blah blah blah, christmas ( Read more... )

i need a thought to think. whether it be good or bad, i don't really care. i'm just tired of being gridlocked, not knowing what to think. i'm not switzerland. i don't want to be neutral. i just want a stance on things, and right now i don't have one, and it's frustrating. i've got nothing to go off of, and everything's just speculation. so as far ( Read more... )

i'm constant as all hell.

doesn't that tree look familiar?

my birthday today was pretty decent ( Read more... )

heh.

like i couldn't have predicted this.

i was going to make a list of things that i wanted for my birthday, but then i thought that it might be a waste of time.

and we all know how i feel about wasting time.

it's so easy to act completely obvious to everything that's going on around you.

it gives you the freedom to not have to act, because as far as you're concerned, there's no situation.

you would think that i would learn my lesson, but i don't. i just sit there, and act like everything is perfect.

i say all this smiling.

i let myself down, and frustrate myself so much on a daily basis.

i don't see it changing anytime soon, either.

look look look look look look

this journal is a joke, and is in no way used to vent, or say things that i want to get off my chest, but, rather, things that i want people to know without me actually having to tell them.

but whatever, right?

on a lighter note, someone get me this for my birthday. Leave a comment  2