thanksgiving was amazing...so much love and togetherness...so many smiles...delicous food...so much fun...i can't wait to get to the new site...saw revenge of the sith for the first time...it fucking rocked...kind of left me yerning for more though...well i'm gonna see about safety...hehe...

happy turkey day...gobble gobble...prolly going to feed over 1000 people today at dinner...i look forward to the new spot...it shall be interesting...i think i may have a minor cold...i really am gonna quit smoking cigarettes for good like now...yea um good tidings...

peace and love...

i feel anonymus...

so i'm going with some fo the people here to start a kitchen in st.bernards parish...the 9th ward...i will be running hydration there...should be interesting and beautiful...we shall see...i still plan on being in ocala in feb...everyone should go...i haven't really thought much of jenni lately...till just now really...yea i think i still miss her ( Read more... )

so i helped to cook the last two dinners and fed around 7-800 people...it was awesome...so if anyone reads this what is going on in your lives?comment and tell me things...interesting things...this has been one of the greatest healing experiences of my life...truly the greatest things i've ever been a part of...

so the last three years i have tried tried tried to be something that i am simply not and it made me bad...i started caring about things i never really cared about and i lost family because of it...C and S i love you and i am so sorry circumstance changed me into something that i am sure you both never expected with me...i wish i oould take it back ( Read more... )

fuck me

i dream of blue skies and mushroom clouds and i see in black and white and i hate/love/hate myself and sometimes i think of my past how it is pointless and other times i think of my future how terrified of it all i am and i really wish i could stop smoking cigarettes and i really wish i was a better person and i feel like shit half the time i'm ( Read more... )

damn its been a while...well the whole thing with derek didn't work out...and now my relationship has fallen apart...fuck...i really don't know what i'm supposed to feel-think-do-want at this juncture...i've two years with jenny and nothing to show for it...i've 23 years on this planet and nothing to show for it...all that time that i've wasted ( Read more... )

yea so shit falls apart the center cannot hold without something to stand on or something like that...i wrecked my car like three days after losing my insurance because i'm an irresponsible little kid...but i am getting a car for free from the vocational manager at job corps and i just got my third job in as many months i now am employed by 7-11 ( Read more... )