so i'm supposed to be writing my AP essay, but i figured i woudl take a break because its not so bad right now-i know where i'm going with it
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i'm worried about camp too. its going to be weird... i hope that she doesnt follow the rules, and not talk to us. that will be torture.
but you know what? we'll have each other to pickle with whenever the fuck we want to. and it'll only make a stronger. so, together, we'll get thru it. the worst and the best. don't you worry. you've always got me. even if u dont want me. i'll always be here.
how can i be scaring anybody? kat i feel like you've been absent in my life and that you know nothing which is horrible because it was so much better last year. call me.
i am totally anonymous
anonymous
October 31 2003, 22:22:49 UTC
firstly, it's weird.
secondly, don't sweat the small stuff (like an essay for AP).
thirdly, don't let yourself feel lonely and unwanted if you don't want to feel lonely and unwanted. potential friends lay all around you. get to know them!
Thea~ I really hope you go to camp and I know that that's kinda selfish but I really want you to have a good time even if it means that you cant be with her and I know thats a hard idea but you may just find that it wouldnt be awful. You dont want to wake up at 30 and realize that you couldve done your lit year and had the blast that you deserve. LIT year is amazing, I cant put it into words, but dont pass this chance up. I know it's hard and ironically enough, one of my best friends is in almost your exact situation, and it may suck, but you need to be with the people you love and Ashley and even Sarah, even if it feels like the most painful thing. I wish I could help, I wish I could. There's just nothing to be done. God, I really hate anonymous little fucks like that who try to play everything down when they dont even know you. Journals arent for people to tell you that your life isnt all that bad. Stupid people. Yay! Love for Thea! ttyl~Jess
thanks jess, i appreciate that. i'm not going to pass up LIT year...i just hope that i dont get uber depressed like i was last year. and i dont think it'll happen because i'll have you and i'll have ash to lean on a little bit. last year i had no one because i hardly knew anyone in 1st LC except becca...and it was hard then even though i had my best friend to help me. i think it was really difficult though because sarah was boiling mad at me, and i felt like the kind of pond scum that fish eat. i didnt want to do anything when she was mad...and i feel like i wasn't able to prove myself becuase i was really distracted. i'm really afraid that i wont get in either because the person who's class i aided was foreign [besides joni's rifelry class...i hope she thought i did well in that]...agh you see i just worry so much i going to shut up now, but thanks for getting me excited about camp. i do feel alot better! *thea
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but you know what? we'll have each other to pickle with whenever the fuck we want to. and it'll only make a stronger. so, together, we'll get thru it. the worst and the best. don't you worry. you've always got me. even if u dont want me. i'll always be here.
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so you are.
its going to be good, i just have to think positive, right?
bahahah, i love pickleing.
*thea
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kat i feel like you've been absent in my life and that you know nothing which is horrible because it was so much better last year.
call me.
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secondly, don't sweat the small stuff (like an essay for AP).
thirdly, don't let yourself feel lonely and unwanted if you don't want to feel lonely and unwanted. potential friends lay all around you. get to know them!
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God, I really hate anonymous little fucks like that who try to play everything down when they dont even know you. Journals arent for people to tell you that your life isnt all that bad. Stupid people.
Yay! Love for Thea! ttyl~Jess
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i think it was really difficult though because sarah was boiling mad at me, and i felt like the kind of pond scum that fish eat.
i didnt want to do anything when she was mad...and i feel like i wasn't able to prove myself becuase i was really distracted. i'm really afraid that i wont get in either because the person who's class i aided was foreign [besides joni's rifelry class...i hope she thought i did well in that]...agh you see i just worry so much i going to shut up now, but thanks for getting me excited about camp.
i do feel alot better!
*thea
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