I sat outside tonight with a warm milo, a cigarette and a sky full of stars. My eyes brimmed with tears. I realised I would probably never be able to look at the sky, my sky with all my stars and not think of him. This has scared me almost senseless, it came from nowhere. I didn't think it was possible for me to feel so much. I want to be me, I ( Read more... )

I don't really have time for an update, but I think I need to spill. Even if it doesn't make sence and it's all just random words thrown together, I think I feel a need to just be able to type ( Read more... )

I reached a conclusion last night, that ultimately no matter much crap my mind has to sift through, I will come to same conclusion. I have two choices ( Read more... )

Well it finally happened. My little man is gone ( Read more... )

No, I will not read you my last journal post!

xx

I miss him when I'm not with him. It almost feels too good to be real.

When will I wake up?

*Swoon*

I feel icky. My head hurts and my heart feels all piddly paddly. In other more coherent terms I am confused. I don't trust what I feel, I don't trust what he feels. I don't know if its justifiable for me to question it or not, or whether it's just my own emotional issues. I hate to think we are both just there as something we might need, a bit of ( Read more... )

After not much deliberation and always having fancied one, I got my labret pierced! I like it. It's something different. It's weird to look in the mirror and see it. Today I think I am going into a little bit of shock. It starting to heal and look more permenent. There's a hole in my face!! With a bar in it! In my chin bit! hahahaha. I make myself ( Read more... )

I feel like I have majorly fucked everything up. I am trying to be rational, and make myself think that it isn't all my fault. But it probably is ( Read more... )