys...? at least Aiba knew about the bet~~