Title : A Broken Love Song (Chapter 10)
Author :
lovu_lovu_aiba Beta :
andreja1989 *thank you for always understands me <3*
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Junba, Ohmiya
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : NC17 *I know you're waiting for it, LOL*
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Aiba Masaki used to be a great songwriter until the death of his beloved made him stop composing. Yet, the arrival of Sakurai Sho has colored his life. Sho taught him what is love and made him knew happiness again. But life...never be that easy...
AN :
ianne_xxyl happy bday dear <3 wish you all the best ^.^
Tenth Melody...
It was been around two months since Aiba knew Jun. They were hanging out together for so many times already. Sometimes it was with Nino but mostly it was just the two of them. Aiba liked Jun, he tried to make a signal about that to Jun but Jun never gave him any response. He was already tired of it, he wanted to confess to Jun but he was afraid it would ruin everything between them. He wanted to be together with Jun no matter if as a lover or just as a friend.
He was writing a song in the cafeteria that day while Jun sat beside him eating his lunch. Aiba looked at him and again thought about their relationship. It would probably be better if he makes a song for Jun? So he won’t have to tell him directly about his feeling but could he make Jun understand? If he couldn’t understand then he could say it was just a misunderstanding that the song wasn’t for him.
“What are you looking at?” Jun asked although he didn’t look back at Aiba.
Aiba turned his gaze immediately, “Your pasta…”
Jun snorted, “That’s silly Aiba…”
Sometimes Aiba was wondering, how could he fall for this kind of guy. He was sometimes annoying and full of sarcasms. Aiba knew that he was kind hearted but he didn’t really like to show it to other people.
Aiba looked to another side of cafeteria and saw some girls looking at them and giggled. He betted they wanted to flirt with Jun. He really needed to make a movement before other people confessed to Jun. He couldn’t imagine how would it be if he had to see Jun with other people.
“Ummm… sumimasen…” Aiba and Jun immediately looked at someone that greeted them. A cute girl with round eyes and long hair stood beside their table. Aiba knew her as one of the girls that giggled earlier.
He wanted to walk away from there until the girl talked again, “Anoo… Aiba-san, can I talk to you?”
Aiba blinked his eyes, “Huh? Me?” he asked back. The girl nodded slightly.
“Ah, O-okay…”
“What do you want from him?” suddenly Jun asked and stared dangerously at the girl.
“Ah-Uh… mmm… I want to--”
“Confess to him?” Jun asked as he raised his eyebrow. The pinkish color appeared on that girl cheeks.
Before Aiba had a chance to say something Jun preceded him, “Sadly, he is taken…”
“What?”
The girl looked shocked but she asked the exact question in Aiba’s head, “As far as I know he has no one at the moment, so taken by who?”
Jun sighed slowly before he answered, “taken by me…”
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Aiba slowly touched Sho’s cheek and felt the heat sting his hand. He wiped his tears and felt so relieved because the doctor and maids already left the room, so he didn’t have to get a worried stare from them. He felt another tear drop from his cheek. He didn’t understand why he couldn’t stop crying. He covered half of his face leaving only his eyes uncovered hearing his heartbroken sobbing although he tried to cover it himself. He tried to tell himself that Sho would be okay because that was what the doctor said. Sho was just exhausted and stressed; even the doctor said that his fever would be down soon.
Aiba understood that Sho’s condition was partly his fault. Sho had to deal with him and he had to work at the same time. He worked over time almost every day. Sometimes Aiba woke up in the middle of the night and found Sho was still in his working desk. But he added another stressor to Sho with his behaviors before.
One thing that Aiba couldn’t understand was why couldn’t he erase the fear in his heart, he worried until death. What if something happened to Sho? Doctor said he would be okay, but what... what if something happens to him and he will leave Aiba alone? Aiba couldn’t bear with that thought, he felt it once and he didn’t want something like that to happen to Sho. My God, please… Please protect Sho from everything… I don’t want to lose anyone that I love ever again… Aiba was startled by his own thoughts. Love…? Does he love Sho? In what way…?
He still loves Jun, then why…? He couldn’t answer that question, his love for Jun was still there, filled his heart, didn’t even change. But he just realized that Sho was there as well, his place was not as big as Jun’s but it was important until Aiba realized Sho’s presence in his heart. Sho’s presence in his heart was like a candle in a dark room; small, fragile, but bright and warm. Was it possible for him to love someone else beside Jun? Was it possible to love two persons at the same time? But Sho is always so straightforward, he never hesitated about his feelings for Aiba, so he didn’t want to be half hearted toward Sho as well.
Sho moved slowly in his sleep when he mumbled, “Ki…” Aiba moved closer to him until he caught what Sho was saying in his sleep, “Ma…sa-ki…”
Aiba’s tears started to fall down again. He held Sho’s hand and brought it to his neck, gripped it tightly. “I’m here, Sho-chan…” he whispered between his sob.
It was probably really stupid from other people point of view to cry like he did at that moment, because Sho was okay, clearly. But Aiba couldn’t help it, when he heard Sho’s voice he couldn’t feel anything except relief, that he actually missed Sho, that there were a lot of things that he wanted Sho to know, that there were a lot of things that he didn’t tell Sho yet. About how much he regretted because he hurt Sho before, about how much he worried over Sho if he didn’t text him when he was back home late, or the fact that Aiba always pretended to sleep just to show that he didn’t wait until Sho was back home when he actually did. Aiba haven’t told Sho that he loves him… He loves Sho, and he was sure about it…
He gave up on his body and slumped to the bed, hand still gripped on Sho’s. His tears wetted the bed cover but he didn’t even care. “Sho-chan… Sho-chan, I love you… I love you…” He tried to catch his breath, “I love you… so please… don’t leave me alone…”
He felt a sudden grip on his hand, he raised his head and Sho’s eyes were looking back at him. “I won’t leave you even though you don’t love me…” he smiled weakly at Aiba, “But do you…?”
Aiba wanted to cry even more when he saw Sho’s smile. “How do you feel?” he asked back, totally ignored Sho’s question. He tried to touch Sho’s forehead to check his body temperature but Sho caught his hand.
“I’m okay, Masaki. Now, answer my question…” he said directly, eyes not leaving Aiba’s face.
“You heard that already!” Aiba tried to free himself from Sho’s grip but Sho pulled him with an unbelievable power that a sick guy usually wouldn’t have until Aiba’s position was above Sho’s body. He let Sho hug him and just stayed there until Sho rolled himself so that Aiba was laying on the bed. Sho traced Aiba’s cheek with his warm fingers, Aiba could feel the hot trace that Sho left. He slowly tugged Aiba closer and kissed his lips, Sho surely still had his fever because Aiba could feel the weird heat on his lips. Their kiss was somehow different, no lust, not rushing; slow, peaceful, soft… Aiba could feel every movement from Sho’s lips, followed it and enjoyed it.
Sho wrapped his arms on Aiba’s waist and in fast movement rolled them again so Aiba laid on his back. They looked to each other for some minutes before Aiba reached to Sho’s cheek and placed his hand there. Sho supported his body with one hand while the other one traced Aiba’s eye bags. “You were crying… I’m sorry…”
Aiba smiled and shook his head Sho planting a soft kiss to the full lips again. “But Sho-chan… I’m still loving Jun…” Aiba whispered to Sho.
Sho touched his lips slowly, “Of course, you are…” he answered calmly.
“You’re okay with that?” Aiba asked him again.
Sho nodded, “He is a part of your life and I won’t be able to replace him in your heart…”
“Yes, you won’t be able to replace him… but you’re also a part of my heart now…”
Sho kissed his lips again and slowly moved Aiba’s jaw and neck. His hot breath caused by the fever tickled Aiba. He stopped for a while near Aiba’s ear as he whispered really slowly, too slowly until it was like a sigh, but Aiba could hear it, “I love you, Masaki… I really do…”
Sho’s kisses changed from soft into heated when he started to trace Aiba’s body side with his hand, but he stopped when he heard Aiba’s voice, “You’re sick, Sho-chan…”
He lifted his body so that he could see Aiba’s face when he said, “Masaki, I want you…”
A declaration that changed Aiba’s face color into hard red but Sho didn’t look as if he cared about that as he continued, “Do you want me?”
Aiba didn’t answer it instead he looked at Sho without saying anything. Sho closed his eyes and nodded as he moved slowly to give Aiba more room, but Aiba gripped his sleeves fast, “Of-Of course, I want you!” he stuttered, “But you’re sick…”
Sho didn’t response; instead he seized Aiba’s mouth in a long and wet kiss as he smoothly rubbed Aiba’s inner tights. Sho’s other hand found its ways to Aiba’s t-shirt buttons, he unbuttoned them one by one and removed it until Aiba was left half naked. Sho did see that view before but it seemed so different, it wasn’t their first time but it felt like one. Sho held Aiba’s hands beside his ears so that he could see his body clearly.
There was a soft grunt leaving Aiba’s lips, “Don’t stare at me!” but Sho couldn’t help not to. He was crazy over that slim figure, until he wanted to take everything from Aiba, the big-doe eyes, the rose lips and the gentle touch. He wanted to ravage the body in front of him and claim the owner as his.
Sho planted a deep and forceful kiss again to Aiba’s lips, making his wife open his mouth for him. He found Aiba’s tongue there, welcomed him to explore more in a breathtaking dance. Sho felt how Aiba tried to unbutton him as well, so he freed his wife enabling him to do it freely. He felt like he would explode when he saw Aiba’s gaze on his body, an ashamed gaze but couldn’t hide the passion for him. Aiba wanted him the same way he wanted his wife, he was so happy only because that small fact.
His lips found the way to Aiba’s neck, he kissed and nibbled to mark it with red marks on the place that people could see it clearly. His hand wandered down until he found his wife’s nipples. Sho was nibbling Aiba’s ears when he heard his wife moaned his name slowly. He worked his way down until his mouth reached Aiba’s nipple and he sucked gently while tweaking his nipple with his tongue.
“Ahhh… Sho…” the loader moan left Aiba’s lips. Sho tried to remember it, every part of Aiba’s body, more sensitive than others.
Sho reached to the drawer and took a lube from it, then pulled down Aiba’s pants and his own pants right after that. Aiba swallowed his saliva when he saw his husband’s member already hard. Sho moved down and shoved Aiba’s member to his mouth, his tongue whirling around it. Aiba tensed, but he was letting the ecstasy overcome him and just moaned in pleasure. He could feel Sho’s hot fingers started to prepare his hole.
Aiba suddenly backed off and rolled himself. Sho startled with the sudden action and with the sudden changing position. Aiba’s legs were sandwiching his hips now.
“Masaki?” he asked confusedly.
Aiba placed his finger on Sho’s lips, to made a silent sign to Sho that he didn’t want to let him do all the work when he was still sick. He lifted himself as he gripped on his ass cheeks, placing his hole on the tip of Sho’s member. Aiba settled down on top of his husband, he gasped as he impaled himself on Sho’s member, buried Sho deeper into him. Sho’s loud moan left his lips when he felt the tight sensation engulfed him in one go. Aiba’s expression was like heaven for him, he never saw anything more beautiful than his wife at that time. Sweat wetted Aiba’s body, making it shine under the lamp light, his lips parted trying to catch his breath, his eyes closed, slightly frowned because of the pain.
Aiba started to move himself up and down, clutching his ass muscles to make it tighter even more to create the great pleasures for Sho. He placed his hands on Sho’s chest to support his weight.
“Mmmhhh… Masaki… Ahhh…” Aiba movements fastened as he heard Sho’s moan. Sho brought himself to sit and made Aiba’s hands hang on his shoulder. Aiba kept stoking his hips against Sho as Sho gripped Aiba’s member in his hand. “Sho…” he moaned and gave his husband a peck before he started his movement again.
Sho felt his balls starting to tighten up, he pushed Aiba so that he was laying on his back now. Sho lifted Aiba’s legs until his knees were near his ears. He started to fuck Aiba with the full speed using his left hand to pump Aiba’s shaft. Their moans were getting louder and louder every second they approached the orgasm. Sho’s breath had become ragged, he felt like his heart was going to explode, because of the pleasure and his love for Aiba.
He felt they were so near to the peak when Aiba couldn’t say anything except sensual moans. Sho felt the familiar ache in his ball and with the final trust into Aiba’s tight hole, his cock erupted in a shattering orgasm, shooting the white thick semen deep into his hole. Aiba came at the same time, dirtied Sho’s stomach and the bed cover.
Sho threw himself on the bed as they tried to control their breath, waited for the heat of sex fading from the fragrance of their room. Aiba snuggled closer to Sho as Sho smuggled his hand between Aiba’s neck and bed. He kissed his wife forehead tenderly and brought him into a hug.
“You seem fit Sho-chan…” Aiba said, tickling Sho’s chest accidentally with his breath.
“Yes, maybe we can use the same way if one of us is sick…” Sho laughed slowly.
“Sho-chan…”
“Hm?” Sho caressed Aiba’s hair slowly.
He moved away to see into Sho’s eyes, “Tell me that you love me…”
Sho looked confused for a while but he said in a low voice, “I love you, Masaki…”
Aiba giggled and buried his face to Sho’s chest again, “I love you too…”
AN : dou? what do you think about the smut? LOL
But if you ask me, this is not the end, this is the beginning of everything~~
haha~~ yes, I want to make you anticipating with the things that they will have to face later *evil grin*
Thank you for waiting for this fic ne~~ I hope you enjoyed it ^.^any feedback is loved <3
Quiz : how many times they changed position? << I know it's not even important LOL~~ just wondering if someone count~~ *perv laugh*
PS : lately I wrote pairings that out of my safety zone like Ohmiya and Aimiya (I know I haven't finish beyond the bet but somehow I write another ohmiya series...*kick myself*) and I think I need help to beta the Ohmiya project~~ if you willing to help me, please PM me ^.^ solve kinda XD