i am in love. and it's not with Jay. it's with a wonderful man. at first i was too afraid to admit it was love. but now i am accepting that it is, and will take all that comes with it.

i'm going to see everclear tonight!!!
*doing happy dance*
i love you Art!!!!

well, i'm back y'all. i've been back since last wednesday, which meant that i have been out for about a week, and that i was in the hospital for a week exactly. i was ready to leave this time. the time before i still very very unstable. right now i don't feel high, but at least i don't feel low ( Read more... )

if you don't hear from me for a few days, and only if, read my tinker_belle journal, and it will explain it all. if you see a luckyblue entry tommorrow, then please don't go to tinker_belle.
those of you who already read my tinker_belle, then wish me luck.
love,
amanda

considering i haven't washed my hair since saturday and i've been all sweaty, it still smells like Herbal Essence!!!

oh man, i am floating high on a fucking cloud right now ( Read more... )

so i'm still going to therapy. it helps by just getting me out of the house, but i am still depressed ( Read more... )

eeeeee ghads ( Read more... )

so i've been going to out-patient. it's a six hour group thing that's in this building outside of the hospital that all the old patients go to for therapy. i recognized Ralph, who was deemed my uncle while in the hospital, Carol, who is my mamma, and Ernesto, who is my boy. Ralph is 41, Carol in her 50's, and Ernesto is 27. after group yesterday ( Read more... )

i was away for 11 days. where i was, well.....i'm not comfortable telling just yet how i got there. i'll get emotional, and that's not good for me right now ( Read more... )