I still don't know if I am in or not. I think if I get in, I will have to decline.
I VERY passionate about the health sciences, although, upon lots on reflection, this seems to be more of an academic interest.
I hate hospitals. I hate blood and guts. I don't like to be around sickness. I thought those things would somehow grow on me in time, but the further I progress, the more anxiety and depression I feel about being a doctor.
It's weird... having a big goal... and not having a lot of time for introspection... and not wanting to really listen to my heart...
Maybe one day I will want this again, but right now, I just don't think it's a good fit for my personality.
Instead, when I think about research, I feel happy. I won't have to give up WHO I AM and what I like to do....
I'm happy for you, it is nice to feel at home in what you are doing.
I feel ya on the goal issue... Is a goal you set 3 years ago still a goal you want to you want to see to fruition? Is shifting focuses a cop out or the product of a very real change in personal direction? This is tough to know, but when it comes to you it is unavoidable.
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I still don't know if I am in or not. I think if I get in, I will have to decline.
I VERY passionate about the health sciences, although, upon lots on reflection, this seems to be more of an academic interest.
I hate hospitals. I hate blood and guts. I don't like to be around sickness. I thought those things would somehow grow on me in time, but the further I progress, the more anxiety and depression I feel about being a doctor.
It's weird... having a big goal... and not having a lot of time for introspection... and not wanting to really listen to my heart...
Maybe one day I will want this again, but right now, I just don't think it's a good fit for my personality.
Instead, when I think about research, I feel happy. I won't have to give up WHO I AM and what I like to do....
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I feel ya on the goal issue... Is a goal you set 3 years ago still a goal you want to you want to see to fruition? Is shifting focuses a cop out or the product of a very real change in personal direction? This is tough to know, but when it comes to you it is unavoidable.
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As a PhD student, I am always recommending the Grad School route.
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