[fic] Fukasawa x Hashimoto - There are only so many tomorrows [1/1]
Title: There are only so many tomorrows
Author: BG
Pairing: Fukasawa Tatsuya x Hashimoto Ryosuke
Ratings: PG
Disclaimer: I do not own them.
NB: I struggled terribly with deciding on a pairing. I had so many floating around in my head while I was writing this. Chained_fire thanks so much so giving me the final pairing
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There has always been this underlying current of tension between us. He is different - it’s different with him. I meet his eyes and it’s electric. Something swells up inside of me, licks at my belly - a sort of burning that I can’t quench, an ache that I can’t satisfy.
This tension, it swirls between us, growing and twisting creating a vortex that sucks both of us in and leaves us powerless. And then it dissipates. Leaving behind a smokey, wispy trail that we chase after but can never seem to catch; an illusive promise that we so desire. By ignoring it, by ignoring the signs we keep it under our control. To give in would ruin us.
I made a mistake. It cost us.
It was dark out. The stars were covered by the inky black sky, the moon barely visible behind the clouds. The world was still, silent and full of murky shadows that twisted before your eyes.
I looked at him, his silhouette barely visible. He was watching me, I could tell. And although it was unwanted, unbidden, I was helpless against the crush. I was drawn to him and keeping my distance was torture. I couldn’t read his expression but it called to me.
I caved, crossing the room to come and stand before him. I didn’t say a word and he kept his silence. He drew me against him and I shivered in his arms. My skin tingled all over and my mouth was dry with anxiety and anticipation.
I didn’t beg. I never even said please and he never said yes. I couldn’t believe something unspoken could be so loud. In that shuttered, dark, shadowed place his arms were tight across my back; I could feel the flex of his shoulders under my hands and the strain of his thigh between mine. The drag of his lips against my own made me sigh, made me gasp, and made me squirm.
I knew it would change everything. The moment I felt his body shiver against mine, I knew we could never go back to being just friends. That was lost to us now. My fingers curled over his shoulder and I gave myself over to him. I gave into the desire that swept through both of us. I was powerless to stop the onslaught of passion and I found that I never wanted it to stop.
I couldn’t go back to pretending.
His fingers traced the line of my brow, his knuckles smoothed over my cheek. I could feel his quickened heart beat beneath my palm and the way he clutched at my collar and held himself tight against me.
I don’t want anything else. I want to feel like this forever.
He was watching me again. The night hid his expression from me but I knew would never let him go. He breathed my name against my lips and my heart fluttered at the reverence I could hear in his tone. I don’t deserve such splendor but I covet it regardless.
I don’t tell him I love him in words but I think he knows, just like I know he will never desire for anyone they way he does me.
I will never love anyone else.
xXx
AN: I'm such a sap >>
I finally finished it...not that it is in any way long T__T It's been sitting half done on my harddrive for months T____________________________T
Author: BG
Pairing: Fukasawa Tatsuya x Hashimoto Ryosuke
Ratings: PG
Disclaimer: I do not own them.
NB: I struggled terribly with deciding on a pairing. I had so many floating around in my head while I was writing this. Chained_fire thanks so much so giving me the final pairing
archive
There has always been this underlying current of tension between us. He is different - it’s different with him. I meet his eyes and it’s electric. Something swells up inside of me, licks at my belly - a sort of burning that I can’t quench, an ache that I can’t satisfy.
This tension, it swirls between us, growing and twisting creating a vortex that sucks both of us in and leaves us powerless. And then it dissipates. Leaving behind a smokey, wispy trail that we chase after but can never seem to catch; an illusive promise that we so desire. By ignoring it, by ignoring the signs we keep it under our control. To give in would ruin us.
I made a mistake. It cost us.
It was dark out. The stars were covered by the inky black sky, the moon barely visible behind the clouds. The world was still, silent and full of murky shadows that twisted before your eyes.
I looked at him, his silhouette barely visible. He was watching me, I could tell. And although it was unwanted, unbidden, I was helpless against the crush. I was drawn to him and keeping my distance was torture. I couldn’t read his expression but it called to me.
I caved, crossing the room to come and stand before him. I didn’t say a word and he kept his silence. He drew me against him and I shivered in his arms. My skin tingled all over and my mouth was dry with anxiety and anticipation.
I didn’t beg. I never even said please and he never said yes. I couldn’t believe something unspoken could be so loud. In that shuttered, dark, shadowed place his arms were tight across my back; I could feel the flex of his shoulders under my hands and the strain of his thigh between mine. The drag of his lips against my own made me sigh, made me gasp, and made me squirm.
I knew it would change everything. The moment I felt his body shiver against mine, I knew we could never go back to being just friends. That was lost to us now. My fingers curled over his shoulder and I gave myself over to him. I gave into the desire that swept through both of us. I was powerless to stop the onslaught of passion and I found that I never wanted it to stop.
I couldn’t go back to pretending.
His fingers traced the line of my brow, his knuckles smoothed over my cheek. I could feel his quickened heart beat beneath my palm and the way he clutched at my collar and held himself tight against me.
I don’t want anything else. I want to feel like this forever.
He was watching me again. The night hid his expression from me but I knew would never let him go. He breathed my name against my lips and my heart fluttered at the reverence I could hear in his tone. I don’t deserve such splendor but I covet it regardless.
I don’t tell him I love him in words but I think he knows, just like I know he will never desire for anyone they way he does me.
I will never love anyone else.
xXx
AN: I'm such a sap >>
I finally finished it...not that it is in any way long T__T It's been sitting half done on my harddrive for months T____________________________T