So i was listening to music while on vacation in florida and i really got in touch with some feelings deep inside of me that i never knew existed. i started scribling a bunch of shit down, the lyrics i connnected with and soon i had about three pages filled up with what looked like chicken scratch. i decided to put it all together and make some ( Read more... )

so i decided to stay permanently single...at least for my first year or two in college. that means no boyfriend. quite a few of you have laughed at this idea but honestly this time im going to do it. i think the thing is everyone expects me to constantly have a boyfriend because i always have, but now i seriously dont want one. i think the reason i ( Read more... )

im really scared. everythings getting really scary. i try to sugarcoat it all and pretend that its all ok. even when i know its not i tell myself and everyone else it is. its not ok. this time i feel it in the pit of my stomach and everything is not ok. if i could go back in a second and change those few minutes i would. god i would. why cant ( Read more... )

seriously....if things get any worse....nevermind i dont think thats possible. wait yeah it is. thank you thomas for being there for me last thursday. i have never really gotten to that point before thank you. and to "you", the one that got really worried... probably because you worried i was upset about something else....yeah thats not off my ( Read more... )

so according to my last entry Brandon is the only one that reads this ( Read more... )

Please please take this. its not a typical quiz. i can actually see how well you truly know me. If you read my journal please take this quiz. and im surpirised how many of you do read this considering i stopped writing for so long and never informed anyone i started back up. anyway please take. you can copy it into your response section and just ( Read more... )

i heard this song on saturday and i really connected with it and felt it was something i needed to hear. maybe this is what people have been trying to tell me ( Read more... )

I have really been going through quite a few internal issues. Maybe this is the reason for my crabbiness. sorry to anyone who has been victim to my horrile bitchyness ( Read more... )

my birthday was so great! i cant disclose as to why on this public entry but gotta tell ya....amazing! thanks to all my friends who said happy bday...denny....and dave for calling me to say happy bday. you guys are all so sweet. the griesbaums brought by flowers and a very sweet card and gift certificate. funny how it was their son that i actually ( Read more... )

i got so harrassed for my "depressing" poems i decided to lighten the mood up a little bit ( Read more... )