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it's reversible.
that i'm using as the outside
what the inside color looks like
*gasp* what's that?
and finally my summerquest '04 packet came in the mail. god, i've been waiting for that FO-EV-ER. but i don't know if they are still doing that questionaire thing like "on a scale from 1-10..." this year or not. oh well, i'll just go make an ass of myself and sing "one" from chorus line again.
i redid my greatest journal info. if you want to see it in action, please, go ahead. but, if not here it is under and lj cut. it's loooong.
volcom_jtw: trying to explain you is like trying to explain why people have accents. they just do.
the girl; i'm one of those really weird people who loves talking about themselves. call it narcissistic or shallow but i am the most important person in the world. everyone should live by that principle. my name is tessa. my nickname is rex & kookamonga but my mom calls me slacker. whatever. my birthday is august 11th & i am 16 years old & drive a red '94 cutlass supreme.
i live in belleville, michigan. i know you've never heard of it (even if you're from michigan) but don't worry... neither has anyone else. belleville is a really small town with one high school & a meijer's. bellevillians have been inbreeded since, oh, forever & they produce some fucked up people. which is why i thank god my dad is from missouri. in belleville we get excited about the beer tent at the strawberry festival which is conveniently located behind st. anthony's church. in belleville we all live on farms & dirt roads. in belleville we get excited when they build new things, like a wal-mart. in belleville we all bitch about how much we hate belleville but in all actuality we love it with all of our hearts because it is our home. i live with my mom, dad & my sister when she's home from GVSU on a christmas tree farm. yes, during november & december my dad sells xmas trees that he grows on the 70+ acres of land we own.
i am 6 feet tall, have the darkest brown hair ever & gray/blue eyes all thanks to my dad. i love being tall; i'd never trade it for the world. i go to BHS with about 2 months of my junior year left. i have mixed feelings about high school. i don't hate it; i'm not one of those "sit-in-the-corner-and-write-in-my-notebook-about-cutting-myself-because-high-school-is-really-inferior" emo kids. but i don't love it. partially because i am lazy and partially because i hate waking up early. i play basketball & volleyball for my school & my (lucky) number is 3.
my future; my future career is acting. i plan on leaving michigan and moving to L.A. to become an actress. i will graduate in 2005, go to EMU for one year of college (like i promised my mom), & transfer to UCLA all the while taking acting classes and/or working with an acting coach of my own. i know there are a lot of uncertainties in life but if there is one thing i am 100% sure about is the fact that i will become a famous actress. believe me, i've read all the books & biographies, i've heard all the warnings about how hard, stressful & depressing it. I DON'T CARE, i am becoming an actress and that is that. period. i mean, how hard could it be when mischa barton landed a lead role on the o.c.?
i know i am an actress at heart because i make up mini-movies in my heads or scenes for movies or tv shows. i have a lot of prejudice against 16-19 year old actresses in major motion pictures (ie: kiera knightly, lindsay lohan, misha barton, the olsen twins). i tried to think of all the actresses i respected and in the process came up with a list of about 10 actors i respected and 2 actresses. they are megan mullally (for karen on will & grace) and jennifer garner. as far as actors go i enjoy: james stewart (it's a wonderful life, mr. smith goes to washington) morgan freeman, ewan mcgregor, and viggo mortensen.
i don't think anyone believes me but my mom is trying to cope with it and help me further my acting as of now. she asked me once, "if you could become a famous actress right now would you drop all your friends, quit basketball & volleyball, drop out of high school & leave your family & home behind... would you?" i told her, "mom i'd do all that just to move to L.A." i think she got the message. so, to further illustrate my point i'd like to end with this:
"my passion for acting is greater, more tangible, than any passion i've ever known in my 16 years on this earth. for as shallow and superficial as some perceive it, it's proved to be deeper, more real, and provides me with more fulfillment than anything. acting allows me to be everything and everyone i'm not. it takes away all of my "i can'ts," because even if i can't, i can believe i'm someone who can."
-- brittany dohar
music; the "genre" of music i listen to is rock. that's the broadest term i can think of without all of you assholes out there commenting & going, "so & so fucking suck. they are not blahblah!" to me music is not about politics & persuasion, it's about simply liking something. go ahead and add in all the depressing and angst-ridden subtext if you want. i don't waste my time on telling someone what they should or shouldn't like. my favorite bands are good charlotte, mest, fall out boy, brand new, & yellowcard. i like good charlotte. get over it. i play a peavey millennium 5-sting bass guitar named stewart. i got him for christmas and i am going to take lessons some time soon. i wish i was in a band. i'd name it "forever friday" because of the feeling of freedom & invincibility you get on fridays. and that is as emo as i get.
movies & television; those two are basically my life. i spend all my time day dreaming, making up scenes, re-acting scenes, & obsessing over tv & movies. i get so in to them -- which i guess ultimately explains the actor in me. my favorite movie EVER is lord of the rings. others are: the boondock saints, virgin suicides, star wars & pirates of the caribbean. television shows i obsessively watch are alias, angel, the o.c., and smallville. and hopefully someday you'll see me in a movie or tv show that you love.
personality; i like trying to figure myself out; like how i work & all the words to describe my personality. the best way i can sum myself up is cynical. contradictory to that sometimes i can be really optimistic but usually only when it comes to other people. i'd like to think i'm funny or witty. i'm quirky & have an awkward sense of humor that only like four other people get. i'm obsessive (read: orlando bloom & good charlotte) over a lot of things. i have a whole wall in my room dedicated to good charlotte & orlando bloom. i am slightly bitchy which goes mano-a-mano with being cynical. i don't like when someone is made fun of & i will never intentionally say something to hurt someone's feelings -- ever. i'm a hopeless romantic & wish i was in a relationship. i'd be the best girlfriend ever. you know it. i try to be as honest as i can with still being tactful. i like being social. i'm a summer person & i think i have SAD. i get really sad when it's cold and the sun is not out. winter sucks, summer owns. i'm a night person. it's weird because it takes me a long time to fall asleep at night but during the day i could fall asleep before my head hit the pillow. i'm just up & buzzing at 2 a.m. which is why school sucks harder than your mom sometimes. i am not emo. let me repeat: i am not emo. i hate the word emo & it can't die quick enough. i'm a stickler for spelling. other words that describe me: sweet, happy, compulsive, sensitive, caring, semi-confident, easygoing, outgoing, laid back, & a perfectionist. oh, & i'm awesome at life!
random favorites; my favorite person is my dad. my second favorite person is joshua warner aka my best friend & volcom_jtw. my third favorite person is christina solomon, my best friend & the "outside" to my "middle". my favorite color is blue. my favorite word is "mellifluous" or "amicable." my favorite foods are nachos, mashed potatoes, & hot dogs. my favorite drink is mountain dew. my favorite books are the fearless & gossip girl series. my favorite swear word is "fuck." my favorite fast food is taco bell. my favorite restaurant is steak & shake. my favorite celebrity is orlando bloom <333333. my favorite chapelle show quote it, "i'm rich, bitch!" my favorite shirts are all the ones i make myself. my favorite song is "east coast anthem" by good charlotte or "avondale" by yellowcard. my favorite website is the best page in the universe.
my "boyfriends"; every once and a while you will hear me mention "my boyfriend" any one of these people can be applied: orlando bloom (actually he's my husband), adam brody, ewan mcgregor, sean patrick flannery, benjamin mckenzie, joel madden, jon stevens from americal idol, vincent kartheiser, oliver james, and james marsters.
what i live by; "all i want is everything."
finally; i am a f'ing awesome kid. i own everyone at everything. there aren't enough words to describe how good i am. everyone wishes they were me. EVERYONE. if i weren't me, i'd wish i was. this journal is about me and why everything i like is great. if you disagree with anything you find on this journal, you are wrong.
SILLAY.
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i really really wish the place would call me so i could get stewart back. i really really wish that i could get the job at petland. i really really wish i could sign up for bass lessons. i did my ab work-out today while watching bring it on and i plan to do 20 minutes on my dads bike sometime later today. but since my mom has been gone in GA and my dad works until dusk i've been eating fast food for dinner and last night i hate a nacho bell grande from taco bell.
FOF.