okay well i'll talk about prom in a few minutes. right now i just wanna talk about kelly. he made me so stinkin mad on friday. he ditched me again!! gowd i was mad so i just stayed home and went to bed at frickin' 9:30. sometimes he is such a fuckin dick head like.. he seriously doesnt give a shit about me sometimes. he acted like we didnt even ( Read more... )

i haven't smoked since the night before Easter Sunday!! im doing so good. and the other day i was driving around with lance and dustin and i could have had a cigarette but I DIDNT! it's been sorta hard, but i mean it's not like im full fledge addicted or anything. sometimes i just really really want one. like weird times when im not even stressed ( Read more... )

well okay.. yesterday miss doodle said the brass people dont have to do their ensemble thing for regionals. dude that really makes me mad! because first she let the drummers not do one because they friggin suck.. now she's letting these guys get out of their because they suck. well what about me and miranda? like we're not good at our duet and we ( Read more... )

so yeah i wanna write stuff, but i have nothing to write. nothing really matters right now. i was reading through my journal last night and the first half is all about tanner pretty much and the second half is pretty much all about kelly. with a little bit about brent inbetween. gowd im gonna miss kelly so much. he's been the sweetest guy ever, ( Read more... )

what the fuck kind of a name is milly anyway? gowd damnit. mom said geran can get a dog after i leave. but guess what. she went and got him one fuckin yesterday. gowd damn i am so fucking pissed off!! i want to kill that fuckin dog. i hate it. i hate fuckin dogs. i seriously dont understand why the fuck she couldnt have waited seven mother fucking ( Read more... )

today sucks alot. i hate when everyone frickin' leaves and here i am stuck in school pretty much by myself. justin was just farting and farting and farting like it was nothing in history. holy gowd i swear every 3 seconds he'd go off haha. then i practiced the good ol' sax. now here i am all by myself in this computer room. did my stinky book ( Read more... )

im way lonely dude. this weekend is bullshit. well, parts of it were fun like i said yesterday. but yesterday and tonight sucked. last night i went to branden's and watched harold and kumar go to white castle. i guess that was okay, we gave each other massages. and i brought over my pickles haha yum i love them suckers. today was a waste. i got my ( Read more... )

okay well today i won a ham at bingo. yesssssssssssss. i was way amped i really wanted it. this weekend has been .. good sometimes and bad sometimes. today was really bad. i'll tell you my whole weekend so far. okay well on thursday after school i had speech practice. i really dont like speech and i didnt do good so i dont think im gonna do good ( Read more... )

dude oh my gowd. i woke myself up this morning. because i was laughing in my sleep. hahaha at my dream. dude eric was being so retarded. my brother ya know.. okay so miss dullum started making me crabby cause she was in my dream and it was weird cause i knew it was a dream. cause i told myself that she already made me crabby and it was just in my ( Read more... )

it is almost 3:30 in the morning. i cant sleep worth a shit. i spose i havent really laid down to try, but my mind is racing so fast about so many different things. mainly it's been on really gay shit like the past. i keep thinking about how i used to cut myself and puke up my food. then i thought about having kids, how i will never get pregnant ( Read more... )