Comments | ltlbitsof_truth: I think I figured it out..

ltlbitsof_truth

I think I figured it out..

Jun 13, 2004 23:12

After sitting in my room for 15 minutes crying in the pitch black while it stormed outside.. I think it did me some good. I don't feel like I belong.. anywhere. Literally. That's why I've been so depressed lately. Off and on. For a few weeks now. I've realized in so many places I don't feel like I'm.. I guess you could say wanted? Not necessarily ( Read more... )

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myperfect_dream June 14 2004, 23:49:43 UTC

these are the times when i hate it that my parents are divorced. this is where it fucks my life and ME up in every single way.

i can definitely relate to you there.

i hope you feel better soon..its just a
hard time..we all have them..cos were
growing up figuring out who we are and
who we want to be. you cant count on
everyone to be there. its not suppose to
work like that. you have to be indepedent
once in a while..and i think that this may
be that time for you. i really do hope you
feel better though. and i know were not each
others favorite people or whatever, but
if you need someone to relate to things im
sure i can, bc ive been thru just about any
thing anyone has..lol.

ltlbitsof_truth June 15 2004, 05:33:33 UTC

wow i didn't kno your parents were divorced. thanks a ton just for being there.. i'm sure sometime i'll take ya up on that =) i'm here for the same to you!

myperfect_dream June 15 2004, 18:00:53 UTC

yeeaa. it sucks. i rarely
see my dad & the only people
i know from his side of
the family is my grandma
so i definitely know where youre
coming from when you say you dont
feel like your needed. and yes you
should take me up on that sometime :)
we could get to understand eachother
a lot better and realize that we probly
do have a lot in common :).& thank you
for being here for me too !!
<3

xcapturemytears June 15 2004, 00:19:31 UTC

im so sorry. i feel like i ditched you in every way and that isnt even a good way to be a best friend ecspecially for me. i feel the worst about it and i wish i could take it all back just to spend time with you just so you could tell me how you feel so i could make you smile or laugh. im sorry things are going so bad for you and i want you to kno that i am always here for you. we may not seem to be the friends that we used to be when we talked every night on the phone but it doesnt change the way i feel about you. we still have everything we used to have but its opening up to a new beginning. i love you so much and im sorry that im not there. just inform me next time and i deffinately will be there. =) i love you so much and that will never change. i love you margaret ann shea. never friggin forget it ! love always, kristin renee yeager

ltlbitsof_truth June 15 2004, 05:35:44 UTC

ya don't worry about it that much.. it's not that big of a deal. thanks for still caring tho. i love you to death.. and nothing at all will change that. i'm sure i've done my share of "ditching" too.. so don't worry about it.. i was just having a bad day. i hope we can hang out at some point tho this summer if your not too cool for me you big highschooler you. lol love ya girlie.

xcapturemytears June 15 2004, 21:25:15 UTC

hahahahahhaha! whewwwwww whooooooooo ! im a big 9th grader now. lets have a party and get drunk. lol im kidding. but WE ARE hanging out. i dont care what you say ! whether i have to drag you out of the damn house just to go for a ride in the car. ill do it. and itd be funny. and youd laugh. DUH LOOK AT THIS FACE ! who wouldnt laugh? come on dude ! lol love you fucker =)

This is erica, i forget my username and password anonymous June 15 2004, 04:39:34 UTC

Margaret...you know where u belong....In my heart, always and forever. i hope you know even though we dont hang out as much n e more, my love for you hasnt changed one bit, i just feel left out of your life sometimes, it saddens me i mean u are one of the few people who has always been there when i needed to talk someone, and has made a big impact on my life...you literally have saved my life, i mean if it werent for you and Lauren C, i might not be alive. i live for the both of you, i dont live for my family, not even my dad (which is sad) or n e one else, its the both of you, at this moment in time im crying cuz i really know how lucky i am...even though sometimes i feel rejected...i dont wanna sound selfish but i feel all your free time is on ryan, im just speaking from the heart, its how i feel...one time...just once i'd like to be included in your life too, i havent even been to ur house in like a year!! and thats sad. i dont wanna add stress 2 you and i dont mean it to be offensively or n e thing, its just i miss you, and i ( ... )

Re: This is erica, i forget my username and password ltlbitsof_truth June 15 2004, 05:38:57 UTC

that is SO FLATTERING erica seriously. i love you to death.. you've been one of my longest best-friend-ships.. and through the whole time we've only gotten in ONE fight that lasted what.. like a day? maybe two? otherwise you've always been there for me no matter what. i appreciate that more than you'll ever kno. i'm sorry that i definitely don't give you enough of my time.. and ya most of it does go to ryan.. but it's not like i have that much to begin with ya kno. i really do want to hang out with you more.. aLOT more! your so understanding and i just wanna thank you for that. lover you foreverandever!