[Chaptered] The Bet 19 (completed)
Aiba`s POV
I prepared to go to work this morning, although I didn’t want think about it, I couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that Sho would leave Japan today. I glanced at the clock, 9 AM, 7 hours before he goes… I tried to concentrate on cooking, then I saw Jun walking out of the bedroom. He approached me in the kitchen and smiled widely.
“Smells good…” he said while peeking on what I was cooking.
I smiled, “You should shower and eat then.”
He hugged me from behind and I could feel his warm breath on my neck, “Let’s take a break today?” he asked, “I`ll call the café so they’d give you a day off…”
I turned my face to him and he captured my lips, “Why all of a sudden?” I asked after he broke the kiss.
“Nothing,” he looked at me, “I think we just need a break…that’s all. Besides you never take a break from work…”
I was back on my cooking again and he still hung on me, “So…?” he asked again.
“What would we do today then?” I asked him.
“Slack around at home? It`s sounds great to me…” he laughed. “Please just say okay…” he whined.
I laughed and nodded, “Okay, but you`re the one who will call my boss, okay?”
He saluted me and kissed my cheek quickly, “I`m on my way to call him,” he said while ran out of the kitchen.
Maybe it was the best way to spend my time today, keeping myself close to Jun. At least spending a day with him would stop me from running after Sho. If I’d be at work, I really wasn’t sure if I could stop myself from running after him.
I finished cooking and placed the breakfast on the dining table. He sat at the table while smiling widely, “I whined to your boss and he said you deserve a day off even without me begging him. He will call someone to replace you for today.”
I laughed and glanced to the clock again, 9.45 AM… We sat and ate the breakfast while discussed the things that we should do on our day off. We found something interesting to do together like shopping and cooking together, playing the Wii, even something ordinary like watching television.
We decided to go shopping at the midday, we walked and talked like an ordinary couple without caring even a bit about everyone’s perception about us. We sat in the park, even though it wasn’t a warm day, actually it was a cold one, snow kept falling above us. I waited for him to come back with hot coffee when I saw a couple passing in front of me, I saw the watch on the guy’s wrist, 1.20 PM…2 hours 40 minutes before Sho`s departure time. I shook my head to drive all thoughts about him away.
“What happened?” Jun asked while placing the warm cup of coffee to my cheek.
“No,” I answered while take the coffee from his hand, “It`s nothing…”
He smiled, “Let`s go home, it`s freezing here…” I nodded and he pulled my hand to lead me back home.
We arrived home around 1.40 PM, I was wondering what Sho’s doing then? Maybe getting all his stuff ready, but he had a butler to do that. He was probably just sitting and reading his newspaper.
“You look like you’re spacing out all the time…” Jun said while cutting the vegetables beside me, “Are you feeling well?” he asked and his tone indicated that he was worried.
“I`m okay,” I smiled to him. He put his palm on my forehead, “I don’t have a fever,” I laughed and pushed his hand away.
He shrugged, “Just making sure,” then he lovingly ruffled my hair.
I glanced at the clock when I placed the food on the dining table, 2.30 PM…
After we finished eating, we sat in front of the television and watched it in silence. Jun pulled me closer so my head leaned on his shoulder. He caressed my hair softly, I glanced at the clock again, 3.25 PM, half an hour more and I wouldn’t see Sho ever again. I couldn’t stop feeling anxious, but I kept repeating in my mind that there was no connection between me and the fact that Sho would leave Japan in…35 minutes…
I took a deep breath to calm myself down and snuggled closer to Jun`s chest. His left hand was moving down to my waist while his right hand lifted my face to look at him. I looked into his deep, brown eyes and slowly moved closer.
33 minutes left…
I closed my eyes and our lips met. This was what you wanted Masaki… You didn’t want to hurt anymore and Jun won’t hurt you… It was perfect… I placed my hand on his nape to bring our bodies closer, he slowly pushed me down on the sofa so that I was laying under him. He broke the kiss and once again looked into my eyes.
30 minutes left…
He gave me a light peck and started to kiss my neck while he placed his hand on my chest to unbutton my shirt. I closed my eyes and a scene appeared, a scene of Sho kissing me roughly after I had yelled at him because he hadn’t noticed that I like him. Jun finished unbuttoning my shirt and started to tenderly kiss my chest. Sho and I always hid from people and shared secret kisses in the corners of the library.
I opened my eyes, 27 minutes left…
I felt Jun`s hand slowly caressing one side of my body and a scene appeared again… Past that hurt me a lot, Sho raping me… But then I remembered how he cried, eight years… Eight years and he kept loving me. How many times had I hurt him? What if I’d been in his place, how hurt I’d be? My heart ached so much, why do I love him so much? Why can’t I let him go? Why do I need to hurt someone else to love him? Love should never be complicated, then why our love has to be so different from others’?
“Masaki?” I heard Jun calling me, “Masaki, darling, what happened?” he asked again and I realized I had pushed him away, my hands on his chest to make a distance between our bodies. He touched my cheek and I, a second too late, realized he was doing it to wipe my tears. He tugged me until I was back to sitting position and brought me in his embrace.
“It`s okay, Masaki… It`s okay…” he whispered while caressed my hair, “It`s okay to go after him…”
I freed myself from him and he looked back at me, “How do you know?” I asked him, clueless.
He smiled, a bitter smile, “I talked with him yesterday, I`m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier…”
I was at a loss for words, he wiped my tear again, “I`m okay Masaki, you don’t owe anything to me. No need to be here just because I want you to be here…” he placed his hand on my head, “I love you Masaki, but you don’t need to push yourself to love me, I love you and want you to always be happy. I`m sorry I realized it so late and kept hurting you and Sho for so many years…I know that you don’t love me and will never love me, I know how it hurts if the person I love can never love me back…and I don’t want you to feel the same way,” he shook his head when I opened my mouth to apologize.
“I love you, Aiba Masaki, that’s why you are free to reach for your own love now… Go after him, Masaki, and reach your love… Don’t be afraid to hurt, because even though it hurts, you know you’ll always have him, you’ll always know that you love him and that he feels the same way about you. Isn’t it enough? You have each other and love each other, isn’t it enough to keep you happy?”
He placed his hand on my cheek, “I`m okay, so don’t worry about me. I`m really sorry for always hurting you and never being able to make you happy…so run now!” he pulled me to stand up in one quick motion. He walked to the bedroom and brought a jacket with him, he placed it on my shoulders.
“Run after your love and make me proud,” he smiled widely and pushed me to the door.
I hastily walked to the door and turned back to look at him after a few steps, he was still there, smiling and nodding slowly.
“I`m sorry…” I said softly, he shook his head and the smile disappeared from his face. I smiled, ”Arigatou…” I tried to put all my feelings into it and I think he understood, he nodded this time and smiled.
I ran to the door and for the last time I glanced back at him and said a silent good-bye in my heart. I opened the door putting the jacket on in process, I ran as fast as I could. I ran until my lungs started to hurt but I didn’t care even if they’d explode, I just pushed them to work harder every time I swung my feet. I kept running and didn’t slow down although I’d lost my breath. I didn’t want to lose him again… I didn’t want to lose Sho!
I felt the tears freezing my cheeks because of the temperature, but I didn’t care, I also didn’t care about all the people that cursed at me because I crushed into them while running.
I couldn’t remember clearly how I boarded the train, I just remembered that I didn’t stop hoping that somehow I could stop the time.
God…please stop the time… God, please stop the time and let me meet him…
I ran again when the train’s door opened. I could hear the buzzing sound air made when I ran on full speed. I kept running until I reached the airport. I wasn’t slowing down although I was in the airport, I ran directly to the departure gate. And I saw his back…I saw him smile to the guard when he showed his ticket. He was there… just 3 meters away…2 meters…1 meter…and I couldn’t stop myself anymore, I crashed into him and he fell on the floor and I fell on top of him.
“Awwww…”
A lot of people were looking at us, the guard still held Sho`s ticket and looked at us from above. I pulled myself away from Sho and he moved slightly. His butler was running toward us. “A…Aiba-san? Are you okay? Young master?” he asked in a worried tone.
“Ouch…” Sho pulled himself up to sit while he stroked his chest.
“I`m sorry…are you okay?” I asked him. He immediately stopped his action when he saw me, his mouth was slightly opened in shock. He frowned and shook his head, it was like he tried to clear his mind. In a second I remembered why I was there…
I stood up and pulled him up by his collar to stand with me. He didn’t say anything, he just looked at me with a confused expression. I took hold of his hand and snatched his ticket from the guard, then I pulled him away from the crowded area to a corner near bathrooms. I pushed him until his back hit the wall and moved closer to him. He was still looking at me and keeping quiet. I pulled him into a kiss without even trying to warn him. He froze but I ignored that, I kept sucking on his lips hungrily, it had been a long time since our last kiss, I had almost forgotten how his lips tasted, how warm and kissable they were. I broke the kiss and he looked at me, I didn’t try to turn my head away and looked straight back at him.
His lips were trembling, “Is this a dream…?” he asked.
I almost burst in laugher, “Yes,” I nodded.
“A good one?” he asked again, looking totally clueless.
“Do you want this dream to be a good one?” I asked.
“If good means that you`ll be here and do anything I want then, yes…” he answered.
I smiled, “Then it`s a good one…”
He brought his hand to my cheek and slowly caressed it, using his fingers lightly. “Kiss me…” he softly said. I leaned closer and kissed him again, it wasn’t an ordinary kiss, this one was different. There wasn’t any lust in it, just our feelings mixing into one. We broke the kiss and kept looking at each other.
“Say that you don’t want me to go…” he pulled me closer.
“I don’t want you to go, Sho-chan…” I said firmly, my gaze not leaving his eyes.
He placed his hand on my nape and kissed me again, when he broke the kiss he continued requesting for his dream, ”Say that you won’t leave me anymore ever again…”
I smiled, “I won’t leave you ever again…”
He placed his forehead on mine, “Say that you love me…”
I kissed him again, I just couldn’t stop myself from kissing him, “I love you, Sho-chan…and only you…”
He bit his lips and I saw a tear falling down his cheek, “Sho-chan? Why are you crying?” I asked him while wiping his tear.
“Because this is just a dream…?” he questioned back.
I laughed, “Sho-chan… Do you want to make a bet with me? You have to close your eyes and open them again, if I`m still here it`ll mean all of this isn’t a dream, if I`m gone then yes…it`s just a dream.”
“I don’t like bets…” he said and his face looked stiff.
“I like them…Because of a bet I got to know you,” I said while placing my hand on his cheek, “Now, close your eyes…”
He closed his eyes obediently, “I`ll count to three, then you can open your eyes again…” he nodded in response, “One…” I breathed on his neck.
“Two…” I whispered by his ear.
“Three…” I said and claimed his lips again, I broke the kiss but left just a small distance between our lips, “You can open your eyes…”
He slowly opened them and frowned, “It`s not a dream?” he asked.
I laughed, “Surprised?”
“What are you doing here?” he asked, serious all of a sudden, he really thought that he was dreaming!
“Ran after you, obviously? To stop you from leaving Japan?” I questioned him, ”Stop you from leaving me…” I added.
“But…” he opened his mouth but couldn’t say anything, “Why?” he whispered.
“Like I said, because I love you, why else?” I asked him feeling irritated.
“But Jun?” he asked.
“He is the one who pushed me here…” I explained, “I don’t want you to go, Sho-chan, please don’t leave me…or if you insist on going, take me with you, I don’t want to be separated from you anymore…Sho-chan, please? Don’t g---hmfff”
He stopped me with his lips and after another long tongue battle he freed me, “I have to go. Besides it`s just 1 month.”
I blinked my eyes, “What?”
He frowned, “Huh? What about what?”
“I think I heard something about a month…”
“I’m going to US for one month… I will come back to Japan again after that, if my parents will think I did a good job, then I`ll settle in US, not now. And who told you about me leaving Japan?” he asked me.
“NINOMIYA KAZUNARI!!!” I screamed. He lied to me! He told everything in the way that made it seem like Sho would leave Japan for forever. That brat! I cursed him under my breath. I could imagine him laughing when finding out that I fell in his trap.
“He told you about this?” he asked while frowning, then glanced at his watch, “I missed my plane…”
“You still want to go?” I asked him.
He smiled and caressed my cheek, “It’s not that I want to go…but I have to go,” he corrected my sentence. “Are you sure about this, Masaki? You forgive me and choose me?”
“I`m not sure…” I answered, “I`m not sure I can forget all the things you did to me, but I`m not sure I can be away from you again either… I`m not sure I can heal completely, but I`m not sure I can forget about you either, there are a lot of doubts in my mind…but there is one thing that I`m sure about, I`m sure that I love you, is it enough to keep you beside me?”
He bit his lips and a tear was falling down his cheek again, “I`m afraid I`ll hurt you again…”
“I`m afraid you`ll hurt me again, I`m afraid that I`ll hurt you, too, someday, that’s indeed true, we can`t live without hurting each other, but even if it hurt, hurts or will hurt, I still want to be with you…” I tried to describe my feelings for him. “I want to be with you, and only you…”
He pulled me in his embrace and I felt his body trembling. I circled my arm to hug him back and for the first time I felt like he showed his weak side to me. “I want to be with you, but I can’t promise that we won’t feel hurt later, I can`t promise you happiness… I can`t promise you anything except for my love…”
I slowly stoked his back, “That sounds perfect for me…”
He tightened his hug and whispered in my ear, “I love you…”
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“Ahh…Sho-chan…hhhh…” I felt his fingers slowly moving in and out of my ass.
“Hmmm…?” he responded in a husky voice and pulled himself to face me. I felt my cheeks burning under his gaze, his eyes were dark. But his expression was soft and he caressed my cheek, “What is it, love? Do you want to stop?” he asked.
I felt my cheeks getting hot when I shook my head as an answer to his question, he smiled. “Then what is it?” he asked again.
“I`m just…mmm…nervous…” I answered and I couldn’t keep my eyes on his anymore so I turned my head. He kissed me and brought my face to look at him again.
“Do you think I`m not nervous?” he asked and took my right hand and placed it on the left side of his chest, where his heart was, then, he brought my other hand to rest on his nape. “But I want you more, do you believe me?” he asked and laughed, “Maybe no?”
I shook my head, “No,” I answered, “But I love you…”
He laughed again, “And I love you, too…” he whispered and lifted my right foot thigh up, then slowly pushed in.
“Ahhh…Sho-chan…” I felt the pain but I didn’t hate it, in fact, I liked it… I liked the feeling of us becoming one…
He started to move slowly but surely and fill my night with love…
I slowly opened my eyes and felt pain in my back. The next thing I realized was someone’s breath on my neck, while his arms hugged me in a really protective way. His eyes closed, his chest moving up and down rhythmically. I glanced at the clock, still 4 AM, and he needed to rest before the trip to US, he needed to book another ticket as I didn`t let him go yesterday. I snuggled closer and felt warmer when he tightened his arms around me. I couldn’t stop watching his sleeping face and I knew I won`t regret being together with him. He taught me that love isn’t only about two people, but also about the people around us. Love isn’t only about happiness, passion and lust but also about sadness, loneliness, and being hurt. He made me realize that all imperfections make love become perfect…
I love you, Sakurai Sho…
~THE END~
AN : ahhh~~ finally I finished it~~
the ending...well...it`s not unexpected deshou~~ but I still hope I ended it well...and didn`t dissapointed anyone with the ending~~ tho...I have to apologize to Junba fans~~ I`m sorry~~ =(
Anyway~~ I`m so happy I can finish it~~ my first completed personal fic yay!! party at my place minna!! XD
thank you for reading the bet till the end, commented on it~~ I feel really happy and grateful~~ ^.^
I`ll write more from now on~~ I still have a lot of projects, so~~ yoroshiku onegaishimasu~~ ^.^
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I prepared to go to work this morning, although I didn’t want think about it, I couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that Sho would leave Japan today. I glanced at the clock, 9 AM, 7 hours before he goes… I tried to concentrate on cooking, then I saw Jun walking out of the bedroom. He approached me in the kitchen and smiled widely.
“Smells good…” he said while peeking on what I was cooking.
I smiled, “You should shower and eat then.”
He hugged me from behind and I could feel his warm breath on my neck, “Let’s take a break today?” he asked, “I`ll call the café so they’d give you a day off…”
I turned my face to him and he captured my lips, “Why all of a sudden?” I asked after he broke the kiss.
“Nothing,” he looked at me, “I think we just need a break…that’s all. Besides you never take a break from work…”
I was back on my cooking again and he still hung on me, “So…?” he asked again.
“What would we do today then?” I asked him.
“Slack around at home? It`s sounds great to me…” he laughed. “Please just say okay…” he whined.
I laughed and nodded, “Okay, but you`re the one who will call my boss, okay?”
He saluted me and kissed my cheek quickly, “I`m on my way to call him,” he said while ran out of the kitchen.
Maybe it was the best way to spend my time today, keeping myself close to Jun. At least spending a day with him would stop me from running after Sho. If I’d be at work, I really wasn’t sure if I could stop myself from running after him.
I finished cooking and placed the breakfast on the dining table. He sat at the table while smiling widely, “I whined to your boss and he said you deserve a day off even without me begging him. He will call someone to replace you for today.”
I laughed and glanced to the clock again, 9.45 AM… We sat and ate the breakfast while discussed the things that we should do on our day off. We found something interesting to do together like shopping and cooking together, playing the Wii, even something ordinary like watching television.
We decided to go shopping at the midday, we walked and talked like an ordinary couple without caring even a bit about everyone’s perception about us. We sat in the park, even though it wasn’t a warm day, actually it was a cold one, snow kept falling above us. I waited for him to come back with hot coffee when I saw a couple passing in front of me, I saw the watch on the guy’s wrist, 1.20 PM…2 hours 40 minutes before Sho`s departure time. I shook my head to drive all thoughts about him away.
“What happened?” Jun asked while placing the warm cup of coffee to my cheek.
“No,” I answered while take the coffee from his hand, “It`s nothing…”
He smiled, “Let`s go home, it`s freezing here…” I nodded and he pulled my hand to lead me back home.
We arrived home around 1.40 PM, I was wondering what Sho’s doing then? Maybe getting all his stuff ready, but he had a butler to do that. He was probably just sitting and reading his newspaper.
“You look like you’re spacing out all the time…” Jun said while cutting the vegetables beside me, “Are you feeling well?” he asked and his tone indicated that he was worried.
“I`m okay,” I smiled to him. He put his palm on my forehead, “I don’t have a fever,” I laughed and pushed his hand away.
He shrugged, “Just making sure,” then he lovingly ruffled my hair.
I glanced at the clock when I placed the food on the dining table, 2.30 PM…
After we finished eating, we sat in front of the television and watched it in silence. Jun pulled me closer so my head leaned on his shoulder. He caressed my hair softly, I glanced at the clock again, 3.25 PM, half an hour more and I wouldn’t see Sho ever again. I couldn’t stop feeling anxious, but I kept repeating in my mind that there was no connection between me and the fact that Sho would leave Japan in…35 minutes…
I took a deep breath to calm myself down and snuggled closer to Jun`s chest. His left hand was moving down to my waist while his right hand lifted my face to look at him. I looked into his deep, brown eyes and slowly moved closer.
33 minutes left…
I closed my eyes and our lips met. This was what you wanted Masaki… You didn’t want to hurt anymore and Jun won’t hurt you… It was perfect… I placed my hand on his nape to bring our bodies closer, he slowly pushed me down on the sofa so that I was laying under him. He broke the kiss and once again looked into my eyes.
30 minutes left…
He gave me a light peck and started to kiss my neck while he placed his hand on my chest to unbutton my shirt. I closed my eyes and a scene appeared, a scene of Sho kissing me roughly after I had yelled at him because he hadn’t noticed that I like him. Jun finished unbuttoning my shirt and started to tenderly kiss my chest. Sho and I always hid from people and shared secret kisses in the corners of the library.
I opened my eyes, 27 minutes left…
I felt Jun`s hand slowly caressing one side of my body and a scene appeared again… Past that hurt me a lot, Sho raping me… But then I remembered how he cried, eight years… Eight years and he kept loving me. How many times had I hurt him? What if I’d been in his place, how hurt I’d be? My heart ached so much, why do I love him so much? Why can’t I let him go? Why do I need to hurt someone else to love him? Love should never be complicated, then why our love has to be so different from others’?
“Masaki?” I heard Jun calling me, “Masaki, darling, what happened?” he asked again and I realized I had pushed him away, my hands on his chest to make a distance between our bodies. He touched my cheek and I, a second too late, realized he was doing it to wipe my tears. He tugged me until I was back to sitting position and brought me in his embrace.
“It`s okay, Masaki… It`s okay…” he whispered while caressed my hair, “It`s okay to go after him…”
I freed myself from him and he looked back at me, “How do you know?” I asked him, clueless.
He smiled, a bitter smile, “I talked with him yesterday, I`m sorry I didn’t tell you earlier…”
I was at a loss for words, he wiped my tear again, “I`m okay Masaki, you don’t owe anything to me. No need to be here just because I want you to be here…” he placed his hand on my head, “I love you Masaki, but you don’t need to push yourself to love me, I love you and want you to always be happy. I`m sorry I realized it so late and kept hurting you and Sho for so many years…I know that you don’t love me and will never love me, I know how it hurts if the person I love can never love me back…and I don’t want you to feel the same way,” he shook his head when I opened my mouth to apologize.
“I love you, Aiba Masaki, that’s why you are free to reach for your own love now… Go after him, Masaki, and reach your love… Don’t be afraid to hurt, because even though it hurts, you know you’ll always have him, you’ll always know that you love him and that he feels the same way about you. Isn’t it enough? You have each other and love each other, isn’t it enough to keep you happy?”
He placed his hand on my cheek, “I`m okay, so don’t worry about me. I`m really sorry for always hurting you and never being able to make you happy…so run now!” he pulled me to stand up in one quick motion. He walked to the bedroom and brought a jacket with him, he placed it on my shoulders.
“Run after your love and make me proud,” he smiled widely and pushed me to the door.
I hastily walked to the door and turned back to look at him after a few steps, he was still there, smiling and nodding slowly.
“I`m sorry…” I said softly, he shook his head and the smile disappeared from his face. I smiled, ”Arigatou…” I tried to put all my feelings into it and I think he understood, he nodded this time and smiled.
I ran to the door and for the last time I glanced back at him and said a silent good-bye in my heart. I opened the door putting the jacket on in process, I ran as fast as I could. I ran until my lungs started to hurt but I didn’t care even if they’d explode, I just pushed them to work harder every time I swung my feet. I kept running and didn’t slow down although I’d lost my breath. I didn’t want to lose him again… I didn’t want to lose Sho!
I felt the tears freezing my cheeks because of the temperature, but I didn’t care, I also didn’t care about all the people that cursed at me because I crushed into them while running.
I couldn’t remember clearly how I boarded the train, I just remembered that I didn’t stop hoping that somehow I could stop the time.
God…please stop the time… God, please stop the time and let me meet him…
I ran again when the train’s door opened. I could hear the buzzing sound air made when I ran on full speed. I kept running until I reached the airport. I wasn’t slowing down although I was in the airport, I ran directly to the departure gate. And I saw his back…I saw him smile to the guard when he showed his ticket. He was there… just 3 meters away…2 meters…1 meter…and I couldn’t stop myself anymore, I crashed into him and he fell on the floor and I fell on top of him.
“Awwww…”
A lot of people were looking at us, the guard still held Sho`s ticket and looked at us from above. I pulled myself away from Sho and he moved slightly. His butler was running toward us. “A…Aiba-san? Are you okay? Young master?” he asked in a worried tone.
“Ouch…” Sho pulled himself up to sit while he stroked his chest.
“I`m sorry…are you okay?” I asked him. He immediately stopped his action when he saw me, his mouth was slightly opened in shock. He frowned and shook his head, it was like he tried to clear his mind. In a second I remembered why I was there…
I stood up and pulled him up by his collar to stand with me. He didn’t say anything, he just looked at me with a confused expression. I took hold of his hand and snatched his ticket from the guard, then I pulled him away from the crowded area to a corner near bathrooms. I pushed him until his back hit the wall and moved closer to him. He was still looking at me and keeping quiet. I pulled him into a kiss without even trying to warn him. He froze but I ignored that, I kept sucking on his lips hungrily, it had been a long time since our last kiss, I had almost forgotten how his lips tasted, how warm and kissable they were. I broke the kiss and he looked at me, I didn’t try to turn my head away and looked straight back at him.
His lips were trembling, “Is this a dream…?” he asked.
I almost burst in laugher, “Yes,” I nodded.
“A good one?” he asked again, looking totally clueless.
“Do you want this dream to be a good one?” I asked.
“If good means that you`ll be here and do anything I want then, yes…” he answered.
I smiled, “Then it`s a good one…”
He brought his hand to my cheek and slowly caressed it, using his fingers lightly. “Kiss me…” he softly said. I leaned closer and kissed him again, it wasn’t an ordinary kiss, this one was different. There wasn’t any lust in it, just our feelings mixing into one. We broke the kiss and kept looking at each other.
“Say that you don’t want me to go…” he pulled me closer.
“I don’t want you to go, Sho-chan…” I said firmly, my gaze not leaving his eyes.
He placed his hand on my nape and kissed me again, when he broke the kiss he continued requesting for his dream, ”Say that you won’t leave me anymore ever again…”
I smiled, “I won’t leave you ever again…”
He placed his forehead on mine, “Say that you love me…”
I kissed him again, I just couldn’t stop myself from kissing him, “I love you, Sho-chan…and only you…”
He bit his lips and I saw a tear falling down his cheek, “Sho-chan? Why are you crying?” I asked him while wiping his tear.
“Because this is just a dream…?” he questioned back.
I laughed, “Sho-chan… Do you want to make a bet with me? You have to close your eyes and open them again, if I`m still here it`ll mean all of this isn’t a dream, if I`m gone then yes…it`s just a dream.”
“I don’t like bets…” he said and his face looked stiff.
“I like them…Because of a bet I got to know you,” I said while placing my hand on his cheek, “Now, close your eyes…”
He closed his eyes obediently, “I`ll count to three, then you can open your eyes again…” he nodded in response, “One…” I breathed on his neck.
“Two…” I whispered by his ear.
“Three…” I said and claimed his lips again, I broke the kiss but left just a small distance between our lips, “You can open your eyes…”
He slowly opened them and frowned, “It`s not a dream?” he asked.
I laughed, “Surprised?”
“What are you doing here?” he asked, serious all of a sudden, he really thought that he was dreaming!
“Ran after you, obviously? To stop you from leaving Japan?” I questioned him, ”Stop you from leaving me…” I added.
“But…” he opened his mouth but couldn’t say anything, “Why?” he whispered.
“Like I said, because I love you, why else?” I asked him feeling irritated.
“But Jun?” he asked.
“He is the one who pushed me here…” I explained, “I don’t want you to go, Sho-chan, please don’t leave me…or if you insist on going, take me with you, I don’t want to be separated from you anymore…Sho-chan, please? Don’t g---hmfff”
He stopped me with his lips and after another long tongue battle he freed me, “I have to go. Besides it`s just 1 month.”
I blinked my eyes, “What?”
He frowned, “Huh? What about what?”
“I think I heard something about a month…”
“I’m going to US for one month… I will come back to Japan again after that, if my parents will think I did a good job, then I`ll settle in US, not now. And who told you about me leaving Japan?” he asked me.
“NINOMIYA KAZUNARI!!!” I screamed. He lied to me! He told everything in the way that made it seem like Sho would leave Japan for forever. That brat! I cursed him under my breath. I could imagine him laughing when finding out that I fell in his trap.
“He told you about this?” he asked while frowning, then glanced at his watch, “I missed my plane…”
“You still want to go?” I asked him.
He smiled and caressed my cheek, “It’s not that I want to go…but I have to go,” he corrected my sentence. “Are you sure about this, Masaki? You forgive me and choose me?”
“I`m not sure…” I answered, “I`m not sure I can forget all the things you did to me, but I`m not sure I can be away from you again either… I`m not sure I can heal completely, but I`m not sure I can forget about you either, there are a lot of doubts in my mind…but there is one thing that I`m sure about, I`m sure that I love you, is it enough to keep you beside me?”
He bit his lips and a tear was falling down his cheek again, “I`m afraid I`ll hurt you again…”
“I`m afraid you`ll hurt me again, I`m afraid that I`ll hurt you, too, someday, that’s indeed true, we can`t live without hurting each other, but even if it hurt, hurts or will hurt, I still want to be with you…” I tried to describe my feelings for him. “I want to be with you, and only you…”
He pulled me in his embrace and I felt his body trembling. I circled my arm to hug him back and for the first time I felt like he showed his weak side to me. “I want to be with you, but I can’t promise that we won’t feel hurt later, I can`t promise you happiness… I can`t promise you anything except for my love…”
I slowly stoked his back, “That sounds perfect for me…”
He tightened his hug and whispered in my ear, “I love you…”
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“Ahh…Sho-chan…hhhh…” I felt his fingers slowly moving in and out of my ass.
“Hmmm…?” he responded in a husky voice and pulled himself to face me. I felt my cheeks burning under his gaze, his eyes were dark. But his expression was soft and he caressed my cheek, “What is it, love? Do you want to stop?” he asked.
I felt my cheeks getting hot when I shook my head as an answer to his question, he smiled. “Then what is it?” he asked again.
“I`m just…mmm…nervous…” I answered and I couldn’t keep my eyes on his anymore so I turned my head. He kissed me and brought my face to look at him again.
“Do you think I`m not nervous?” he asked and took my right hand and placed it on the left side of his chest, where his heart was, then, he brought my other hand to rest on his nape. “But I want you more, do you believe me?” he asked and laughed, “Maybe no?”
I shook my head, “No,” I answered, “But I love you…”
He laughed again, “And I love you, too…” he whispered and lifted my right foot thigh up, then slowly pushed in.
“Ahhh…Sho-chan…” I felt the pain but I didn’t hate it, in fact, I liked it… I liked the feeling of us becoming one…
He started to move slowly but surely and fill my night with love…
I slowly opened my eyes and felt pain in my back. The next thing I realized was someone’s breath on my neck, while his arms hugged me in a really protective way. His eyes closed, his chest moving up and down rhythmically. I glanced at the clock, still 4 AM, and he needed to rest before the trip to US, he needed to book another ticket as I didn`t let him go yesterday. I snuggled closer and felt warmer when he tightened his arms around me. I couldn’t stop watching his sleeping face and I knew I won`t regret being together with him. He taught me that love isn’t only about two people, but also about the people around us. Love isn’t only about happiness, passion and lust but also about sadness, loneliness, and being hurt. He made me realize that all imperfections make love become perfect…
I love you, Sakurai Sho…
~THE END~
AN : ahhh~~ finally I finished it~~
the ending...well...it`s not unexpected deshou~~ but I still hope I ended it well...and didn`t dissapointed anyone with the ending~~ tho...I have to apologize to Junba fans~~ I`m sorry~~ =(
Anyway~~ I`m so happy I can finish it~~ my first completed personal fic yay!! party at my place minna!! XD
thank you for reading the bet till the end, commented on it~~ I feel really happy and grateful~~ ^.^
I`ll write more from now on~~ I still have a lot of projects, so~~ yoroshiku onegaishimasu~~ ^.^
last words for the bet guys~~? I`ll wait for any feed backs XD