I am turning twenty two in two days. Holy crap.

I waited to be 21 for so many years. It was going to be the year I would spend long summer days rolling in the grass with my boyfriend, I'd spend summer evenings going from festival to festival. I was going to move in to a bigger, better flat with him. Im prove all family relations. Espesh with my ( Read more... )

Feeling very blah this evening...

I feel like I have something to say but don't know what it is. I keep flitting from comm to comm hoping I will discover what it is I want to ramble on about and decided that by rambling on about wanting to ramble, I might find some consolation in not being able to vent properly!

Shall I:

Blog a Dog?
Conquer the ( Read more... )

It's a pain that makes me reminise. Thinking of all the wrongs in the world. Wrongs in this house. Wrongs in my life. The wrongs are the darker patches on the quilt that make the images distorted. They make my thinking distorted. They make my feelings so distorted that trying to write about them takes me twice as long because I'm going ten to the ( Read more... )

I googled myself: how sad i know... but i'm in too good a mood to fuck it all up with bullshit today - well for now.


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You're my brother.. but only because the DNA says so. If it were repeated in a newspaper, i'd know it was all bullshit. You are such a cock for doing this to mum... you're a fucking twat for abusing people's kindness and treating them like shit. I honestly 100% don't care if you want to treat me with disrespect or never call and then expect me to ( Read more... )

 Now I'm in a blah mood. A meh mood. Whatever. Indecisive, out of control, clutching at straws and bone idle at the same time...

I am. A bit. Lost.

It's been almost a year. And for the most part, I'm still not over you... (here: "most" is defined in the dictionary as 96%)
I read once that to get over a broken heart, it takes 3 times the amount of ( Read more... )

I am in two minds every time we speak. I either:
a)  Want to make the most of it. Have myself an amazing time. See you have an amazing time and create great memories...
b)  Have a go at you for being so awful, being a user when we were partners, being the invisible man until you need something from me. Show you my fury over being broken by you again ( Read more... )

 Been thinking today. Been wishing today. Been painting today.

Thinking, wishing and painting. I'm getting back to my old self. Except the only difference between my 16 year old self and my current 21 year old self is that i have the impression of having known you, met you, kissed you, loved you and cried over you now... I love it. You've impacted ( Read more... )

HaHa JD, i just remembered that you came in to work today with your distinctly patterned jumper on inside out. I forgot to tell you when i first noticed, but I did eventually tell you. I'm glad it's not just me that makes a tit of themselves!

At least I have a rough idea of what you get paid. You shop at River Island. Just like me :)

See you tomorrow ( Read more... )

Maybe. I hate the word. As I hate boys. All relationships. I confided and believed. You clearly listened...And then manipulated. You are in no way the good guy. Whatever message you think you had to give to the world got lost along with your ability to tell the truth.

I tried to think back to a time when you weren't keeping any of it from me. All i ( Read more... )