[Chaptered] I Love The Way You Hurt 2/?

[lovu_lovu_aiba]

Title : I Love the way You Hurt

Authors :  shokundaisuki  and  lovu_lovu_aiba

Beta :  shokundaisuki  *isn`t she cool, author and beta at the same time, a proof about how useless I`m* XD

Pairings : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi, will have some Sakumiya later on

Rating : R for this chapter (it won't be hardcore but I still wouldn't suggest kids to read it)

Genre : drama, romance

Summary : Ohno and Aiba are best friends for the longest time now. They've always been together and did everything together, always had the same passions and interests. When Aiba discovers the only thing that it seems like they don't have in common, he decides he needs to find some more of it. He doesn't expect to find the love of his life in doing so.

Disclaimer : None of us own Arashi. Though we'd both like to XD

Warning : It`s BDSM guys, the soft one XD



banner by. shokundaisuki

There was a long silence between the two best friends, not a comfortable silence like always when they had a problem but didn’t want to talk to the other yet, but the awkward silence. Satoshi looked at his best friend worried , he wasn’t even trying to hide it.
 
“You just met him…” he raised his eyebrow.

“That’s exactly what I said to you some hours ago when you said you`re in love with Matsumoto-san…” Masaki replied while sighed.

“But I talked to him for 2 months, and you just talked to him for 20 minutes, Masaki…I think it`s not a good idea…” he shook his head. “You can’t fall for someone only in 20 minutes…” he added.

Masaki felt really annoyed with his friend’s comment. “I said maybe I can love him, not like I`m in love with him already, look who is talking here? I thought you`re into that BDSM relationship!”

“I am! And I think it`s just same with ordinary relationship that’s why I said you can’t date someone who you just met…or talk…” he added by himself, because he remembered that he just met his master once.

Masaki stood up fast and walked to the kitchen, while Satoshi followed him from behind. He took a bottle of water from the refrigerator and poured some amount to a glass. He drank it slowly, wetted his dry throat. “It`s not like I`ll have sex with him on my second meeting with him--”

“You never know about it,” Satoshi cut his friend sentences fast.

“True, but I have no intention to do that,” he looked at his best friend as he leaned his back against refrigerator`s door, “Look Satoshi, I understand you worry about me, but you know as well…before we start this kind of relationship we will talk about anything and make sure about a lot of stuff, right?”

Satoshi nodded his head in response.

“Then nothing to worry about, we will talk, and I`ll make sure that everything is alright before I start to be his slave…”

Masaki understood really well, probably from other people point of view he looked like crazy. It wasn’t even normal for an ‘ordinary relationship level’ to start it right after they meet, not forget it wasn’t that ‘ordinary relationship’. He understood that this kind of relationship needs the highly level of trust or maybe love…?. He was still not sure. But he was a go with the flow type so he guessed that he would adapt well. He was on some relationships too, the ordinary ones, and he was hanging out with Satoshi as well, which means he knew the basic stuff about the BDSM relationship. He did have some interests for long time ago because he already felt bored with the normal relationship, he needed something new and challenging.

But it didn’t mean he would trust Sho 100%. He knew that he needed to make sure about a lot of things, like his limit or the things that maybe he liked or not. He knew that maybe he would like something like blindfold, because he knew that he liked to be fully controlled by other people, of course if he trusted them, and maybe bond as well…but then he remembered that he only knew about it. He opened his mouth to ask something to Satoshi when he heard his friend talked to him.

“Actually I asked about Sakurai-san to my master…” he confessed. “Because he seemed to have some interest to you…” Masaki could hear guilt on his friend voice. But he was too busy and to amazed to question Satoshi`s guilty tone, he moved closer to Satoshi,

“You did?” He nodded in response. “Then, what did he say about Sakurai-san?” he couldn’t help but feel really excited about that.

“He said that Sakurai-san is a good guy…” he answered.

“See! I knew it! I`m really sure about it!” Masaki almost jumped in excitement.

“Yes, and a lot of slaves wanted him as their master but he never accept one of them, not after his slave left him 3 years ago…”

“Ahh…” Masaki nodded, “He told me about that when we talked.”

Satoshi frowned, “Then? You didn’t think it`s weird…?” he asked.

“No, I mean they were in love right? And they did the relationship because they loved each other, it wasn’t wrong if someone left the other right?” he asked confusedly.

“That’s not what I meant Masa-chan…of course we can leave our master if we don’t feel comfortable anymore…”

Masaki felt that he didn’t really understand where this conversation lead him to, “Then…?” he asked.

“Then why did he choose you? You just talked to him for twenty minutes, he could get the best slave but why did he choose you?” Satoshi asked and he looked directly to his friend eyes.

Masaki never really noticed about this, but after Satoshi brought it up, it sounded impossible too for him. What did the reason Sakurai-san choose him over all salves that wanted to be with him? He could get the best one, without even trouble him self to learn a lot of stuff to a newbie like him… Or maybe he wanted a newbie…? A virgin on that world? Masaki would make sure to ask him when he meet him later. But he had to answer Satoshi`s question… So he took the most reasonable reason that he had.

“Maybe he wants a virgin?” Masaki shrugged and tried to look that he didn’t really care about that.

Satoshi seemed to think for a while but then he couldn’t find any words to argue his friend thought, so he just nodded slowly, “Maybe…”

Masaki didn’t really wanted to argue with his friend as well. He felt like the way Satoshi feel at the moment. He was worrying his best friend too when he said that he got a master. Masaki was really afraid if someday his friend would be hurt, not on the physical meaning but more to the emotional meaning. But he was on the same position with his friend now, a master`s slave. He liked that ownership words so much. He patted Satoshi`s shoulder and brought him to back to the couch.

“Tell me about Matsumoto-san…” he requested as he sat.

Satoshi sat besides him and his expression looked calm and happy at the same time. “I`ll move to his apartment soon…” he announced.

Masaki eyes widen, “What? Isn`t it too fast?” he asked.

“No,” Satoshi shook his head, “That’s what we usually do if we are in relationship right? Besides…he offered it to me…not an order…” he smiled at Masaki and Masaki could see his friend cheeks color changed into pinkish.

He was serious about that… Masaki concluded about that on his head. But he still thought that was too fast for a relationship, but then he couldn’t say anything about it, because his relationship with Sakurai Sho was fast as well.

“He said I should tell you where he lives…because you know…some people can`t trust that BDSM doesn’t always means hurting the submissive…It always looks like the dominants are mean people and the submissives are the victims… And my master thought that you`ll worry about me, so you can visit us anytime to make sure I`m okay…” he explained, and somehow Masaki felt that actually he could trust Satoshi to that Matsumoto guy.

Masaki smiled and nodded, “Sure, I`ll visit you…”

“Thank you Masa-chan…” Satoshi smiled back to his friend.

“Sure, we’re friends right…”

“But actually I have one thing again that I worry about…” Satoshi back to his serious expression.

“Hm? What is it? You know you can tell me anything, right?” Masaki tried to calm his friend.

“Did I give you a bad effect until you choose to do this relationship as well…? I mean, you`re with me all the time and you did accompany me to that bar…” he looked to the floor.

Masaki laughed, “No, it`s my own choice, don’t worry… And it`s just a lifestyle, that’s not bad…that’s just different and some people chose to be different but different isn’t always bad right…”

“You understand me well…” he nodded, “Thank you…”

Masaki smiled again, “Sure, but I know that I`m too good to be your friend…” then he laughed again while Satoshi tried to hit him everywhere.

“Ouch! Kidding! You know I was just kidding!! Aww!! You`re a slave~ don’t be this sadist to me! Aww!!” he was too busy to scream for help when he felt his cell phone was vibrating. “Wait!” he raised his hand, “I got a message…”

Satoshi stopped his hit and turned on the television while Masaki checked his cell phone. He was feeling a bit flustered and his heart was pounding harder. -my future master- appeared on the screen. He opened the message immediately almost hit the button randomly because he was in hurry.

I want to meet you again tomorrow…
Is it too fast? Will it make you run away from me…?

He felt like 17 years old girl who got a first message from her new boyfriend. He read it again and again until he realized he supposed to reply not just reading over again. He opened the new window and started to type.

I won`t run away from you…
And It`s slower that I thought…

He pushed the send button when Satoshi asked, “Who?”

“My future master…” Masaki answered it while smiled brightly to his friend.

“Wow, that was fast, what`s he wants?” he questioned the younger again.

“Meet me again…” he felt his heart beating faster, “Tomorrow…”

Satoshi`s mouth shaped into an ‘O’ although no voice came out and he nodded. Not long after Masaki felt another vibrate on his pocket. He opened the message and smiled even wider if he could.

“What? what?” Satoshi tilted his body to see the message. Masaki gave his phone to his friend to gave him more access to read the message. “Lunch at Ten restaurant…?”

Satoshi gave his phone back to his friend but kept his eyes to the screen.

Perfect…

Masaki typed it fast and sent it immediately. He looked to his friend who looked back at him. And they laughed together…

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He spent his morning to google everything about BDSM. He just needed to typed that abbreviation and a lot of articles appeared on the screen. So…people are really into it for serious…He read one article to another. There were a lot of sites that displayed some hardcore videos, that definitely made Masaki shiver. He didn’t like the chain idea, and there were a lot of things that he’d never seen before. He didn’t even understood how did people use it… Some videos made him really forget about Sho`s explanation of BDSM which there were love in the relationship and it would make both side happy. The submissive always looked hurt and some videos really seem inhuman. He felt some fear built on his heart and he really thought about his second meeting with Sho. Would he really do it…?.

He really needed to calm himself down. He walked to his kitchen and drank a bottle of orange juice. He just realized that his breath became irregular because he read that kind of stuff. He closed his eyes tightly and recall Sho`s face on his head. His warm smile, beautiful brown eyes, or his strong gaze, the he could hear his deep voice being repeated slowly on his head. He felt Sho`s reflection on his head erasing all fear and uncomfortable feelings that he had. He took a deep breath and smiled, It wasn’t like I have to do it but I just want to do it… He reminded himself and it made him feel a lot of lighter than before.

Masaki realized that he wasn’t ready for a hardcore BDSM. He was still afraid of being hurt in the real meaning. He thought that hits and some swollen were acceptable but not wound or scar. Probably he could take some bloody role play but not too much, he didn’t want to keep stopping halfway later so he remembered a lot of stuff on his mind to talk to Sho.

He glanced to the clock and felt shock when he saw that it was already 11 am. Sho waited for him at the midday on a park near the café. He ran to the bathroom immediately and have to be satisfied with a quick shower. He didn’t want to look messy in front of Sho so he chose his clothes carefully. He wanted to look casual, not too tempting or too neat. So he chose a V neck t-shirt and brown knitting cardigan. He looked his reflection on the mirror and nodded in satisfaction. At least he looked acceptable to be Sho`s slave. He texted Satoshi fast to tell him that he would go to the park. He would keep giving updates to Satoshi about the places that he would go with Sho, and if in some hours he didn’t text Satoshi that he was back home safely, Satoshi would at least have an idea where he had to look for him.

He grabbed his bag and ran toward the door because he noticed that he was terribly late. It wasn’t a good idea, at least for Masaki to make his future master wait for him, so he ran as fast as his foots could take him. He reached the park on time and felt really relieve because of that. He walked I slowly and felt calm because he wasn’t late. That was until he saw a figure sat down on a bench while reading a book. Sho was already there, so he ran again to approach him. Sho didn’t look too disturbed although Masaki already stood in front of him, he kept his eyes to the book.

“Sa…sakurai-san…I`m sorry…” Masaki tried to speak clearly in the middle of his heavy breath. Sho lifted his head from his book and glanced to his watch.

“You`re on time.” he smiled, “I just had some free time so I came here earlier.”

Sho stood up and smiled lightly to the younger, “Lets walk to the cafe?”

Masaki nodded and let his future master to lead the way. He didn’t dare to walk besides him so he made a small distance and walked slightly behind him. Sho stopped his pace and Masaki stopped himself immediately.

“Why do you walk behind me…?” he asked.

Masaki shook his head, he felt really stupid if he answered it because he had no reason or maybe because it wasn’t good to walk beside your master although he wasn’t his master yet. Sho took his hand, “Do you mind?” he asked casually. Masaki shook his head and his cheeks felt burn.

“I like you cheeks color…” Sho made a comment while pulling Masaki around with him. Masaki could feel his heart starting to beat faster and faster.

“Can I ask something?” Masaki tried to open a conversation while they walked.
Sho smiled, “Sure…”

“Do you hate to wait?” he asked bluntly.

Sho laughed as he thought about how innocent the guy besides him was. “Yes, I hate to wait…but in a case if you pass the appointment time…”

Masaki felt really relieved because he haven’t been late. “Do you want to know something?” Sho asked.

“About what?” Masaki questioned him back.

“I hate to wait but if it`s too long I won’t be mad. I`ll feel worried…” he confessed. “Maybe if you don’t come in half of an hour I`ll start to call you like mad or maybe ask your address to Jun`s slave…” he smiled to his own words.

“That extreme?” Masaki asked him, “I`m sorry…” then he realized that it wasn’t a polite question.

“Yes…that extreme, because I am really over protective toward something that I own…or someone…” he added. “I haven’t own you yet…but we have some kind of connection that I`m not sure my self, so I kind of feel I have to make sure you`re okay…”

Masaki nodded his head and tried to look calm but actually his heart almost exploded because Sho`s idea to own him or get worried over him really made him happy. They walked slowly until they reached the café. That was a nice café, a waiter opened the door from him and Sho was wise enough to gave him a tip to make him take him and Masaki to a private area. They sat facing each other and Sho ordered a dark coffee immediately, while Masaki preferred to lemon tea.

“How have you been?” Sho asked like the didn’t meet in long time.

“Fine I guess…just like yesterday…” Masaki answered. “How about you…?” he asked back.

“Better than yesterday.” Sho answered and although without hear the explanation Masaki sure that he was referring to their meeting or maybe dating today. There were a long paused before Masaki cleared his throat just to made a sound.

“Maybe we should start it with some basic questions…” Sho talked while looking at his partner, “Like how old are you and where do you work at?”

“I`m 28 years old…born in December, at Christmas eve…” Sho smiled and Masaki tried his best to not stuttered his own words, “I work at a small company...How about you?”

“I`m 29 years old, but I guess we were born on the same year…and I work as an editor on a newspaper company.” he answered Masaki question. A waiter came and placed the drinks that they ordered and asked that maybe he could help with anything but Sho just lifted his hand.

“Mmmm…since when you started to do this kind of stuff?” Masaki asked while take a ship on his lemon tea.

“Around 9 years ago.” Sho answered.

“And how did you found out that you have interest to this kind of stuff?” he asked again.

“How did I find my interest…I wonder…maybe because I like to lead and control other people around me.” he moved closer and put his hands on the table. “So, you already read more about this stuff?” he asked Masaki back.

The later nodded his head.

Sho smiled. “You seem not sure anymore… Do you want to stop?” he asked, and Masaki shook his head as response. “What did you read then?” he asked the younger.

“A lot of stuff…”

“Details?” he asked again.

“I found… I found that some of the BDSM games are quite inhuman…” he said it softly, trying to not hurt Sho.

“I found the same.” Sho talked like it was nothing. “I feel the same about some stuff, although I`m a dominant it doesn’t always mean I can do all that you call inhuman games.”

“I see…” Masaki nodded his head, “Then do you have a limit?” he asked.

Sho laughed. “I`m the one who is supposed to ask about that, but well yeah…I have…I prefer to not give my slave wounds or scars… It will make me feel worse every time I see it. I can do some hardcore BDSM if my slave wants to, usually I did it to reward them, if they wanted to.” So looked into Masaki eyes. “But my real limit is actually if I saw my slave hurt because my actions, as long as he is happy and it didn’t really disturb me I`m okay with that…”

”It`s like when you`re falling in love to someone and want to give anything to him as long as he is happy?” Masaki asked.

“Exactly…” Sho nodded and drunk his coffee. “So, I concluded from your question that you can’t take the hardcore BDSM?” he asked Masaki.

Masaki surprised with how Sho guessed him so right. “Yes, I think so…I like the soft one if we can make a term about it…”

Sho smiled. “It`s fine by me. Then it`s my turn to ask, did you find your limit?”

“I did…maybe…I`m still not sure in some parts…” he answered.

“It`s okay, it doesn’t mean you need to find all of them in a row. If you found the basic then it`s fine. Tell me then.” he gave his full attention to Masaki.

“Like you guessed, I think I don’t really like rough play, I don’t like the chains and whatever stuff that I don’t even know it`s name or the function but it really freaked me out…I mean I can`t imagine using that stuff…” He stopped and waited for Sho`s response.

“I understand…” he nodded. “Then? Anything else?”

“And I think I like if you fully controlled me, like you told me whatever you want, I told you before right that I really like to let someone think for me…” he paused for a while and continued hastily, “But I read something that really interest me…”

“What is it?” Sho asked kindly.

“I like mind dominance games…” he answered softly. “You know like I can understand whatever you want without even you saying it out loud… And just by looking at you I would know what I have to say or what I have to do to satisfy you… I’ve read it`s possible if the master has full mind dominance over his slave…”

Sho looked interested. “I actually heard about that but never tried it before. Full mind dominance and no rough games, that’s sounds great. And? Did you find anything else?”

“I think…because I like you to full dominate me… I like to wait and I like a surprise, so… I`m kind of thinking that blindfold and bond are match with me…” He didn’t understand why but he felt embarrassed all of sudden and chose to look to the floor.

Sho lifted Masaki`s face using his finger then looked directly into his eyes. “It`s okay to tell me whatever you like or you hate… I`d love to know about you more.”

“Can I ask you something…?” Masaki let his face detained by Sho`s hand.

“You said something like that twice this day, and my answer is still the same…sure…” he caressed his cheek and propped his chin.

“Why did you broke up with you last slave…? Because It`s 3 years already…and you look like…mmm…”

Sho raised his eyebrow in question. “Like you still love him…” Masaki continued bravely.

“I loved him…” he corrected Masaki`s sentences. “I broke up with him because he cheated on me…” he smiled bitterly.

“I`m sorry…I didn’t mean to hurt you Sakurai-san…” Masaki felt really sorry to bring up the conversation about his ex. But he just wanted to know why so he didn’t repeat the same mistake.

“Sho is better… And it`s okay…. It`s just a past anyway…” his smile back warm like always.

“Sho-kun…?” Masaki tried it.

“As expected, sounds better.” Sho laughed.

“Then why did you choose me…?” he asked again.

Sho looked at him and this time Masaki really couldn’t avoid his gaze, “Because I think I can love you…” he answered. Masaki bit his lips as he couldn’t say anything or maybe his mind went blank. Sho smiled and brought his body to stood, then bent to captured Masaki`s lips. Masaki already knew what he supposed to do, Sho didn’t ask for a response.

He broke the kiss in small distance so Masaki still could smell the coffee fragrant from his mouth, “Lets go home…it`s dark already…”

Masaki felt surprised when he saw the sun set from the window.

“We still have much time to talk…” Sho added while smiled.

At that point Masaki thought that actually there were no difference between ordinary relationship with this kind of relationship, there was love on there and trust as well, if your master or your slave cheated on you, you would feel hurt like when your boyfriend or girlfriend cheated on you. It wasn’t only hardcore role play or sex… He was sure he wanted to try it with this guy…The guy that maybe he could love…

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AN : at least I write it!! *doki-doki* I`m into BDSM fic lately, I really blame  ice_colour  and 
ordinaryneko still love both of you anyway XD
I can`t belive I get the oportunity to write one this fast >.< thanks to  shokundaisuki  who kindly give me a chance to write this fic with her...
anyway.,minna...how is it? my first bdsm fic XD