Youve almost found my hiding spot
Youve almost seen the real me
I keep running and running
But as I trip its only pretend
Because I really do want to let you in
Just keep diggin
No matter how much I tell you to stop
For i want you to know me
No matter what it takes

I now have nothing to hide
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Ive gone numb again. God, what is wrong with me? I don't have any real reason to be like this. I don't even want to say I am depressed because that usually involves me crying constanly for NO reason. But I can not cry; I almost wish I could. I can't identify what I am feeling... just numb. I have given up on myself it seems like. I don't take my ( Read more... )

This addiction has come upon me again. Trying to saty away is killing me and driving me crazy. What I wouldn't give for a long sleeve shirt so i could go through with it but not be embaressed. god i just want it to go away, this need to cut. but it wont it wont leave until its done. "new cuts cover where the old ones are."

Wow i feel crazy ( Read more... )

OK so a few months ago i was at my step moms house and i was listening to the radio and a song came on. well i knew i had heard it before but i didnt know the name or artist. i waited and waited hoping the radio pplz would say but they never did. so i was stuck with this BEAUTIFUL song in my head w/ no clue as to who was singing it ( Read more... )

I've tried to kill someone ( Read more... )

Wow! I almost cried just now!! I have yahoo messenger and I got a message and the subject was "I love you Rhe". I didn't recognize the name and, well, I thought it was my mom! But when I read the whole message it was from Courtney. I love the fact that I have such great friends, but I wish it would have been my mom. I gave her my LJ sn and I know ( Read more... )

Ok so I have spent the past two days w/ my mom and it went well. I'll talk about it more later. Shelby's taken me to dinner!!

You sometimes you hear a song that just says it all. This is my fav song of all. It's by a band known as Grey Daze. When I first heard it I about died. I cried and cried just because the music and the lyrics were so beautiful. I consider myself a good writer when it comes to my poems but this just stomps me. Like I said the lyrics are amazing (in ( Read more... )