[One-shot] Itsumademo
Title : Itsumademo
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : andreja1989 thanks as always <3
Pairing : Sakuraiba, ohba (bcoz sho broke my heart
Genre : Romace, light angst
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Sho... wasn't that perfect... Sho... wasn't that mature... Sho... wasn't that calm.... Sho was wearing a mask...
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Sho felt so angry that he pursed his lips in a thin line, gritted his teeth to hold himself back from the urge to tell everyone everything. His mind was messed although he knew he was good at hiding his own feeling, putting on the mask to disguise his real expression, which he learned to do since Johnny Jimusho accepted him. He smiled when he was hurt, laughed when he was sad, but Sho somehow understood that it wasn’t only about his position as an idol, it was just an excuse, but in reality he just couldn’t express his feelings easily. He heard that annoying laugh again, the laugher that he used to love, no… he still loves that laugher but it became unbearable annoying now.
“Are you going out with riida?” Jun asked the owner of the laugh earlier.
“No, we aren’t…” of course, Sho hissed and tried not to make his voice audible for everyone, “but I really think we should be going out…”Only for a second when everyone burst in laughter Sho throws his death glare but one second after that he is already hide behind his mask and laughed together with everyone. That’s not funny…
He knew Aiba didn’t mean it seriously , he was just disappointed because Sho didn’t visit him, then he threw his frustration on all by saying he wanted to date riida. Sho was trying so hard to behave like an adult when he saw Aiba cuddling on Ohno’s arm after their performance in music station. He glanced to Nino who didn’t give them any attention, he was wondering why Nino looked so calm and didn’t think weird about the sudden closeness between Aiba and Ohno, he used to be jealous a lot for God’s sake!
“Just let him do what he likes…” someone reminded him when he opened his lips to warn Aiba, “he is just back, don’t be too hard on him…” and here is someone who would be on Aiba’s side no matter what did he do, Matsujun, he spoiled Aiba a lot until the point where Sho would never understand. So now, it’s understandable to let Aiba do what he wants just because he was just discharged from hospital? Aiba tilted his head and whispered something to Ohno’s ear. Their giggles resound in the empty green room, burning out all Sho’s patience, his hand reached for Aiba’s arm, hard and rough, making the younger’s body jolt.
“No abusing behaviors, please…” Nino said as he entered the green room and brought his bag along with him left the room.
Jun was ready to pull Sho’s hand from Aiba’s arm when Ohno stared directly at him, a warning glare from Ohno made his hand flagging. “It’s okay Oh-chan… we need to talk anyway… I will follow you later. Matsujun, it’s okay…”
For his own shock Sho saw how natural Ohno’s hand landed on Aiba’s hair, brushing his fingers against the soft hair, ruffled them slowly. “I’m outside…” He brought Matsujun along with him, left Aiba and Sho alone in the room.
“Tell me you aren’t serious?” Sho hissed dangerously.
“About what exactly?” Aiba doe-like eyes looked into him, daring and challenging.
“About what you said in the interview! That you want to date riida!” Sho was wondering why he could be so honest to Aiba and throw his anger just like that. It was probably because jealousy burnt down his defenses, or because simply Aiba honesty always made him being honest to himself.
“You never believe me! Not even when I was being hospitalized, this is the reason why you keep called me every hour right?” That was true, Sho never texted Aiba because he called him every hour, he just sent a message once when he had to cancel his promise to visit Aiba because the sudden photo shoot for a magazine which made Aiba whine a lot after that. “It wasn’t because you worried over me, you just need to make sure I didn’t cheat on anyone, I was in hospital, Sho!”
That is… he knew it. It was true Sho worried over him but his situation that couldn’t be by Aiba’s side made him frustrated and planted bad idea on his head. “I’m so done with your every bad thoughts about me Sho!” he said as he pulled himself and ran from his boyfriend. He felt the heat burning his eyes as the tears started to run down his cheeks. But even when his vision became blurry he could see Ohno waiting for him outside the studio. Before he said anything to Ohno, his phone vibrated, he took it from his pocket and saw Sho’s name on it.
“Let me receive it…” Ohno reached for him, Aiba put his phone to Ohno’s hand as the leader of Arashi flipped it on and placed it near his ear.
“Sho, he doesn’t want to…” Ohno stunned for a second and suddenly turned it into speaker mode. It was husky but clearly Sho’s voice.
“Monokuro ga irodzuki hajimeru kankaku
Imi wo ushinai hajimeta tanzaku
Fuan na Jibun ga mata iya ni naru
Tsumannai Kimochi wo uta ni naru nara”
-The sense of monochrome beginning to change color,
a poem on a paper that's begun to lose its meaning.
It's worrying, that I might start to dislike myself.
It's boring, if that's so, then sing out your feelings.-
Aiba could see a smile form on his leader lips, “He is dishonest, never trusts anyone and is stupid…” Aiba nodded to his own words. “And he sang a rap part for me?” he had to hold his laugher.
“And he loves you…” Ohno continued.
Aiba smiled, “And I love him…”
Aiba took his phone from Ohno and walked back to the studio while hearing the rest of the song along with his every steps.
"I love... love you, my boo… Bokura dake ni wakaru you na aizu”
-I love... I love you, my boo In a signal that only we will understand-
“All I want to say ‘I love..’. Donna kotoba mo chu wo mau”
-All I want to say ‘I love...’ No matter the words, they flutter in the air-
He loves everything about Sho, the time when he is jealous, the time he is angry, the time he laughs, the time he whines, the time he showed everything about him… and no matter how hard it is to be together with him, no matter how much they quarrel Aiba still wants to be together with him…
“Sono mama motto, Onaji omoide, Kawaranu ai wo
Arifureta hibi ni shirushite yuku, I love you
Kimi to no pe-ji fuete yuku
Kimi ni wa motto, Kono saki zutto, Waratteite hoshii
Ame no hi demo
Kaze no hi demo”
-More, as we are, so that it will get to you, this unchanging love
Overflowing in these modest days, I love you,
connected with deep bonds.
More, starting from now, so that it will shine, tomorrow is wonderful
only for the two of us,
a flower of love-
He fastened his pace when he saw Sho stood up at the end of the hallway, opened one of his arms to him. Aiba didn’t think twice to jump in his embrace, feeling his hand on his waist as Sho whispered the last word of his song, “Itsumademo…”
note => itsumademo : forever
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AN : waaaa waaa~ I suddenly wanted to write something then tadaaa~ I wrote it, just in some hours and andreja1989 beta-ed unbelievable FAST XDD arigatou ne ^o^
Sho broke my heart when Aiba said he just texted aiba once when he was in hospital~ =___=" but I wrote it right XD he called every one hour LOL, trust my inagination guys XDD
I am trying to manage my time to write again~ I miss to do it like whoa XDD but maybe the pace will be really...really slow, bcoz now I'm working as well ^^
I personally think this fic is kinda lame but I still hope you enjoyed it~ XD
Author : lovu_lovu_aiba
Beta : andreja1989 thanks as always <3
Pairing : Sakuraiba, ohba (bcoz sho broke my heart
Genre : Romace, light angst
Rating : PG13
Disclaimer : The boys aren't mine, I really hope I own them tho XD
Summary : Sho... wasn't that perfect... Sho... wasn't that mature... Sho... wasn't that calm.... Sho was wearing a mask...
~*~
Sho felt so angry that he pursed his lips in a thin line, gritted his teeth to hold himself back from the urge to tell everyone everything. His mind was messed although he knew he was good at hiding his own feeling, putting on the mask to disguise his real expression, which he learned to do since Johnny Jimusho accepted him. He smiled when he was hurt, laughed when he was sad, but Sho somehow understood that it wasn’t only about his position as an idol, it was just an excuse, but in reality he just couldn’t express his feelings easily. He heard that annoying laugh again, the laugher that he used to love, no… he still loves that laugher but it became unbearable annoying now.
“Are you going out with riida?” Jun asked the owner of the laugh earlier.
“No, we aren’t…” of course, Sho hissed and tried not to make his voice audible for everyone, “but I really think we should be going out…”Only for a second when everyone burst in laughter Sho throws his death glare but one second after that he is already hide behind his mask and laughed together with everyone. That’s not funny…
He knew Aiba didn’t mean it seriously , he was just disappointed because Sho didn’t visit him, then he threw his frustration on all by saying he wanted to date riida. Sho was trying so hard to behave like an adult when he saw Aiba cuddling on Ohno’s arm after their performance in music station. He glanced to Nino who didn’t give them any attention, he was wondering why Nino looked so calm and didn’t think weird about the sudden closeness between Aiba and Ohno, he used to be jealous a lot for God’s sake!
“Just let him do what he likes…” someone reminded him when he opened his lips to warn Aiba, “he is just back, don’t be too hard on him…” and here is someone who would be on Aiba’s side no matter what did he do, Matsujun, he spoiled Aiba a lot until the point where Sho would never understand. So now, it’s understandable to let Aiba do what he wants just because he was just discharged from hospital? Aiba tilted his head and whispered something to Ohno’s ear. Their giggles resound in the empty green room, burning out all Sho’s patience, his hand reached for Aiba’s arm, hard and rough, making the younger’s body jolt.
“No abusing behaviors, please…” Nino said as he entered the green room and brought his bag along with him left the room.
Jun was ready to pull Sho’s hand from Aiba’s arm when Ohno stared directly at him, a warning glare from Ohno made his hand flagging. “It’s okay Oh-chan… we need to talk anyway… I will follow you later. Matsujun, it’s okay…”
For his own shock Sho saw how natural Ohno’s hand landed on Aiba’s hair, brushing his fingers against the soft hair, ruffled them slowly. “I’m outside…” He brought Matsujun along with him, left Aiba and Sho alone in the room.
“Tell me you aren’t serious?” Sho hissed dangerously.
“About what exactly?” Aiba doe-like eyes looked into him, daring and challenging.
“About what you said in the interview! That you want to date riida!” Sho was wondering why he could be so honest to Aiba and throw his anger just like that. It was probably because jealousy burnt down his defenses, or because simply Aiba honesty always made him being honest to himself.
“You never believe me! Not even when I was being hospitalized, this is the reason why you keep called me every hour right?” That was true, Sho never texted Aiba because he called him every hour, he just sent a message once when he had to cancel his promise to visit Aiba because the sudden photo shoot for a magazine which made Aiba whine a lot after that. “It wasn’t because you worried over me, you just need to make sure I didn’t cheat on anyone, I was in hospital, Sho!”
That is… he knew it. It was true Sho worried over him but his situation that couldn’t be by Aiba’s side made him frustrated and planted bad idea on his head. “I’m so done with your every bad thoughts about me Sho!” he said as he pulled himself and ran from his boyfriend. He felt the heat burning his eyes as the tears started to run down his cheeks. But even when his vision became blurry he could see Ohno waiting for him outside the studio. Before he said anything to Ohno, his phone vibrated, he took it from his pocket and saw Sho’s name on it.
“Let me receive it…” Ohno reached for him, Aiba put his phone to Ohno’s hand as the leader of Arashi flipped it on and placed it near his ear.
“Sho, he doesn’t want to…” Ohno stunned for a second and suddenly turned it into speaker mode. It was husky but clearly Sho’s voice.
“Monokuro ga irodzuki hajimeru kankaku
Imi wo ushinai hajimeta tanzaku
Fuan na Jibun ga mata iya ni naru
Tsumannai Kimochi wo uta ni naru nara”
-The sense of monochrome beginning to change color,
a poem on a paper that's begun to lose its meaning.
It's worrying, that I might start to dislike myself.
It's boring, if that's so, then sing out your feelings.-
Aiba could see a smile form on his leader lips, “He is dishonest, never trusts anyone and is stupid…” Aiba nodded to his own words. “And he sang a rap part for me?” he had to hold his laugher.
“And he loves you…” Ohno continued.
Aiba smiled, “And I love him…”
Aiba took his phone from Ohno and walked back to the studio while hearing the rest of the song along with his every steps.
"I love... love you, my boo… Bokura dake ni wakaru you na aizu”
-I love... I love you, my boo In a signal that only we will understand-
“All I want to say ‘I love..’. Donna kotoba mo chu wo mau”
-All I want to say ‘I love...’ No matter the words, they flutter in the air-
He loves everything about Sho, the time when he is jealous, the time he is angry, the time he laughs, the time he whines, the time he showed everything about him… and no matter how hard it is to be together with him, no matter how much they quarrel Aiba still wants to be together with him…
“Sono mama motto, Onaji omoide, Kawaranu ai wo
Arifureta hibi ni shirushite yuku, I love you
Kimi to no pe-ji fuete yuku
Kimi ni wa motto, Kono saki zutto, Waratteite hoshii
Ame no hi demo
Kaze no hi demo”
-More, as we are, so that it will get to you, this unchanging love
Overflowing in these modest days, I love you,
connected with deep bonds.
More, starting from now, so that it will shine, tomorrow is wonderful
only for the two of us,
a flower of love-
He fastened his pace when he saw Sho stood up at the end of the hallway, opened one of his arms to him. Aiba didn’t think twice to jump in his embrace, feeling his hand on his waist as Sho whispered the last word of his song, “Itsumademo…”
note => itsumademo : forever
~*~
AN : waaaa waaa~ I suddenly wanted to write something then tadaaa~ I wrote it, just in some hours and andreja1989 beta-ed unbelievable FAST XDD arigatou ne ^o^
Sho broke my heart when Aiba said he just texted aiba once when he was in hospital~ =___=" but I wrote it right XD he called every one hour LOL, trust my inagination guys XDD
I am trying to manage my time to write again~ I miss to do it like whoa XDD but maybe the pace will be really...really slow, bcoz now I'm working as well ^^
I personally think this fic is kinda lame but I still hope you enjoyed it~ XD