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[lucamoonstone]

I am troubled. I expect no one to understand where I am coming from, but please answer me this.

What would you do for your family?

I can't stop shaking, why can't I stop shaking... I think I may just need to see Madam Pomfrey, this is all too much...

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Owl to Luca

[dm_fugitive]

Easy, kid. What's wrong?

Re: Owl to Luca

[lucamoonstone]

It's becoming too much. It's like the walls are closing in on me. This was supposed to be easy. I wasn't supposed to let this happen and now it's out of my control.. They aren't listening to me, they want to do things that. I'm sorry, I cannot say. It is family I speak of. I will die for them before giving secrets.

It is our way, you see. Death boefore a hint of disloyalty...

I am weak compared to my brothers though, they would never suffer this weakness, this sickness.

I worry for Blaise. I so wanted to be his friend.

Luca

Re: Owl to Luca

[dm_fugitive]

Believe it or not, I've been there. Heck, I'm still there.

You're not weak. That sickness may just be your strength waking up.

Why are you worried for Blaise? Luca, there are some lines you should never cross, not even for family.

I know this sound harsh, but you may want to give up trying to be his friend. Not that it isn't a noble goal, but it's something that takes far more energy and dedication than you seem to be able to spare at the moment. Your energy is better spent on people ready to accept your friendship. Don't make him your enemy either, just let him be for a bit.

Peter

Re: Owl to Luca

[lucamoonstone]

I'm just afraid it may be too late. That I'm beyond a point of no return.

Why did I ever get close, Peter? It's against our ways to get close.

The more I think about it, the more the horrible sickness creeps over me. I should have never bridged the distance... I went too far and now I can;t go back, and they can tell...

Now I'll be tested... I'm scared of what they'll ask of me...

[wings_of_charm]

Whoa, slow down, Luca. What's wrong?
As for what would *I* do for MY family? Personally, though it may be going too far. I would kill for my family. The ones who I care about that is...

Also...Camomile Tea, kid. You need to chill or you won't be able to address whatever issue this is properly.

[lucamoonstone]

Thank you... you're kindness has helped me understand a few things.

I should have sought out another Romani to begin with. Some things are just known in the blood.

I jjust.. I need to be free. I need to travel, I need out. These walls are trapping me like a tomb, with all these people.

I still can;t stop shaking.. I can feel them watching me, judging my reactions.. Even when I dream...

[wings_of_charm]

Whoa, slow down sparky. You need to tell me what you're talking about before you get real advice from me.

[lucamoonstone]

You are Romani, you know how close the honor and loyalty is to us, you may be separated from the life, but again, some things are in the blood.

The blood remembers. It's all I needed to be told.

I see that the test is now, this stillness. I must find the journey in the moment. To lose myself to it again.

I'm still shaking, but I will calm. I just wish I had a say in my journey. But then again, who does?