[One-shot] the indirect conversation
Title : The Indirect Conversation
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : no3lr3i *happy birthday sho-chan XD
Pairing : Sakuraiba
Genre : AU, Romance
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : I own them in my imagination and you read it now XD
Summary :
Aiba thinks he understands Sho and came to a conclusion that Sho’s worried over their relationship thus kept their relationship a little secret for them to share, but is that the real problem between them?
AN : isnt it obvious for Sho`s birthday? XD lets scream it together!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAKURAI SHO!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!
I love your arms sooo much~~!! XD
For : dazehyde , xxdaviexx , esther_ting because they gave me the idea for a sequel XD
A sequel fic of ~The Secret Conversation~
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I stared at my cell phone intensively, as I stared and stared at it but it just wouldn’t vibrate like the way I wanted it to. I tried to shake it but nothing happened. I-was-desperate-for-this-damn-thing-to-vibrate-now!!. “I demand you to vibrate!” I shook it again and sighed aloud when nothing happened...again. Lucky for me, I was in my room alone at that time because my mum would most probably call an ambulance or something if she were to see her son talking to his own cell phone like how I did. I threw my phone onto my bed and stacked up some pillows above it then I tried to focus on my given homework, but I knew perfectly that I wouldn’t be able to concentrate anymore.
It has been almost a month since I started dating Sakurai Sho. I’ve liked him since our second year and please don’t ask me why I liked him...
....
well...if you really insist to know...It was actually a pretty silly reason. I started to like him because he passed my basketball back to me. I knew him since...no one even cared right?
....
okay...I don’t remember... But no one was a blur of his existence, everyone knew about him. He was the smartest kid in the school although his expressions and gestures always indicate that he didn’t want anyone to disturb him in his world nor did he cared about the world around him. When most of the students stayed back after school because they wanted to watch my basketball competition, he stayed back because he wanted to read some books in the library. He had never ever showed any interest on me, not to mention that he might also not know of my existence. Though that would actually be quite impossible, not that I’m trying to swank but I am the most famous basketball player. Then again, I thought nothing could be impossible when it comes to Sakurai Sho. He did indeed stop his rushing footsteps that day just to pass my basketball back to me, and that was how my weird interest toward Sakurai Sho got more and more uncontrollable.
I could still remember clearly on how Nino reacted when he made his first comment after my confession that I liked Sakurai Sho. “Him? Of all girls in school that hovers around wanting you and you want that freak? nonsense!” But he is my best friend after all, so in the end even with all his bratty comments, he’s still supporting me.
The sound of vibration disturbed my thoughts about Sho. I dug into the pile of pillows, and found my cell phone. I opened it and couldn’t help but smile when I saw the name on the screen.
-my sho-
Sorry, just finished writing the last word on my essay, if you think you need my help with your home work, just tell me okay?
I replied almost immediately,
No, I don’t want to work on my home work when I meet you, I want to k|
I left the pointer at the end of message and erased all that I’ve written. I started to re-write my message.
okay, but I don’t think I’ll need it soon :P
Not long after the message was sent, his name appeared on my screen again.
Don’t be too calm, Masaki...
I laughed and reply,
Don’t be too serious, Sho-chan <3
I’ve got another fast reply,
I think it’s best if we sleep Masaki...It`s getting late...
I stared at his last message blankly and pushed the call button.
“Mo...moshi-moshi? Masaki?” I could hear his voice clearly. But I did not respond, I just kept quiet to tease him.
“Masaki?” then I heard a cracking sound that seemed to be from his bed, “Masaki? are you okay?” he asked, his voice filled with concern.
“No...” I answered slowly, while trying to resist the urge to laugh.
“What happened?” he asked again, concerned.
“I`m sick Sho-chan...” I whispered.
“Sick? Why didn’t you just tell me?” he asked. “Have you taken any med--”
“I`m sick because I miss you...” I cut him fast; then there was a long...silence between us.
“Sho-chan?” I broke the silence.
“Don’t you ever dare to scare me like that ever again!” he warned me, “The answer?” he asked.
“Y...yes...?”
“Good,” his voice sounded satisfied, “Oyasumi...and I miss you too...a lot...” he whispered to me but before I get to answer, he cut the line and I couldn’t even close my eyes until morning as my heart was working harder than normal.
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I ate my lunch with Nino today, as always. We have been eating together every day since when we were in the kindergarten. Well…yeah, he is my childhood friend and he cares about me, always so caring. That’s why he often asked about my relationship with Sho. I knew that he was worried, because to be honest, I am too. But I don’t like the idea of doubting Sho`s feelings. He asked about how we started dating and I answered that everything started when I wrote a random message on the library table. Sho lied as he introduced himself as Matsumoto Jun, but I for one knew Jun perfectly since he was my ex even though it was a rather short relationship, I knew it wasn’t Jun`s hand writing. The creepy part was that I knew it was Sho`s hand writing…maybe it was because I once stole his science homework from the teacher’s office.
I patted my head. I was such a stalker! I felt my cell phone vibrating slowly in my pocket. I took it out and smiled when I saw his name on the screen.
Why did you pat your head?
That was the message from him. I replied immediately even though I can feel my best friend’s stare at me.
“What?” I asked Nino who has stopped his game and was staring straight at me without even blinking his eyes.
“That was my exact question to you,” he answered and his expression changed into a fake worried and amused expression.
“Huh?”
He scoffed, “Don’t play dumb!”
“I`m not! What are you talking about?”
He pointed at a table behind ours, “He is there Aiba Masaki! Why do you need to text him when he’s just 3 steps away, geez!”
I pulled down his hand fast, “Shhhh!”
He was staring at me, “What? Why? Why don’t you talk to him directly? I thought you`re dating him?”
“Shut up Ninomiya Kazunari!” I snapped. We tend to use our full name to address each other when we were irritated at each others’ actions.
“Then? Answer me!” he ordered.
“It`s just…it`s just…I don’t know, okay? I have no idea why we can’t talk to each other directly, maybe he’s too shy or maybe he just didn’t want anyone know about us…”
I could hear the pain in my voice and I knew with his sharp intuition, Nino knew exactly what I meant. I felt my cell phone vibrate again and Sho`s name again appeared on the screen.
What happened? Why did Nino point at me?
I opened a new page in order to reply his message; No, I`m so-
Before I manage to finish my reply, Nino stood up and walked over to where Sho and Ohno was sitting, “Nino!” I hissed but he kept his pace and it gave me no choice but to follow him. He put his tray down on their table.
“Can we sit here?” he asked, Sho was looking at him with a shocked expression while Ohno nodded calmly.
“Nino…” I whispered as he positioned himself on his new seat.
“What? You want to sit here with us or there alone?” he smirked.
“How could you…?” I whispered to him, but I knew that Sho and Ohno could hear it clearly. A lot of students were now staring at us and I saw that Sho choose to stared at the floor. I glared at Nino. I knew that Sho hates it being the centre of the attention. Fine!!
“I’ve finished my lunch,” I said as cold as I could and left their table. Nino looked at me, confused, he might have never thought that I would refuse to sit there, but I don’t want Sho to feel embarrassed. I walked out of the cafeteria and I knew there were lots of eyes following my every action. Nino followed me from behind and pulled my hand.
“Hey! Hey! Aiba!” he pulled me roughly and it made me come to a halt.
“What? Are you happy now? Ruining my relationship?” I glared at him.
“I didn’t! You did!” he yelled.
“Why didn’t you just sit there?” he asked.
“Because he don’t want me to sit there with him, Nino! Can’t you understand? He’s embarrassed to let people know the fact that we’re dating!” I yelled back in frustration. I spilled out all the pain and the insecure feelings that I’ve kept in. He frowned.
“I couldn’t see that he was embarrassed…the only thing that I saw is that you`re the one who’s embarrassed to let people know you are in a relationship with him!” he pointed at me.
“I`m not…” I shook my head, feeling shock. He sighed softly and took a deep breath.
“I know…but can you imagine how he’s feeling now…? After you’ve rejected to sit with him at his table…?” he asked. I imagined myself sitting in the cafeteria with him saying that he don’t want to sit with me at my table in front a lot of people, then I felt my cell phone vibrate. I took it out and saw his name on the screen.
“Hello? Sho-chan? Where are you? I want to--”
“Let’s break up for a while…” he said softly.
“What?? No, Sho-chan…please…I want to explain--”
“There’s nothing to explain Masaki, it`s okay…I understand…” he cut my words again.
“No! you don’t!”
“It`s okay…” he sighed, “Take care, Masaki…”
“Sho-chan?? Sho-chan??” It felt like I’ve lost my leg bones as I fell onto the floor when he cut the line.
“What happened?” Nino asked me, worried and knelt down in front of me.
“He wants to break up for a while…” I felt something wet my cheeks and it took me a full minute to realize that it was my own tears.
“Oh my…” Nino said incoherent words and hugged me.
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I’ve sent out a lot of messages but he never replied. I’ve tried calling him many times but never once did he pick up. Have I lost him already? But I don’t want to lose him…Even if he didn’t want to forgive me, I still don’t want to give up. I now understand how he felt when I ignored his message on the library table before. But I’ve visited the library everyday to read his desperate message written on the table, until he said he loved me. I flipped my cell phone out and stared at it blankly …I missed his messages…I missed him…
Sho-chan…how are you…?
Are you eating properly…?
Are you wearing your jacket properly…?
It`s really cold outside, take care…
I pushed the send button, but I knew perfectly well that I won’t get a reply…He couldn’t forgive me. He has already felt insecure when we dated; he said that I won’t want someone like him. I was the one who should understand him most, but I was the one who don’t understand at all.
I’ve typed something on my cell phone again.
Sho-chan…Tomorrow is your birthday…
I wonder if it’s okay to give you something…?
I pushed the send button again and tried to concentrate on my dough. I would make a cake for his birthday, even though I’ve never done it before. But I want to make something, and not something that could be bought in the shop. I want his birthday to be a special birthday like he made mine one…
Sho-chan, do you still remember when we met on my birthday…?
Did you know that I did not let anyone wish me happy birthday before you did…
I wanted to hear yours first…
I sent another message and started to talk about my birthday with him…
Sho-chan…I’ve regretted because we’ve never talked to each other directly even though we’re dating…
I couldn’t stop my hand from sending out messages to him again and again. I glanced at the clock and I almost fell of my chair when I saw that it was already mid night.
Sho-chan!! It`s mid night already!!
Otanjoubi omedetou~~ <3 <3 <3
Am I first?
Because if not, I`ll kill that first person!! Kidding~~
Happy birthday~~ <3
I sat down sighing as I stared at my cell phone, waiting for the reply that won’t come.
Sho-chan…do you know…?
I love you…
A lot…
I flipped it close and felt tears blurred my eyes again. I have to bake the cake and not cry! I reminded myself and placed the dough in the mold.
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“I still disagree…” Nino folded his arms across his chest as he talked to me.
“I’ve decided already…” I said firmly.
He sighed, “Why? Why don’t you give that cake to him directly?” he asked.
“Because it`ll just make everything worse Nino!” I answered him, impatient.
“Why? Why must you think of it that way?” he asked.
“It`s just…I`m sure, okay?”
“Not okay! It doesn’t make any sense Aiba! It`s your time to make up with him, but you just…”
“Shhh!! You can’t change my mind…” I’ve already decided as I walked over to his locker. I saw his name labeled on the locker and put the box of cake into his locker.
“Okay, finished!” I clapped my hands, “Time to think about the competition this afternoon then,” I smiled at Nino, trying to tell myself that everything is okay. Although I knew perfectly well that it wasn’t.
I have a basketball competition this afternoon. Before ruining everything between Sho and I; I’ve wanted to present my victory to him. Yes, I was positive that I would win today.
I played well today, we played well. There were lots of sweats, high five, and salvo from the supporters. I was happy, but right after everyone had left the stadium and all my team mates have said their good bye, I felt that same emptiness again. I wanted to win for Sho and he didn’t even watch the game. He never really liked basketball in the first place. I sighed and brought my feet to leave school grounds.
It was already dark and Nino didn’t want to wait for me so he left saying that he prefers to play with his video games that watch my game. Well…every time he said that he would watch my game, always ends up with him playing his PSP at the stadium. When I tried to talk about my dunk, he would say that he missed seeing it because he got the King in his game. I was sitting at the bus stop alone as I’ve decided not to walk back home tonight, because of my worse than bad mood and also because I was tired due to the game. I tighten my scarf in order to withstand the cold. A bus stopped in front of me and I guess it was the last bus so I got up and there was a high school student at the back seat who’s sound asleep with his face hidden by his shoulder, and a woman sitting at the front row as she talk into her cell phone. I sat in between which is the middle part of the bus seats and not long after I’ve settled, the bus started to move slowly.
I was startled when my cell phone vibrated and flustered when I saw the name on the screen. -my Sho-
My hands were trembling as I flipped it open.
“Mo…moshi-moshi…?” I didn’t get an answer after a few seconds.
“Hey…” he answered. It felt like my chest would burst out because of the relief I felt hearing his voice again, or probably because I missed him, or maybe because I loved him…
“Sho-chan…?” I asked, and I knew that my voice was quivering.
“Yes, how are you…?” he asked slowly.
“Co-cold…” I shuttered and felt stupid when I heard him laugh. “Sho-chan, are you still mad at me…?” I asked.
There was a long silence before he answered, “No, but I can’t stand being your secret…” I knew he imitated my line.
“No, you`re not! And you’ll never be one…I’ve always thought that you were the one who’ll be embarrassed if people knew the fact that we are dating…” I said slowly.
“Are you stupid or something?” he asked, “I`m the one who’s supposed to feel that way…” he added.
“Why…?” I asked.
“Because you`re so popular and you`re always the centre of attention. You`re always so shiny…”
“I`m not…” I answered, “And I want us to talk to each other directly from now on, not only through the cell phone, letter, table, or anything…”
“You really think we can do that?” he asked.
“Yes,” I nodded; even if I knew that he wouldn’t see it.
“I’ve got the present by the way…arigatou…”
“Ahhh…yes…that is just…ordinary…” I said quickly.
“You made it yourself?” he asked.
I nodded again but answered because he couldn’t see me nod, “Yes…”
”So, it`s special then, thank you…for the letter too…”
“You read it??”
“Of course,” he laughed, “It was in the cake box, how could I not read it?” I felt my cheeks burning.
“I want to read it again…” he laughed, and I could hear him opening a folded paper and before I could say stop, he’s already reading it, “Sho-chan…do you know…? If you`re a basketball game…you`re the only game that I feel I can’t win…”
“Sho-chan…do you know…? That I think about you, every day, every minute and every second of my life…?”
“Sho-chan…do you know…? That Aiba Masaki loves you…? A lot?” he stopped for a while, “Happy birthday…”
“Mou! Are you happy now?” I asked and felt really embarrassed because I wrote such a letter.
“You can say that,” he laughed and paused for a while then continued, “Masaki, do you know…?”
“Huh?” I asked, confused.
My eyes widen in shock when I felt hot breath by my ear, “That Sakurai Sho loves you too…?” he whispered directly to my ear, the next second I felt his arms circling around my shoulder as he hugged me from the passenger seat behind me. “A lot…?”
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AN : yatta~~!! happy sho`s day minna XD *is excited*
oh yeah...if you`re wondering...the high schooler that slept on the bus was sho, he was just pretending XD
and this is my very first sequel fic, what do you think? *hides*
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : no3lr3i *happy birthday sho-chan XD
Pairing : Sakuraiba
Genre : AU, Romance
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : I own them in my imagination and you read it now XD
Summary :
Aiba thinks he understands Sho and came to a conclusion that Sho’s worried over their relationship thus kept their relationship a little secret for them to share, but is that the real problem between them?
AN : isnt it obvious for Sho`s birthday? XD lets scream it together!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAKURAI SHO!!! WE LOVE YOU!!!
I love your arms sooo much~~!! XD
For : dazehyde , xxdaviexx , esther_ting because they gave me the idea for a sequel XD
A sequel fic of ~The Secret Conversation~
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I stared at my cell phone intensively, as I stared and stared at it but it just wouldn’t vibrate like the way I wanted it to. I tried to shake it but nothing happened. I-was-desperate-for-this-damn-thing-to-vibrate-now!!. “I demand you to vibrate!” I shook it again and sighed aloud when nothing happened...again. Lucky for me, I was in my room alone at that time because my mum would most probably call an ambulance or something if she were to see her son talking to his own cell phone like how I did. I threw my phone onto my bed and stacked up some pillows above it then I tried to focus on my given homework, but I knew perfectly that I wouldn’t be able to concentrate anymore.
It has been almost a month since I started dating Sakurai Sho. I’ve liked him since our second year and please don’t ask me why I liked him...
....
well...if you really insist to know...It was actually a pretty silly reason. I started to like him because he passed my basketball back to me. I knew him since...no one even cared right?
....
okay...I don’t remember... But no one was a blur of his existence, everyone knew about him. He was the smartest kid in the school although his expressions and gestures always indicate that he didn’t want anyone to disturb him in his world nor did he cared about the world around him. When most of the students stayed back after school because they wanted to watch my basketball competition, he stayed back because he wanted to read some books in the library. He had never ever showed any interest on me, not to mention that he might also not know of my existence. Though that would actually be quite impossible, not that I’m trying to swank but I am the most famous basketball player. Then again, I thought nothing could be impossible when it comes to Sakurai Sho. He did indeed stop his rushing footsteps that day just to pass my basketball back to me, and that was how my weird interest toward Sakurai Sho got more and more uncontrollable.
I could still remember clearly on how Nino reacted when he made his first comment after my confession that I liked Sakurai Sho. “Him? Of all girls in school that hovers around wanting you and you want that freak? nonsense!” But he is my best friend after all, so in the end even with all his bratty comments, he’s still supporting me.
The sound of vibration disturbed my thoughts about Sho. I dug into the pile of pillows, and found my cell phone. I opened it and couldn’t help but smile when I saw the name on the screen.
-my sho-
Sorry, just finished writing the last word on my essay, if you think you need my help with your home work, just tell me okay?
I replied almost immediately,
No, I don’t want to work on my home work when I meet you, I want to k|
I left the pointer at the end of message and erased all that I’ve written. I started to re-write my message.
okay, but I don’t think I’ll need it soon :P
Not long after the message was sent, his name appeared on my screen again.
Don’t be too calm, Masaki...
I laughed and reply,
Don’t be too serious, Sho-chan <3
I’ve got another fast reply,
I think it’s best if we sleep Masaki...It`s getting late...
I stared at his last message blankly and pushed the call button.
“Mo...moshi-moshi? Masaki?” I could hear his voice clearly. But I did not respond, I just kept quiet to tease him.
“Masaki?” then I heard a cracking sound that seemed to be from his bed, “Masaki? are you okay?” he asked, his voice filled with concern.
“No...” I answered slowly, while trying to resist the urge to laugh.
“What happened?” he asked again, concerned.
“I`m sick Sho-chan...” I whispered.
“Sick? Why didn’t you just tell me?” he asked. “Have you taken any med--”
“I`m sick because I miss you...” I cut him fast; then there was a long...silence between us.
“Sho-chan?” I broke the silence.
“Don’t you ever dare to scare me like that ever again!” he warned me, “The answer?” he asked.
“Y...yes...?”
“Good,” his voice sounded satisfied, “Oyasumi...and I miss you too...a lot...” he whispered to me but before I get to answer, he cut the line and I couldn’t even close my eyes until morning as my heart was working harder than normal.
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I ate my lunch with Nino today, as always. We have been eating together every day since when we were in the kindergarten. Well…yeah, he is my childhood friend and he cares about me, always so caring. That’s why he often asked about my relationship with Sho. I knew that he was worried, because to be honest, I am too. But I don’t like the idea of doubting Sho`s feelings. He asked about how we started dating and I answered that everything started when I wrote a random message on the library table. Sho lied as he introduced himself as Matsumoto Jun, but I for one knew Jun perfectly since he was my ex even though it was a rather short relationship, I knew it wasn’t Jun`s hand writing. The creepy part was that I knew it was Sho`s hand writing…maybe it was because I once stole his science homework from the teacher’s office.
I patted my head. I was such a stalker! I felt my cell phone vibrating slowly in my pocket. I took it out and smiled when I saw his name on the screen.
Why did you pat your head?
That was the message from him. I replied immediately even though I can feel my best friend’s stare at me.
“What?” I asked Nino who has stopped his game and was staring straight at me without even blinking his eyes.
“That was my exact question to you,” he answered and his expression changed into a fake worried and amused expression.
“Huh?”
He scoffed, “Don’t play dumb!”
“I`m not! What are you talking about?”
He pointed at a table behind ours, “He is there Aiba Masaki! Why do you need to text him when he’s just 3 steps away, geez!”
I pulled down his hand fast, “Shhhh!”
He was staring at me, “What? Why? Why don’t you talk to him directly? I thought you`re dating him?”
“Shut up Ninomiya Kazunari!” I snapped. We tend to use our full name to address each other when we were irritated at each others’ actions.
“Then? Answer me!” he ordered.
“It`s just…it`s just…I don’t know, okay? I have no idea why we can’t talk to each other directly, maybe he’s too shy or maybe he just didn’t want anyone know about us…”
I could hear the pain in my voice and I knew with his sharp intuition, Nino knew exactly what I meant. I felt my cell phone vibrate again and Sho`s name again appeared on the screen.
What happened? Why did Nino point at me?
I opened a new page in order to reply his message; No, I`m so-
Before I manage to finish my reply, Nino stood up and walked over to where Sho and Ohno was sitting, “Nino!” I hissed but he kept his pace and it gave me no choice but to follow him. He put his tray down on their table.
“Can we sit here?” he asked, Sho was looking at him with a shocked expression while Ohno nodded calmly.
“Nino…” I whispered as he positioned himself on his new seat.
“What? You want to sit here with us or there alone?” he smirked.
“How could you…?” I whispered to him, but I knew that Sho and Ohno could hear it clearly. A lot of students were now staring at us and I saw that Sho choose to stared at the floor. I glared at Nino. I knew that Sho hates it being the centre of the attention. Fine!!
“I’ve finished my lunch,” I said as cold as I could and left their table. Nino looked at me, confused, he might have never thought that I would refuse to sit there, but I don’t want Sho to feel embarrassed. I walked out of the cafeteria and I knew there were lots of eyes following my every action. Nino followed me from behind and pulled my hand.
“Hey! Hey! Aiba!” he pulled me roughly and it made me come to a halt.
“What? Are you happy now? Ruining my relationship?” I glared at him.
“I didn’t! You did!” he yelled.
“Why didn’t you just sit there?” he asked.
“Because he don’t want me to sit there with him, Nino! Can’t you understand? He’s embarrassed to let people know the fact that we’re dating!” I yelled back in frustration. I spilled out all the pain and the insecure feelings that I’ve kept in. He frowned.
“I couldn’t see that he was embarrassed…the only thing that I saw is that you`re the one who’s embarrassed to let people know you are in a relationship with him!” he pointed at me.
“I`m not…” I shook my head, feeling shock. He sighed softly and took a deep breath.
“I know…but can you imagine how he’s feeling now…? After you’ve rejected to sit with him at his table…?” he asked. I imagined myself sitting in the cafeteria with him saying that he don’t want to sit with me at my table in front a lot of people, then I felt my cell phone vibrate. I took it out and saw his name on the screen.
“Hello? Sho-chan? Where are you? I want to--”
“Let’s break up for a while…” he said softly.
“What?? No, Sho-chan…please…I want to explain--”
“There’s nothing to explain Masaki, it`s okay…I understand…” he cut my words again.
“No! you don’t!”
“It`s okay…” he sighed, “Take care, Masaki…”
“Sho-chan?? Sho-chan??” It felt like I’ve lost my leg bones as I fell onto the floor when he cut the line.
“What happened?” Nino asked me, worried and knelt down in front of me.
“He wants to break up for a while…” I felt something wet my cheeks and it took me a full minute to realize that it was my own tears.
“Oh my…” Nino said incoherent words and hugged me.
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I’ve sent out a lot of messages but he never replied. I’ve tried calling him many times but never once did he pick up. Have I lost him already? But I don’t want to lose him…Even if he didn’t want to forgive me, I still don’t want to give up. I now understand how he felt when I ignored his message on the library table before. But I’ve visited the library everyday to read his desperate message written on the table, until he said he loved me. I flipped my cell phone out and stared at it blankly …I missed his messages…I missed him…
Sho-chan…how are you…?
Are you eating properly…?
Are you wearing your jacket properly…?
It`s really cold outside, take care…
I pushed the send button, but I knew perfectly well that I won’t get a reply…He couldn’t forgive me. He has already felt insecure when we dated; he said that I won’t want someone like him. I was the one who should understand him most, but I was the one who don’t understand at all.
I’ve typed something on my cell phone again.
Sho-chan…Tomorrow is your birthday…
I wonder if it’s okay to give you something…?
I pushed the send button again and tried to concentrate on my dough. I would make a cake for his birthday, even though I’ve never done it before. But I want to make something, and not something that could be bought in the shop. I want his birthday to be a special birthday like he made mine one…
Sho-chan, do you still remember when we met on my birthday…?
Did you know that I did not let anyone wish me happy birthday before you did…
I wanted to hear yours first…
I sent another message and started to talk about my birthday with him…
Sho-chan…I’ve regretted because we’ve never talked to each other directly even though we’re dating…
I couldn’t stop my hand from sending out messages to him again and again. I glanced at the clock and I almost fell of my chair when I saw that it was already mid night.
Sho-chan!! It`s mid night already!!
Otanjoubi omedetou~~ <3 <3 <3
Am I first?
Because if not, I`ll kill that first person!! Kidding~~
Happy birthday~~ <3
I sat down sighing as I stared at my cell phone, waiting for the reply that won’t come.
Sho-chan…do you know…?
I love you…
A lot…
I flipped it close and felt tears blurred my eyes again. I have to bake the cake and not cry! I reminded myself and placed the dough in the mold.
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“I still disagree…” Nino folded his arms across his chest as he talked to me.
“I’ve decided already…” I said firmly.
He sighed, “Why? Why don’t you give that cake to him directly?” he asked.
“Because it`ll just make everything worse Nino!” I answered him, impatient.
“Why? Why must you think of it that way?” he asked.
“It`s just…I`m sure, okay?”
“Not okay! It doesn’t make any sense Aiba! It`s your time to make up with him, but you just…”
“Shhh!! You can’t change my mind…” I’ve already decided as I walked over to his locker. I saw his name labeled on the locker and put the box of cake into his locker.
“Okay, finished!” I clapped my hands, “Time to think about the competition this afternoon then,” I smiled at Nino, trying to tell myself that everything is okay. Although I knew perfectly well that it wasn’t.
I have a basketball competition this afternoon. Before ruining everything between Sho and I; I’ve wanted to present my victory to him. Yes, I was positive that I would win today.
I played well today, we played well. There were lots of sweats, high five, and salvo from the supporters. I was happy, but right after everyone had left the stadium and all my team mates have said their good bye, I felt that same emptiness again. I wanted to win for Sho and he didn’t even watch the game. He never really liked basketball in the first place. I sighed and brought my feet to leave school grounds.
It was already dark and Nino didn’t want to wait for me so he left saying that he prefers to play with his video games that watch my game. Well…every time he said that he would watch my game, always ends up with him playing his PSP at the stadium. When I tried to talk about my dunk, he would say that he missed seeing it because he got the King in his game. I was sitting at the bus stop alone as I’ve decided not to walk back home tonight, because of my worse than bad mood and also because I was tired due to the game. I tighten my scarf in order to withstand the cold. A bus stopped in front of me and I guess it was the last bus so I got up and there was a high school student at the back seat who’s sound asleep with his face hidden by his shoulder, and a woman sitting at the front row as she talk into her cell phone. I sat in between which is the middle part of the bus seats and not long after I’ve settled, the bus started to move slowly.
I was startled when my cell phone vibrated and flustered when I saw the name on the screen. -my Sho-
My hands were trembling as I flipped it open.
“Mo…moshi-moshi…?” I didn’t get an answer after a few seconds.
“Hey…” he answered. It felt like my chest would burst out because of the relief I felt hearing his voice again, or probably because I missed him, or maybe because I loved him…
“Sho-chan…?” I asked, and I knew that my voice was quivering.
“Yes, how are you…?” he asked slowly.
“Co-cold…” I shuttered and felt stupid when I heard him laugh. “Sho-chan, are you still mad at me…?” I asked.
There was a long silence before he answered, “No, but I can’t stand being your secret…” I knew he imitated my line.
“No, you`re not! And you’ll never be one…I’ve always thought that you were the one who’ll be embarrassed if people knew the fact that we are dating…” I said slowly.
“Are you stupid or something?” he asked, “I`m the one who’s supposed to feel that way…” he added.
“Why…?” I asked.
“Because you`re so popular and you`re always the centre of attention. You`re always so shiny…”
“I`m not…” I answered, “And I want us to talk to each other directly from now on, not only through the cell phone, letter, table, or anything…”
“You really think we can do that?” he asked.
“Yes,” I nodded; even if I knew that he wouldn’t see it.
“I’ve got the present by the way…arigatou…”
“Ahhh…yes…that is just…ordinary…” I said quickly.
“You made it yourself?” he asked.
I nodded again but answered because he couldn’t see me nod, “Yes…”
”So, it`s special then, thank you…for the letter too…”
“You read it??”
“Of course,” he laughed, “It was in the cake box, how could I not read it?” I felt my cheeks burning.
“I want to read it again…” he laughed, and I could hear him opening a folded paper and before I could say stop, he’s already reading it, “Sho-chan…do you know…? If you`re a basketball game…you`re the only game that I feel I can’t win…”
“Sho-chan…do you know…? That I think about you, every day, every minute and every second of my life…?”
“Sho-chan…do you know…? That Aiba Masaki loves you…? A lot?” he stopped for a while, “Happy birthday…”
“Mou! Are you happy now?” I asked and felt really embarrassed because I wrote such a letter.
“You can say that,” he laughed and paused for a while then continued, “Masaki, do you know…?”
“Huh?” I asked, confused.
My eyes widen in shock when I felt hot breath by my ear, “That Sakurai Sho loves you too…?” he whispered directly to my ear, the next second I felt his arms circling around my shoulder as he hugged me from the passenger seat behind me. “A lot…?”
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AN : yatta~~!! happy sho`s day minna XD *is excited*
oh yeah...if you`re wondering...the high schooler that slept on the bus was sho, he was just pretending XD
and this is my very first sequel fic, what do you think? *hides*