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I think of you smiling with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs
So do i have a three weeks lifespand or something? Paul (metal dude) already ended things. I hadn't heard from him in a day or two and thats weird when we would talk EVERYDAY or see eachother. So i sent a simple message that said " hey! how are you?" and he went off ( Read more... ) -
Lost horizon.
I'm sitting in a hotel room with my dad. We just got back from the Monterey bay aquarium. It was a blast!! I love my dad, he's awesome. Paul and I also messaged throughout the entire day. He really makes me smile.
I spent the night at his house six times in the last week and a half. The morning of my birthday we spent four hours laughing, like ( Read more... ) -
" something is not wrong with me. how was i suppose to know, trying not to let it show"
I've been hanging out with this metal dude, two nights in a row. And i'm not saying "metal" like he listens to it and thinks he's metal. he really is. I guess he's in some metal band called "origin" what the hell am i doing?!?!!?!? I need to like start metting guys at a church or something. it would be nice to meet someone under the age of 35 too. ( Read more... ) -
These days go by like trucks and trains.
It's been awhile since an update. And I have no excuses now that I have this app.
Not much has been going on....I've been drinking for the whole month of feb and cannot handle it anymore. I can't even look at alcohol and have no desire to go out. I will be in doors until my birthday, hopefully.
Any guy I had I don't really have anymore. Went on a " ( Read more... ) -
Carry me around like a picture in your purse and pull me out when things are at their worse
I'm sitting at lax and hour or so early for my flight. I had a really awesome time, eventhough it was only for two days. My mom picked me up, late, of course. And we met up with my dad in the 909. Had lunch, went through more of my grandma's stuff. Which thust far doesn't get any easier. We are all just quite and I don't think any of us can really ( Read more... ) -
Everyday it's changed since then. In everyway I've changed since then..
So I don't know what the hell is going on in 2009 but I've met about four dudes and they've all called, emailed or texted me. WTF?! All of 2008 I only had three guys want to talk to me after we hung out. And one was dave so I don't count it. So really two guy in 2008. It's so weird to see a text or a myspace message the next day. Hahaha as bad as ( Read more... ) -
Wasted my hands wasted my heart.
I was thinking about how out of control I've been. Its only a month into 2009 and I'm completly crazy. I've been drinking non stop and staying up until ungodly hours. My excuse is that I'm young and I'm having a shit ton of fun. But I don't know if it's really a way of life. I mean in San francisco there are people a lot older than me doing far ( Read more... ) -
Words fall through me always fool me...
So last night was random. I hooked up with this guy in a ska band who's on tour with voodoo gull skulls. I felt 16. Hahaha it's been years since I've hooked up with someone in a band. I thought that was a past time for me. Hahaha it was fun and we were drinking whiskey until 4am. Haha. I'm sitting waiting for the train with a bag full for carls Jr ( Read more... ) -
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i got this in my inbox yesterday morning. it is from the poet... makes me miss him a lot. we laughed so much together even though he was 36 we was amazing.... here it is ( Read more... ) -
"Keep on fighting to remember that nothing is lost in the end when you burn your life down"
I'm in bed... i've been in bed since 3pm yesterday. I didn't have anything else to do besides drink & to be honest i dont think my body could of handled it. I woke up from my nap at about ten pm with four text messages and three missed calls. One from a married man that has liked me for five years. He was the frist friend i made when i started at ( Read more... )