Ficlet: Born to Lose

[luckybrans]

Title: Born to Lose
Fandom: Supernatural
Character/Pairing: Mary Campbell; Mary/John
Rating: All
Word Count: 933
Summary: "Ask Mary why she does it and she'll never say. Instead, she'll remember."
Note: Written for tokenblkgirl

Comments

[tokenblkgirl]

Okay, first I want to apologize for my late response to this, I haven't been on lj much the past few days and I neglected to go back far enough on my flist to see you wrote me this WONDERFUL KICKASS MARY FIC!

*hugs you tight*

Seriously, it breaks my heart that I didn't see this sooner, because I was just complaining about the dearth of kick ass female hunter fic there was, sans the boys. And this just tore me to shreads, I love how practical your Mary is. How she so guarded and cynical at such a young age, and John just walks in and chips away at her a little bit at a time. Until he dies. And yes, this is when she realizes she can't live without him.

*sighs*

Please, don't apologize for this, like I said, it's not only wonderful but needed. I needed this to live I think. :)

Thank you so much for writing this for me. I promise not to neglect my flist so long again, your story has chastened me thoroughly for that.

[luckybrans]

Thanks you! I'm glad you like it. Funny enough, I missed a posting of a drabble someone wrote for me. I didn't see it until four days after it was posted so I understand :).

I see Mary as being like Dean. She's all these emotions boiling underneath the surface, but she refuses to talk about them with anyone. She doesn't want t seem weak. John allows her to be vulnerable in a way she can handle.

Again, I'm so glad you liked it :)

[rebeldesigns]

Oh. Oh my. So poignant and aching, yet wonderfully accurate and powerful. I love Mary, and I hate how the SN writers haven't really explored her to her full potential. I'm so glad that there are fics like this out there, and you have done a wonderful job at portraying Mary's yearning to be normal, the harshness of the life she lived. She's a lot like Sam, very cautious and critical of the world around her.

Lovelovelove this. Thanks for sharing!

[luckybrans]

Thanks! I do wish the SPN writers would also explore Mary's character. It's interesting to me that everyone knows the boys through John, but nobody mentions the Campbells or Mary. The other hunters must have at least talked about a pretty young woman like her being one of them.

I never thought of her being much like Sam before, but it's true, she does want the normal life that Sam does. Now I'm thinking of her as a perfect mix of Dean and Sam, wanting to be normal but hating to show any weakness.

Thanks again for commenting and reading :)

[blackmamba_esq]

I loved this. I'm so glad you chose to write about Mary, because the Mary/John marriage has always fascinated me. You did it so much justice here. I love how you describe Mary's dilemma because it's so realistic, despite the context of her being a hunter. Very relatable for any child that doesn't want to disappoint their father or any daughter really, because a son might have had a different fate. The reason she loved John was perfect. I can see her clinging to something that makes her feel normal. And the moment she realizes she loves him is when she could lose him. Really great stuff.

Loved it :)

[luckybrans]

Thanks, Black!

I really want to know more about Mary and John's marriage. There was a fic I read a long time ago about Mary loving metal and walking aroun in Metallic t-shirts and that's the Mary I'd love to see onscreen, but I think the writers would give us a generic suburban mom, even after what we know about her. I think John must have always felt like there was something Mary wasn't telling him and that must have killed him.

You're right that it would have been different if Mary wasn't female. She would've yelled and fought and maybe even walked out like Sam. Mary seemed like a daddy's girl and couldn't have done that.

Thanks again!