And in less festive news!

[ltgmars]

I've been in a weird dumpy mood since the weekend. I partly blame the weather over the weekend, because while I'm actually very weak to and hate being in sunshine, I like the existence of sunshine itself, and I guess Saturday was a drearier day than I needed at that point. I was driving and thinking, and I felt the sudden urge to not be driving and

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[nicefinalbeam]

It is definitely hard to keep your mood up when the world outside is dreary, even if you are indoors! I have had that exact type of moment on the road, by the way. It was awhile ago, but it was stress. :\

You aren't alone in that anxiety either. Sometimes I'll question even my very, very best friendships. I'll think, "Yeah, but if I stopped talking to them, would they really care?"

But then I remember how I, personally, still think about people I met through LiveJournal 3 or 4 years ago that I have NO IDEA what happened to and I still care and wonder. So maybe it's not so far-fetched that people would care the same way about me (or you~).

Anyway! Sorry to go "me me me" in a comment here, but I just thought you should know that you aren't the only one to have this sort of thing go on. ♥ And I hope that you shake the mood!

[ltgmars]

Mm, it certainly isn't uncommon, and it's always nice to know that I have friends who understand. ♥ Thank you!

[fiore777]

I don't believe it is a bad thing to be concerned about yourself at all. It is necessary, for us to look out for ourselves. And I also feel it is hard to know what people think. As I talk to friends I also end up wondering what could really be going on in their minds. I think recognizing that you have these close friendships is already a great thing. :)

[ltgmars]

Hey there! I'm happy to hear from you. :3. It's certainly hard not knowing what's going on in other people's minds -- I'm the kind of person who likes to know what's going on and likes to have a clear picture of how everyone's feeling, so it's a particular concern of mine that I need to work on. I think I'm conditioned to feel like I'm being selfish when I'm not considering other people's feelings, so thank you for the reminder that I'm allowed to think about myself sometimes.

[fiore777]

I'm pretty much been entirely inactive on livejournal, only around to read what people post. I live on facebook these days. xD; Or tumblr, super active over there as well. Every couple of years I seem to rotate sites but I'm trying to stick this time around.

And another note on being selfish, looking out for yourself means in turn you can be a better you for other people. So winners all around! I would love to know what people are always thinking. But given the option to read minds I would be terrified, I probably wouldn't ever peek for fear of what I'd find. xD;

[ltgmars]

We aren't yet friends on Tumblr, are we? I'm (obviously) ltgmars there, so let's get together, yeah yeah yeah. :D

That's a very good point about taking time for yourself. I never really think about it that way, but it's true that if I look out for myself, I'll be a better me for everyone else.

[jadeswallow]

For all it's worth, I do feel the same too from times to times. What's weird is that, I gradually become more afraid that I'll disturb my online friends rather than my real life friends, but that's probably because I have only known you guys for a couple of years while I have known my real friends for half of my life.
There's nothing rude/self-absorbed about this kind of thought, I think. I guess you can say that some of us are just more socially anxious than other people.

You are never irrelevant to me, fyi :)

[ltgmars]

Somehow it's so easy to feel anxious about friendship! Which is silly, because friends are supposed to like each other as a basis of that relationship, but I guess there's always the fear of losing something (someone) you care about. I just try to stay appreciative, but I'm always so worried I'm either too much or not enough. XD.

Thank you, and ditto. ♥

[clipsie]

It's insanely easy to feel off about friendship and I totally get that feeling and how crippling it can be, so it's not bizarre and idiotic at all. It's just one of those annoying emotions that like to get us down. Anyway, I totally understand and I shall give you hearts. /writing in a rush.

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[ltgmars]

As weird it is to say "I'm glad you understand" in a situation like this, I am glad you understand. XD. Thanks for being there through all my silly moods. ♥♥♥

[clipsie]

It's totally not weird at all. Besides, I'll always be here for your weird moods whenever you need me, and you hear about my weird moods, so, you know~ ♥♥♥

P.S. I'll be sending your birthday gift from last year soon. So late! D: There was something else I wanted to do for it, but I'll just make this year's extra special at this point.

[faded_lace]

Like everyone else said... I definitely feel this way too, even about my best and closest friends who have always been nothing but supportive to me. I think it's really easy to feel insignificant, especially with the attitude that you shouldn't be "self-absorbed" about it. I have this problem too, and feeling selfish when you're anxious or sad is the worst... but it's definitely not selfish... at least, I don't think so, and I'm sure none of your other friend do, either. You shouldn't ever have to feel guilty for being anxious. It doesn't mean you don't appreciate your friends or that you're taking them for granted. I totally understand the feeling and have it happen to me, too, but... your friends are all here for you and love you, and I hope you feel better? ♥

[ltgmars]

Thanks, dear. It's really, really easy to get wrapped up in bad feelings sometimes. Sometimes it's just so much easier to feel bad than it is to logic your way through what actually makes sense about friendship.

I've been thinking about you! We haven't chatted for a while, but I see you've been keeping up the fanning as usual. :3.

[faded_lace]

I know what you mean-- it's a lot easier to be unhappy than to make yourself happy, and it's the worst when logically you know you're not making sense but you still feel awful anyway. I really hope you start feeling better soon! Let me know if you want to chat or anything?

Aww! I miss chatting with you. I'm always afraid you're busy, or I'm bothering you. And since my time is basically backwards of yours I never want to be annoying... But yes, haha. I keep sinking lower and lower as to what I'm fanning, but...