im only attacked at night by these irrational, rediculous thoughts at night
with the darkness twirling around me in fancy
i know what i can and cant have
i know what i want
i know what i have worked for
what i love
and i know what i need
but sometimes...
i just lose faith

will you sleep tonight
will you think of me?

i feel so fucking alone
so sick inside it hurts to breathe
to think
no matter what i have
will i always feel this way?

im supposed to be having a good time but
instead
i cant help myself but to reach for that glittering edge

my head hurts. i need to lay down.

hoorah im leaving my stupid fucking highschool
ironwood ridge high school: FUCK YOU

:)

you know. its like i expected to look into his eyes and for him to be some sort of monster.
but hes still just the same old derek
what scares me is im not sure if thats what i want

i just need to forget
thank god for you

you never realize how much you love someone until theyre gone

im sorry