[Chaptered] A Broken Love Song 11/?
Title : A Broken Love Song (Chapter 11)
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : andreja1989 *I feel like not talking to you for long time T^T*
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Junba, Ohmiya
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Aiba Masaki used to be a great songwriter until the death of his beloved made him stop composing. Yet, the arrival of Sakurai Sho has colored his life. Sho taught him what is love and made him knew happiness again. But life...never be that easy...
Eleventh Melody...
Jun would never understand why he had an interest in the guy in front of him. He had different personality than him, totally. Jun was perfectionist, serious, but he got trapped to an air head guy. But that wasn’t the scary part, the scary part was that Jun enjoyed it, every time the guy acted as an idiot and childish in front of him, it would make Jun fall for him even deeper. Deeper and deeper until it became uncontrollable, but again, Jun didn’t hate it…
Like that day, he stood in front of the cashier for almost ten minutes to wait for that guy to choose his meals. Jun was wondering, why did he wait anyway? He knew that it was a waste of his time. He could have sat down and wait for him at the table, but he couldn’t. Jun was afraid that the guy would need him to choose a desert for him or just in case he forgot to bring money that is why Jun had to bail him for his meals.
“What do you think is better Jun-tan?” he hated that nick name so much. “Pudding or strawberry ice cream?” See… just like what he thought, that guy would need him.
“Pudding,” Jun didn’t try to make the guy choose or think by himself or they wouldn’t move from there until tomorrow.
“One pudding ma’am!” he said cheerfully to the shopkeeper. The shopkeeper placed a cup of pudding on his tray and he smiled brightly to Jun. A smile that made Jun’s heart beat so fast although he would never admit it.
“Come on, before the seat is full…” Jun said as he walked slowly, that guy was following him from behind. Jun was looking around while he passed some tables, trying to find a seat for them. He finally found an empty table when he heard a loud sound as if something fell to the ground.
He could hear people buzzed around as he turned to see it. He wasn’t shocked when he found out that the guy fell on his knees and his meal was messed up on the floor. Jun sighed as he placed his tray to the nearest table, he walked back to that guy who didn’t try to settle his mess, instead he looked like waiting for Jun. Jun knelt and started to tidy up the mess on the floor. “Are you okay?” Jun asked.
The guy nodded his head, “I’m okay…”
Jun sighed again and held his arm, “Don’t lie to me Aiba!” he brought Aiba’s right arm to his shoulder and placed his arm on Aiba’s waist as he brought them to stand up while ignoring people who stared at them. Aiba frowned in pain when Jun said, “Please bear it for a while…”
Now Jun was really wondering about that. This guy almost made mess everywhere, fell to the ground just like that, did silly things like it was nothing, asked Jun to do whatever he thought although it was stupid and impossible to do, this guy really had no good side. Except maybe that he was cheerful like sunshine, he always thinks about other people first than him, or maybe it was the fact that Jun never met anyone who had a pure heart like him. At that moment Jun really thought, what was the reason he let himself fall for a guy like Aiba…
~*~
“You know, what was Nino’s first question when he met me at that day?” Aiba asked the guy who was still kissing his neck, gave some light licks, sucked and bit it at the same time.
“No,” the guy answered but his hand started to wander under the blanket, touched every part of Aiba’s body that was possible to touch. He made the cycle movements around Aiba’s nipple and made him shivered in response.
“Mou! You didn’t listen at me, Sho-chan!” Aiba whined slowly because Sho’s action started to annoy him.
Sho stopped his action and kissed his wife lips tenderly, “I’m listening… so? What did he say?” Sho asked but he was back to Aiba’s neck again.
“He said ‘can you please not make it really obvious the next time you had sex with him?’” Aiba mimicked his best friend’s question even his expression that made Sho burst in laugh. “Don’t laugh! You always made hickeys on uncovered place, I can never cover it, not even when I was wearing a scarf!” It was Sho’s habit to mark Aiba, although they didn’t have sex in the night, Sho would make it in the morning.
“Because I like to show it off, that you’re mine…”
Aiba looked at Sho who definitely locked his gaze back to Aiba, but suddenly Aiba burst in laugh, his body was shaking crazily. “Oh My… that’s cheesy, I thought you’re better than that!”
Sho frowned at Aiba, showed his sulking face, “I’m trying my best here!”
“Okay, okay, now let’s move from this bed, you promised me a date,” Aiba said as he tossed their blanket away. But before he stood up Sho pulled him back to the bed, hugged him from behind as his hands started to roam all over the half naked body, “How about afternoon date?”
“No!” Aiba freed himself fast and moved away from Sho, “C’mon Sho-chan, you promised me! And I want it to start in the morning,” Aiba said firmly, “till night!” he added fast before Sho could say anything. It wasn’t like he didn’t like the idea to spend a day with Sho in the bed, but he wanted to do something else, something that a couple was supposed to do.
“Yosh! I will bath first!” Aiba said as he walked to the bathroom, he closed and locked the door just to made sure Sho won’t sneak in, because they won’t go if Sho succeeds to disturb his bath. Sho always look kind, calm, mature and caring; but actually he had the childish side as well, the possessive and jealousy one. Something that Aiba didn’t know until he opened his heart for Sho and he didn’t regret his decision to do so.
He finished his bath after some minutes and had to push Sho to the bathroom after that. He didn’t move from in front of the mirror until Sho came out from the bathroom, a towel hanging on his hips while his hand was busy to dry his hair with another towel. He sneaked closer to his wife and hugged him from behind. “Doushiyou…” Aiba mumbled and ignored Sho’s disturbance.
“Hm? What?” Sho asked him.
“See!” Aiba pointed to red mark on his upper neck near to his jaw, “I can’t hide it with any scarf!”
Sho laughed, “Just let it be, I’m going with you anyway…” Sho said as he freed his wife, gave him a light kiss on his cheek and walked away to put on his clothes.
“That’s even more embarrassing, mou! I don’t care anymore!” he pouted to the mirror, gave up hiding the hickeys and he could hear Sho’s laughter from the wardrobe.
They walked slowly on the side of the road after a calm date in a pet shop. Sho adored how naturally all pets like his wife. Whenever Aiba touched them, they would snore lightly and closed their eyes immediately, enjoyed Aiba’s touch. It wasn’t like Sho didn’t understand it, Aiba’s touches are always so warm and tender. He wanted to hold his wife’s hand when Aiba’s step stopped abruptly, Sho patted his other hand to hide his earlier movement. Aiba stopped in a tattoo shop, there were a lot of tattoo samples in front of the shop.
“I always want to make tattoo…” Aiba mumbled as he bent his body to see the examples clearly.
Sho never expect that his wife wanted to tattoo his body but he didn’t mind at all, “Then let’s make one…” he said as he held Aiba’s hand and walked inside the shop.
A guy with a lot of tattoos on his body greeted them, in an unexpectedly kind way. They sat in front of the table as the shopkeeper brought a lot of catalogues for them. Aiba looked so absorbed with the catalogues, until the shopkeeper asked them, “Are you a couple?”
Aiba turned his gaze to the shopkeeper and answered, “Yes…”
“Oh, I actually have something that fits for couple; it’s really popular lately…” He browsed the catalogues pile and took a map, he opened it in front of Aiba and Sho. “Tatto rings…” he pointed at some pictures. There were some examples about the tattoo rings, Sho wasn’t really sure about it, it wasn’t like he didn’t want to, he was just afraid that Aiba didn’t want to.
“Ohh…” Aiba nodded his head, “It’s nice, ne…”
“Yes, if you don’t want the permanent one we can make temporary one, it’ll gone in one month but of course you can come back to draw it again…” the shopkeeper explained kindly.
“Sho-chan, what do you think?” Aiba asked his husband.
“Sure, why not…” Sho nodded his head in agreement. Sho still couldn’t believe that Aiba wanted to do it, ring tattoos means they would connect in another way, in a real way. Sometimes he still couldn’t believe that his love wasn’t a side love anymore.
Aiba looked at Sho as he said, “Let’s try the permanent one, Sho-chan? If we choose the temporary I felt like we don’t even sure that we will last forever…”
Sho’s heart was beating so rapidly when Aiba said (indirectly) that he wanted to be together with Sho forever. “Of course…” Sho nodded his head again. He felt like he was marking Aiba as his forever and he loved that idea so much. Sho never let Aiba know how possessive he actually is if it is related to something about Aiba.
After two hours they finished the tattooing process. They walked out from the store with a small plastic bag with their wedding rings in it because they didn’t need it anymore. They walked hand in hand, even though Sho liked the feeling when he touched Aiba’s annularly and felt their wedding ring in there but he was happy to lose that happy feeling to just seeing the tattoo on Aiba’s finger. He is mine, only mine… Sho linked their fingers together and kissed Aiba’s hand. “Thank you…” he whispered.
Aiba raised his eyebrow, “For what?”
“For letting me be a part of your life…” Sho answered.
Aiba laughed lightly, “Yes, but a part of my life is really expensive until you have to pay it with the rest of your life…”
Sho’s laugher followed right after that, “I don’t mind…” he kissed Aiba’s forehead tenderly. “Let’s grab lunch… what do you want to eat?” Sho asked Aiba who hang on his hand started to mumble a song softly.
“There is a nice restaurant around here and I didn’t go there for long time, we can get lunch there…” Aiba answered. Sho nodded to him and caressed his hair.
After ten minutes the reached the restaurant and Sho had to agree with Aiba that the restaurant was nice. It wasn’t a luxurious restaurant but emitted the calm feeling for people who ate in there. Aiba went to the toilet right after they ordered some foods, left Sho alone at their table. But after Aiba came back, Sho seemed like in the middle of a serious conversation with someone, or at least that was what Aiba thought. He walked slowly to the table, and heard Sho’s annoyed voice, “I love him! Of course I love him for serious! Why can’t I? While you can love someone and he is not the wrong person for me!”
Aiba frowned but he was close enough to be noticed by Sho. “Our conversation is done!” Sho hissed as he flipped off his phone and smiled to Aiba.
Aiba sat in front of him, “Who was it?”
“No… no one…” Sho answered but before Aiba could bring the subject up again, about how weird Sho’s act at that moment was; the waiter came and brought their lunch. After he put all the foods on the table he smiled to Aiba, “It’s been a while Aiba-san…”
“Ah… yes,” Aiba smiled back to him, “my name is Sakurai now and this is my husband…” The waiter looked happy as he bowed to Sho and Sho bowed back lightly. He couldn’t hide his grin because Aiba just said his name is Sakurai, although it was obvious already but for Sho it felt really special.
“Oh, Ai-umm… the manager asked me to pass a message to you, Sakurai-san… maybe you want to play piano like you used to do…”
“Sure, why not! I will play after I finish the lunch…” Aiba nodded and giggled.
“Enjoy the dishes, sirs…” The waiter said as he left their table.
Aiba and Sho finished their dishes calmly, they didn’t talk much, but partly that was because Aiba prepared his mind to play the piano in front of people again. Sho didn’t try to talk a lot to him as well, because he knew it would be hard for Aiba. After fifteen minutes they finished their lunch. Aiba stood up but Sho held his hand fast before he left.
“Masaki, I love you…” he said slowly.
Aiba smiled, “I know…”
Sho let his hand go and Aiba walked slowly to the piano. He was being in the center of the guest’s attention when he opened the piano cover and placed his hand on the keys. “Minna-san… my name is Sakurai Masaki…” Aiba said as he smiled to the guests, some of them smiled back to him. “This song is my feeling for a guy, a guy that used to be my world, my reason to breath and life… the guy that I will always love… All I can see is you…”
His hands were dancing to the piano keys as his voice sounded harmonic with the beautiful song…
I remember us,
the way we used to be.
You’d hold me in your arms,
your smile so sweet to me,
He could remember everything about Jun clearly in his mind, it was like Jun just stood up beside him. He could imagine Jun’s smile, his laugh, his voice, everything about him resounded in his head, warmed his heart. Jun… I’m glad I met you…
The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love?
or ever live again?
His life stopped when Jun left him, It felt like the earth stopped rotating, the clock stopped tickling, everything around him stopped the day when Jun left him. He died along with Jun, the darkness swallowed him, drowned him to bottomless sea… He didn’t want to live anymore… a tear dropped on his cheek. But Jun always teached him to be stronger, to be tough, to accept and love himself. Jun… I’m glad I met you…
I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
to remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
He saw Jun everywhere, when he opened his eyes, even when he closed his eyes, Jun's shadow followed him wherever he went. But that was because he was the one who didn’t let himself to move on. He hoped he could treasure his feeling for Jun forever. Jun... I’m glad I met you...
All the love I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,
He knew that someday he had to move on, to save Jun in his treasure box in his heart, to save all memories with him. Not to forget about Jun but to remember the kindness of him, the lovely side of him, he moved on to remember Jun and kept Jun in his heart... Jun… I’m glad I met you…
I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
..All I see is you.
Aiba closed his eyes when his fingers stopped, he could feel his feeling for Jun filled his body sent the warm feeling all over it. Jun... I’m glad I met you... he whispered before he opened his eyes. He saw Sho right after he opened his eyes, Sho was smiling and nodded to him.
Aiba stood up and bowed to the guests, there was a weird silence before the waiter applaused for him and all guests followed after that, the amazed gaze didn’t leave their eyes. He walked to Sho who lifted his hand to reach Aiba’s hand and they walked out from the restaurant together. Sho hugged him tightly right after they were outside,Sho wanted to take all pain from Aiba’s heart; he wanted to take the guilt, regret, and loneliness from his heart. “That was my feeling before I know you Sho-chan... Thank you for always understanding me, for being patient toward me, to be there for me… thank you Sho-chan... for loving me...”
AN : I'm really sorry for late post of this fic~~ T^T *bows*
I just reached home 5 minutes ago~ bcoz I stucked 2 days in my grandpa place, which no inet there~ oh my...
I wanted to post this fic on saturday before I went but then there was no electricity on my house, I feel like throwing something atm~~ T___T
I know I haven't reply all comments, I read it one by one but still can't find time to reply them, I'm really sorry...I will reply all soon *slaps my self*
now abt the fic...nothing really happened on this chapter ne~~ but something will happen, soon~~ XDD << wrong emotion~
the poem is not mine XD I hope I can make a beautiful poem like that but sadly I can't XDD the poem title is "All I see is you by. Kelly Lobdell"
still I hope you will forgive me for this late post and for whatever my faults T^T
enjoy the story ne <3
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : andreja1989 *I feel like not talking to you for long time T^T*
Pairing : Sakuraiba, Junba, Ohmiya
Genre : AU, Romance, Angst
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Aiba Masaki used to be a great songwriter until the death of his beloved made him stop composing. Yet, the arrival of Sakurai Sho has colored his life. Sho taught him what is love and made him knew happiness again. But life...never be that easy...
Eleventh Melody...
Jun would never understand why he had an interest in the guy in front of him. He had different personality than him, totally. Jun was perfectionist, serious, but he got trapped to an air head guy. But that wasn’t the scary part, the scary part was that Jun enjoyed it, every time the guy acted as an idiot and childish in front of him, it would make Jun fall for him even deeper. Deeper and deeper until it became uncontrollable, but again, Jun didn’t hate it…
Like that day, he stood in front of the cashier for almost ten minutes to wait for that guy to choose his meals. Jun was wondering, why did he wait anyway? He knew that it was a waste of his time. He could have sat down and wait for him at the table, but he couldn’t. Jun was afraid that the guy would need him to choose a desert for him or just in case he forgot to bring money that is why Jun had to bail him for his meals.
“What do you think is better Jun-tan?” he hated that nick name so much. “Pudding or strawberry ice cream?” See… just like what he thought, that guy would need him.
“Pudding,” Jun didn’t try to make the guy choose or think by himself or they wouldn’t move from there until tomorrow.
“One pudding ma’am!” he said cheerfully to the shopkeeper. The shopkeeper placed a cup of pudding on his tray and he smiled brightly to Jun. A smile that made Jun’s heart beat so fast although he would never admit it.
“Come on, before the seat is full…” Jun said as he walked slowly, that guy was following him from behind. Jun was looking around while he passed some tables, trying to find a seat for them. He finally found an empty table when he heard a loud sound as if something fell to the ground.
He could hear people buzzed around as he turned to see it. He wasn’t shocked when he found out that the guy fell on his knees and his meal was messed up on the floor. Jun sighed as he placed his tray to the nearest table, he walked back to that guy who didn’t try to settle his mess, instead he looked like waiting for Jun. Jun knelt and started to tidy up the mess on the floor. “Are you okay?” Jun asked.
The guy nodded his head, “I’m okay…”
Jun sighed again and held his arm, “Don’t lie to me Aiba!” he brought Aiba’s right arm to his shoulder and placed his arm on Aiba’s waist as he brought them to stand up while ignoring people who stared at them. Aiba frowned in pain when Jun said, “Please bear it for a while…”
Now Jun was really wondering about that. This guy almost made mess everywhere, fell to the ground just like that, did silly things like it was nothing, asked Jun to do whatever he thought although it was stupid and impossible to do, this guy really had no good side. Except maybe that he was cheerful like sunshine, he always thinks about other people first than him, or maybe it was the fact that Jun never met anyone who had a pure heart like him. At that moment Jun really thought, what was the reason he let himself fall for a guy like Aiba…
~*~
“You know, what was Nino’s first question when he met me at that day?” Aiba asked the guy who was still kissing his neck, gave some light licks, sucked and bit it at the same time.
“No,” the guy answered but his hand started to wander under the blanket, touched every part of Aiba’s body that was possible to touch. He made the cycle movements around Aiba’s nipple and made him shivered in response.
“Mou! You didn’t listen at me, Sho-chan!” Aiba whined slowly because Sho’s action started to annoy him.
Sho stopped his action and kissed his wife lips tenderly, “I’m listening… so? What did he say?” Sho asked but he was back to Aiba’s neck again.
“He said ‘can you please not make it really obvious the next time you had sex with him?’” Aiba mimicked his best friend’s question even his expression that made Sho burst in laugh. “Don’t laugh! You always made hickeys on uncovered place, I can never cover it, not even when I was wearing a scarf!” It was Sho’s habit to mark Aiba, although they didn’t have sex in the night, Sho would make it in the morning.
“Because I like to show it off, that you’re mine…”
Aiba looked at Sho who definitely locked his gaze back to Aiba, but suddenly Aiba burst in laugh, his body was shaking crazily. “Oh My… that’s cheesy, I thought you’re better than that!”
Sho frowned at Aiba, showed his sulking face, “I’m trying my best here!”
“Okay, okay, now let’s move from this bed, you promised me a date,” Aiba said as he tossed their blanket away. But before he stood up Sho pulled him back to the bed, hugged him from behind as his hands started to roam all over the half naked body, “How about afternoon date?”
“No!” Aiba freed himself fast and moved away from Sho, “C’mon Sho-chan, you promised me! And I want it to start in the morning,” Aiba said firmly, “till night!” he added fast before Sho could say anything. It wasn’t like he didn’t like the idea to spend a day with Sho in the bed, but he wanted to do something else, something that a couple was supposed to do.
“Yosh! I will bath first!” Aiba said as he walked to the bathroom, he closed and locked the door just to made sure Sho won’t sneak in, because they won’t go if Sho succeeds to disturb his bath. Sho always look kind, calm, mature and caring; but actually he had the childish side as well, the possessive and jealousy one. Something that Aiba didn’t know until he opened his heart for Sho and he didn’t regret his decision to do so.
He finished his bath after some minutes and had to push Sho to the bathroom after that. He didn’t move from in front of the mirror until Sho came out from the bathroom, a towel hanging on his hips while his hand was busy to dry his hair with another towel. He sneaked closer to his wife and hugged him from behind. “Doushiyou…” Aiba mumbled and ignored Sho’s disturbance.
“Hm? What?” Sho asked him.
“See!” Aiba pointed to red mark on his upper neck near to his jaw, “I can’t hide it with any scarf!”
Sho laughed, “Just let it be, I’m going with you anyway…” Sho said as he freed his wife, gave him a light kiss on his cheek and walked away to put on his clothes.
“That’s even more embarrassing, mou! I don’t care anymore!” he pouted to the mirror, gave up hiding the hickeys and he could hear Sho’s laughter from the wardrobe.
They walked slowly on the side of the road after a calm date in a pet shop. Sho adored how naturally all pets like his wife. Whenever Aiba touched them, they would snore lightly and closed their eyes immediately, enjoyed Aiba’s touch. It wasn’t like Sho didn’t understand it, Aiba’s touches are always so warm and tender. He wanted to hold his wife’s hand when Aiba’s step stopped abruptly, Sho patted his other hand to hide his earlier movement. Aiba stopped in a tattoo shop, there were a lot of tattoo samples in front of the shop.
“I always want to make tattoo…” Aiba mumbled as he bent his body to see the examples clearly.
Sho never expect that his wife wanted to tattoo his body but he didn’t mind at all, “Then let’s make one…” he said as he held Aiba’s hand and walked inside the shop.
A guy with a lot of tattoos on his body greeted them, in an unexpectedly kind way. They sat in front of the table as the shopkeeper brought a lot of catalogues for them. Aiba looked so absorbed with the catalogues, until the shopkeeper asked them, “Are you a couple?”
Aiba turned his gaze to the shopkeeper and answered, “Yes…”
“Oh, I actually have something that fits for couple; it’s really popular lately…” He browsed the catalogues pile and took a map, he opened it in front of Aiba and Sho. “Tatto rings…” he pointed at some pictures. There were some examples about the tattoo rings, Sho wasn’t really sure about it, it wasn’t like he didn’t want to, he was just afraid that Aiba didn’t want to.
“Ohh…” Aiba nodded his head, “It’s nice, ne…”
“Yes, if you don’t want the permanent one we can make temporary one, it’ll gone in one month but of course you can come back to draw it again…” the shopkeeper explained kindly.
“Sho-chan, what do you think?” Aiba asked his husband.
“Sure, why not…” Sho nodded his head in agreement. Sho still couldn’t believe that Aiba wanted to do it, ring tattoos means they would connect in another way, in a real way. Sometimes he still couldn’t believe that his love wasn’t a side love anymore.
Aiba looked at Sho as he said, “Let’s try the permanent one, Sho-chan? If we choose the temporary I felt like we don’t even sure that we will last forever…”
Sho’s heart was beating so rapidly when Aiba said (indirectly) that he wanted to be together with Sho forever. “Of course…” Sho nodded his head again. He felt like he was marking Aiba as his forever and he loved that idea so much. Sho never let Aiba know how possessive he actually is if it is related to something about Aiba.
After two hours they finished the tattooing process. They walked out from the store with a small plastic bag with their wedding rings in it because they didn’t need it anymore. They walked hand in hand, even though Sho liked the feeling when he touched Aiba’s annularly and felt their wedding ring in there but he was happy to lose that happy feeling to just seeing the tattoo on Aiba’s finger. He is mine, only mine… Sho linked their fingers together and kissed Aiba’s hand. “Thank you…” he whispered.
Aiba raised his eyebrow, “For what?”
“For letting me be a part of your life…” Sho answered.
Aiba laughed lightly, “Yes, but a part of my life is really expensive until you have to pay it with the rest of your life…”
Sho’s laugher followed right after that, “I don’t mind…” he kissed Aiba’s forehead tenderly. “Let’s grab lunch… what do you want to eat?” Sho asked Aiba who hang on his hand started to mumble a song softly.
“There is a nice restaurant around here and I didn’t go there for long time, we can get lunch there…” Aiba answered. Sho nodded to him and caressed his hair.
After ten minutes the reached the restaurant and Sho had to agree with Aiba that the restaurant was nice. It wasn’t a luxurious restaurant but emitted the calm feeling for people who ate in there. Aiba went to the toilet right after they ordered some foods, left Sho alone at their table. But after Aiba came back, Sho seemed like in the middle of a serious conversation with someone, or at least that was what Aiba thought. He walked slowly to the table, and heard Sho’s annoyed voice, “I love him! Of course I love him for serious! Why can’t I? While you can love someone and he is not the wrong person for me!”
Aiba frowned but he was close enough to be noticed by Sho. “Our conversation is done!” Sho hissed as he flipped off his phone and smiled to Aiba.
Aiba sat in front of him, “Who was it?”
“No… no one…” Sho answered but before Aiba could bring the subject up again, about how weird Sho’s act at that moment was; the waiter came and brought their lunch. After he put all the foods on the table he smiled to Aiba, “It’s been a while Aiba-san…”
“Ah… yes,” Aiba smiled back to him, “my name is Sakurai now and this is my husband…” The waiter looked happy as he bowed to Sho and Sho bowed back lightly. He couldn’t hide his grin because Aiba just said his name is Sakurai, although it was obvious already but for Sho it felt really special.
“Oh, Ai-umm… the manager asked me to pass a message to you, Sakurai-san… maybe you want to play piano like you used to do…”
“Sure, why not! I will play after I finish the lunch…” Aiba nodded and giggled.
“Enjoy the dishes, sirs…” The waiter said as he left their table.
Aiba and Sho finished their dishes calmly, they didn’t talk much, but partly that was because Aiba prepared his mind to play the piano in front of people again. Sho didn’t try to talk a lot to him as well, because he knew it would be hard for Aiba. After fifteen minutes they finished their lunch. Aiba stood up but Sho held his hand fast before he left.
“Masaki, I love you…” he said slowly.
Aiba smiled, “I know…”
Sho let his hand go and Aiba walked slowly to the piano. He was being in the center of the guest’s attention when he opened the piano cover and placed his hand on the keys. “Minna-san… my name is Sakurai Masaki…” Aiba said as he smiled to the guests, some of them smiled back to him. “This song is my feeling for a guy, a guy that used to be my world, my reason to breath and life… the guy that I will always love… All I can see is you…”
His hands were dancing to the piano keys as his voice sounded harmonic with the beautiful song…
I remember us,
the way we used to be.
You’d hold me in your arms,
your smile so sweet to me,
He could remember everything about Jun clearly in his mind, it was like Jun just stood up beside him. He could imagine Jun’s smile, his laugh, his voice, everything about him resounded in his head, warmed his heart. Jun… I’m glad I met you…
The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love?
or ever live again?
His life stopped when Jun left him, It felt like the earth stopped rotating, the clock stopped tickling, everything around him stopped the day when Jun left him. He died along with Jun, the darkness swallowed him, drowned him to bottomless sea… He didn’t want to live anymore… a tear dropped on his cheek. But Jun always teached him to be stronger, to be tough, to accept and love himself. Jun… I’m glad I met you…
I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
to remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes...
...All I see is you.
He saw Jun everywhere, when he opened his eyes, even when he closed his eyes, Jun's shadow followed him wherever he went. But that was because he was the one who didn’t let himself to move on. He hoped he could treasure his feeling for Jun forever. Jun... I’m glad I met you...
All the love I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,
He knew that someday he had to move on, to save Jun in his treasure box in his heart, to save all memories with him. Not to forget about Jun but to remember the kindness of him, the lovely side of him, he moved on to remember Jun and kept Jun in his heart... Jun… I’m glad I met you…
I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes...
..All I see is you.
Aiba closed his eyes when his fingers stopped, he could feel his feeling for Jun filled his body sent the warm feeling all over it. Jun... I’m glad I met you... he whispered before he opened his eyes. He saw Sho right after he opened his eyes, Sho was smiling and nodded to him.
Aiba stood up and bowed to the guests, there was a weird silence before the waiter applaused for him and all guests followed after that, the amazed gaze didn’t leave their eyes. He walked to Sho who lifted his hand to reach Aiba’s hand and they walked out from the restaurant together. Sho hugged him tightly right after they were outside,Sho wanted to take all pain from Aiba’s heart; he wanted to take the guilt, regret, and loneliness from his heart. “That was my feeling before I know you Sho-chan... Thank you for always understanding me, for being patient toward me, to be there for me… thank you Sho-chan... for loving me...”
AN : I'm really sorry for late post of this fic~~ T^T *bows*
I just reached home 5 minutes ago~ bcoz I stucked 2 days in my grandpa place, which no inet there~ oh my...
I wanted to post this fic on saturday before I went but then there was no electricity on my house, I feel like throwing something atm~~ T___T
I know I haven't reply all comments, I read it one by one but still can't find time to reply them, I'm really sorry...I will reply all soon *slaps my self*
now abt the fic...nothing really happened on this chapter ne~~ but something will happen, soon~~ XDD << wrong emotion~
the poem is not mine XD I hope I can make a beautiful poem like that but sadly I can't XDD the poem title is "All I see is you by. Kelly Lobdell"
still I hope you will forgive me for this late post and for whatever my faults T^T
enjoy the story ne <3