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its funny how quickly we are forgotten or passed over. funny and a little sad. so i guess i think and feel, for while i laugh at others actions and behaviors, they can hurt me too. the tragedy, i believe, would be to cut ones self off from those feelings, simply because of what has happened in the past. to become a machine simply because it is ( Read more... )

well, looks like im headed down to sf tomorrow. what should have taken five minutes on the computer now turns into me driving down to student services, because they cant give that kind of info on the phone (a password i never set up to begin with). they really need to get their shit together. hopefully, i can find my way around. i was only there ( Read more... )

my car was the victim of yet another hit and run while i was parked at amber's house last night. the work of a rival crime syndicate, you say, or possible vigilante justice? no, i'm pretty sure it was just some asshole who didn't care enough to stop or leave a note. anyway, i'm just a little upset about the whole thing, as i JUST payed it off, and ( Read more... )

i made my last car payment EVER yesterday so as of now christina (aka porn star) is all mine. this means i get an extra $140 a month to spend on drugs and women food and um... stuff. though ive had some pretty low points in the last couple weeks all in all life has been good to me. ive connected with old friends i havent seen in a while, gone out ( Read more... )

today i was pulled apart at the seams. my stuffing showing, it was an awful sight. and then i let the impossible happen. i let go, i spilled my guts, and was sewn back together with very human hands, lips, and ears. for the first time in a long time, it felt really right. so its official, im taken. in more ways than one.

sometimes the best company is your own. sometimes the only intelligent thing to say is nothing at all.

i don't know what will happen either, but i do know this much. ive loved you ever since you let me see you cry. maybe for most that isnt enough, but it was for me. that and a chance, a hope, a dream.

im starting to see the bigger picture, at least i think i am, concerning myself, my feelings, and those of others. i feel like ive made a lot of progress in sorting things out lately with my own life, and who i want in it. i have a grip on things at the moment, loose as it may be, (for i cannot give those what they do not give me in return) at ( Read more... )

i feel like there is so much to say because so much has happened and yet i havent really felt like updating lately. the past week has been crazy. im not the kind of person that can sit around feeling sorry for myself even though at first thats all i really wanted to do. yesterday i went to a party a girl at my work was throwing. i was feeling kind ( Read more... )