Why do I do this to myself?

Why do I keep doing it?

Why?

Maybe cause I need it? I don't know anymore.

I just don't know.

Just forget it. I'm getting tired of being bitched at. I refuse to take this abuse any longer.

What the hell is wrong with me????

Yesterday was...I...I...I need to talk to El.

And I ask myself again...what the hell is wrong with me????

I need to go, gotta get some salve for a bruise I have on my arm. Er.

How could this happen? Why was I so dumb and naive? Why do I still feel this way even after all this? Damn it damn it damn it!!!!

I've been a bit anti-social lately. Sigh. I've been burying myself in schoolwork and stuff. I've been avoiding everyone, though there are people I still need to talk to. I don't know, I've even been sitting in the back in class and all that. Maybe it's a spout of homesickness? I think maybe I'll go back to the Room of Requirement like I did a ( Read more... )

Just thought I'd update on a happier note. I missed the DA meeting, so if anyone could tell me how it went, it would be much appreciated. So, um, I missed my morning classes today, but I went to Pomfrey and she says I'm not supposed to in class anyways! That's horrid. I told her I'll be at my afternoon classes and she grumbled, but she's letting me ( Read more... )

Sigh. As far as I know...I haven't seen Wayne in forever. I need to talk to him...urgently. I think it's over between us, but I still need to talk to him. Wayne, if you ever see this, please find me and talk to me.

I dyed my hair brown as you can see in my pictures. Here's one:

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Yes! Pomfrey said I might be able to get out of here this weekend because I am making tremendous progress. I haven't seen my friends for a few days, but Morag came and visited. That was like a breath of fresh air from all these HW items and Pomfrey and the constant flow of people coming in with bloody noses or screwed up limbs from spells gone bad ( Read more... )

So I'm updating, probably for this week. I'm in the Hospital Wing. I prefer not to talk about why I'm here. I'll be here for the next 2 weeks or so. After I get out of here, I'm thinking of dying my hair brown. I have no idea why. But I might. I have to think about it. Anyways, I guess I'll be going now. I'm so bored, I can't wait till evening.

UGH.

UGH.

UGH.

Alright I was upset earlier, and now I'm fine. I'll admit that I was acting very immature. I apologize to anybody who experienced my bad mood. I can become quite crabby. Although I'm still a little upset and confused, everything's okay with me and my Han ban which is great. We tried to find Justin and El, which was quite ( Read more... )

I'm so worried about Justin. He's gone crazy, he keeps mumbling. I'm in the Hospital Wing now with him. I had to stun him and me, Hannah and El took him to the Hospital Wing. Hannah and I decided to stay for the night, Hannah took El back to her dorm. This is making me so sad. Anyways I should go, although this demon mumbling is freaking me out. I ( Read more... )

I decided to just do a new entry. This is for the boy who doesn't remember.

( The Real Thing )