An open letter because I am kind of tired of this crap
Dear people in general:
I am listening to you, I hear you, what you are saying registers in my brain, but then after that it can get jumbled up sometimes. It's kind of hurtful but mostly annoying when you yell at me for "not listening" when I am but whether or not I actually understand what I'm listening to is a matter out of my control.
It's not that I'm just bad at talking to people in general (just the other day I accidentally insulted you when I was trying to make a compliment wasn't me being passive aggressive or anything. Really! I just have speech fails all the time). Or that if it's something like directions or numbers it would really be in everyone's best interest to write it down since chances are it won't stick. In a noisy enough room, sometimes certain words blank out, other times words are just like any other sound and it takes me a minute to realize "oh yeah you are actually trying to communicate some message to me verbally" but most of the time if it's just that every sound mixed together and it's really hard to pick out what you are saying. Alternatively: I can't think if it's too noisy because that sound pretty much cuts through any train of thought I would be having. Oh sure some days I can function just fine with people talking in the background, but other times I have to debate turning fans on or off in this heat just because that really quiet sound of moving air is just enough to be a major distraction.
I really can get why people hate repeating themselves since I too can get really impatient when I feel like people are off in lala land when I'm trying to talk to them, but at the same time it's not cool to get pissy at me over something that really isn't my fault. Unlike the "you aren't listening" it really is more hurtful then anything else when you point out my latest speech slip up. Yeah, I do kind of realize I sound ridiculous the moment I shut my mouth and it really isn't something that needs to be pointed out. I do try to listen as hard as I can, I do try to be considerate, and hell, if I have to ask someone to repeat themselves and it still isn't working out eventually I'll just stop asking. So, some patience in return for my disability would be kind of nice.
Disgruntled, but still with love,
-Me
aaaaand now that that little gem has been written, I think I'm just going to go back to that writing based hobby of mine for awhile now that I have internet access for a bit. Well, after listening to some music first since I'm kind of in the mood for that but for the obvious above reason can't do both at the same time. I'm just happy that my day is actually pretty good except for the fact that these past few days have been so full of personal fails that I just keep worrying that I'm pissing people off 24/7
... Well, except when I get the point where I'm like "Screw it, even if I'm pissing them off they also have a responsibility over their feelings that I can't control and shouldn't care about nearly as much as I do" considering that when looking at the big picture the stuff I worry about annoying people over is really petty xD
I am listening to you, I hear you, what you are saying registers in my brain, but then after that it can get jumbled up sometimes. It's kind of hurtful but mostly annoying when you yell at me for "not listening" when I am but whether or not I actually understand what I'm listening to is a matter out of my control.
It's not that I'm just bad at talking to people in general (just the other day I accidentally insulted you when I was trying to make a compliment wasn't me being passive aggressive or anything. Really! I just have speech fails all the time). Or that if it's something like directions or numbers it would really be in everyone's best interest to write it down since chances are it won't stick. In a noisy enough room, sometimes certain words blank out, other times words are just like any other sound and it takes me a minute to realize "oh yeah you are actually trying to communicate some message to me verbally" but most of the time if it's just that every sound mixed together and it's really hard to pick out what you are saying. Alternatively: I can't think if it's too noisy because that sound pretty much cuts through any train of thought I would be having. Oh sure some days I can function just fine with people talking in the background, but other times I have to debate turning fans on or off in this heat just because that really quiet sound of moving air is just enough to be a major distraction.
I really can get why people hate repeating themselves since I too can get really impatient when I feel like people are off in lala land when I'm trying to talk to them, but at the same time it's not cool to get pissy at me over something that really isn't my fault. Unlike the "you aren't listening" it really is more hurtful then anything else when you point out my latest speech slip up. Yeah, I do kind of realize I sound ridiculous the moment I shut my mouth and it really isn't something that needs to be pointed out. I do try to listen as hard as I can, I do try to be considerate, and hell, if I have to ask someone to repeat themselves and it still isn't working out eventually I'll just stop asking. So, some patience in return for my disability would be kind of nice.
Disgruntled, but still with love,
-Me
aaaaand now that that little gem has been written, I think I'm just going to go back to that writing based hobby of mine for awhile now that I have internet access for a bit. Well, after listening to some music first since I'm kind of in the mood for that but for the obvious above reason can't do both at the same time. I'm just happy that my day is actually pretty good except for the fact that these past few days have been so full of personal fails that I just keep worrying that I'm pissing people off 24/7
... Well, except when I get the point where I'm like "Screw it, even if I'm pissing them off they also have a responsibility over their feelings that I can't control and shouldn't care about nearly as much as I do" considering that when looking at the big picture the stuff I worry about annoying people over is really petty xD