award for the evening in the category of most concerned friend goes to.....*drum roll*

AARON MIGUEL

for reacting in 4 seconds (including reading,processing and typing time) when i told him i was hit by a car today.one of a kind friend.awesome!

so i guess just to sum up a few thoughts without having to explain everything, ive been feeling so free and contemplative lately.ive realized so many flaws about myself (yea, i know...finally!) and im seeing what i can do to either fix them or accept them.i now see the world from the opposite side than i usually saw it from.its a bit scary and ( Read more... )

im so sorry ive neglected you my dearest lj....ive been busy.anyhoot, nhi is finally over (kinda).all the stress has surely paid off.all the countless times where quitting seemed so inviting have no ceased and i realize why i do this damn program.its because of the kids (everyone says "aww").but seriously, this last batch (cookies) was my most ( Read more... )

oh my god...i really need to start updating more often.well, obviously im home now.but my trip to the valley was great.i miss all my friends.i'll never forget chonger fights with nick and aaron, getting porn at HEB, late night swims with amanda,gina flying out of the door during the race,intruding during sunday practice, all the food (i swear, they ( Read more... )

well hello there...updating from mcallen! hooray! ive seriously been having a lot of fun here.i know you all (aaron,maggie,nick,gina,amanda) are scared that i'll have a terribly boring time, but i really do love it.yesterday we went out to eat....kumori's(sp?) sushi,then maggies house for fun water squirt fight then a 20min sit down to see what to ( Read more... )

well hey, nothing interesting has happened lately.just been shopping and playing game cube.i really need to start reading my book for school and i need to start packing for mcallen....only about 3 more days till i see everyone! ahh, i miss them so so much and im actually gonna see them, its uberly exciting.hmm, amanda's bunny is cute, she hops ( Read more... )

well hello...only about 30 more minutes to go and my birthday is over.it was cool.im now 17 and the coolest thing i got was a gamecube.im such a lil boy.oh well, i need entertainment.thanks to all who wished me happy birhtday!today just consisted of movie (madagascar) and dinner (olive garden) with family and rach.hmm siser came into town and that ( Read more... )

hey, its me again.well.still so lost and confused about everything thats circulating in my brain.i want to say i know what i want now but i know that i need to use all the time necessary.please amanda, like i always say, be patient with me.i do love you, so much.my sister just made me realize that i was expecting myself to love you like i loved... ( Read more... )

can someone please make all this stop?this morning i asked myself "is it sunday or monday?"i hate sundays.but maybe today i really need it.after the confusion was over, i had to remind myself "shes not my girlfriend anymore".it is painful but i know its for the best.she tells me that she has to prepare herself for the worst of me telling her there ( Read more... )

theres not a whole lot i can say right now.im out of words and my heart feels numb.i wi..i didnt want this to happen.shes right though, it was something deep inside me that i had to do.i just dont want everything to die.another chance in the future?i dunno.let me get back to you on that when the future comes.i'll be your friend and i'll love you ( Read more... )