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[loyal_meg]

Sigh. Today has been a semi okay day. I talked to Justin today. Justin, I am sorry if seems like I'm avoiding you, but I really just need to be away from you. I need to think about stuff. Wayne finally got a computer, and has decided to come out of his shell. Anyways, we talked a bit. Wayne, thanks for listening and thanks for dealing with me in my

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[just_in_fate]

I guess I could understand why you would want to be away from me for a while. But you did ask and asked that I tell the truth. So I did, though it probably wasn't what you wanted to hear or were expecting to hear from me.

Emotional state? Confusion? A lot to sort out in your head? Feelings all over the place? Oh god, why do I have a feeling this is all because of me?

[loyal_meg]

I know, I did want the truth and you're right, I wasn't expecting to hear that. I just have a lot to think about. You heaped an awful lot on me, when you told me that and I appreciated your honesty.

The emotional state, the confusion, and the rest, well some of it is about you and then there's other stuff and that I really dont' want to talk about.

[just_in_fate]

I wasn't going to lie to you Megan but that was something I wish I never would have had to tell you about. I regret that part of my past very much, I wish I could fix it but I can't. I haven't done anything like that in a couple years Megan I'm not like that any more, I've changed. I know it was a lot to put on you, but what I told you weighs heavily on me because it is the darkest shadow from my past and something that I'm not proud of at all.

I'm sorry for being part of the reason you feel that way. I won't make you talk about whatever it is that you don't want talk about.

[loyal_meg]

I understand and I know you do, but it's now something that's changed our relationship again. Ever since our last fight, I don't look at our relationship the same way I did before. A lot of things have changed in it.

It's alright, really. Thank you, but eventually, I have to tell you. It's something you're going to have to know. But I can't right now.

[auburn_plait]

Hey Meg. Thinking about stuff is important, glad you had a day to sort through your thoughts.

I dunno where Hannah is, but I'm up in the library. Its nice and empty. If you're looking for me, that's where to find me.

And I miss Morag too!

[loyal_meg]

Yes, I'm glad I did too, I have way too much on my mind to handle.

Um, she stopped by the dorm for a few minutes earlier and then she scooted off. I wonder where she goes. She disappears like a snap and I don't even see her that much. I might find you, we should plan for you know ;)

*sniffles*

[hannah_puff]

Sorry for disappearing like that: )

[loyal_meg]

It's okay Hannah banana :)

[wayne_puff]

Megan, you know, like I said earlier that I am always here for you. I still feel like part of this is my fault.

[loyal_meg]

Thanks Wayne and please don't blame yourself, I told you, it's my fault that I'm even thinking about stuff like that.

[wayne_puff]

But I can't just stop thinking about it, Meg. Maybe getting this fucking laptop was a mistake.

[loyal_meg]

Wayne...look it's not your fault that I thought about that, okay? It was bound to happen eventually, just, it happened now. It was not a mistake, I'm glad you did. Really, I just, I don't even know what to say anymore. We'll talk later okay?