Some truth...

[lucyinthesky___]

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[enflmdphnx]

Reading this makes me want to cry so much. I would seriously love to have a one-on-one chat with you about all this.

I don't know if you remember but I have social anxiety and panic attacks too. A lot of the things you said made me tear and hurt inside because I can relate so much and it's nice to know at least someone knows what it's like.

I haven't been to school in 4 months, I'm on Zoloft which isn't doing anything, I go to therapy every week and am going to a psychiatrist in a few days.

I just want you to know that I know exactly how you feel. I know what you mean about going out at certain times, I do the same thing. I do the same thing with restaurants, going in the mall to shop, going out with friends, I always have to bring someone with me because I can't be alone, I can't be in crowds, I have agoraphobia also.

I just know how you feel. And I have faith that both of us will be able to get through this.

[lucyinthesky___]

I just started to cry just reading your response, it's so touching...and wonderful to feel that someone truly understands

[enflmdphnx]

It really is great to know that at least someone out there is like you. I don't know anyone that has these issues and no one can understand except someone who is going through it. My mom and dad think I'm self-conscious, I have some ridiculous phobia, that it's all bullshit... it's so hard to try to get someone to understand. I always tell people "When you're afraid to leave the house, then you can judge me

[lucyinthesky___]

Exactly. My dad just doesn't get it either, he's always saying, "Amelia, why don't you go out and get a job?" and I'm like, "Hello!!! I can hardly leave the house, how do you expect me to start working??? Why hasn't this sunk in yet, I've lived with you since I was 9 and this has been happening since I was 18....is it THAT hard to comprehend!?"

I do the same thing when I go out!! I make sure I know the fastest way to get out of there, and if I go to the mall (which is rarely) I call and find out ahead of time the closest department store to the store I want to shop at (I hate going in through the food court) so that I can exit quickly if I need to.

I'm going to ask my dad about downloading the CDs onto my comp (he's better at that stuff than I am) so that I can email them to you, they're really great and soothing.

::Love and Hugs:: ♥Amelia

[amanda_alex_98]

aww sweetie! I'm glad yo utold us all this, and I would never judge you about it! I would only talk to you, and try to make you feel better.

I love your attitude towards life even though you've struggled. That is amazing to me!

And hearing that your faith in God is one way to keep you going, girl I hear you! God is amazing, and he will take care of you. He loves you!

I hope you begin to feel better now that you've freely expressed yourself

*hugs*

[xxjro1986xx]

hmm, I have to admit that I was suprised to the extent that these things are impacting your life. It's good to see someone with faith (I sure, don't have any). Faith in YOURSELF, however will not only help you get therough the night, but also this life. The thing to remember is that the medication that you are one, espcially for Social Anxiety and Panic attacks only trigger the chemicals in the brain which allow you to do things, which I believe is good short term, but Long term, drugs do only one thing well.. patch up the problem... It's like putting a band-aid over a bullet wound.. the bullet is still in there

[xxjro1986xx]

way to skip over meeeee..::sigh:: lol just kidding, I hope you feel better though, keep your head up

[lucyinthesky___]

LOL that's funny b/c I had the window to respond to your comment open and before I clicked "submit" I thought, "Well let me go heat up some soup first"....I'd never skip over you!! ♥Amelia

[ladyrhiannon873]

I am sorry that this happened to you.Even though I have ADD,I always make sure to park where there is a light and try to leave with a group of people instead of by myself.My brother in law told me he would get me pepperspray to put on my keychain.I also learned in high school that you can use your carkey as a weapon to scratch their face or poke out an eye.
I also have taken anti-anxiety drugs before and they either made me sick to my stomach or gain a lot of weight.

[lucyinthesky___]

Thank you girl! I learned the whole thing about putting the keys between your fingers, but I haven't gotten pepper spray yet, my dad thinks I'm going to spray someone for no reason lol (I wouldn't do that).

I was on Depakote and Risperdal which made me gain weight not too long ago, I understand. I took myself off of it and got my Dr to put me on something else ♥Amelia

[_bloody_rainbow]

Wow.
Im glad you wrote this entry for 2 reaons.
1)To get everything off your chest
2)Because I learned more about you.

I have panic attacks too & suffer from depression. & Sometimes i think im bipolor or maybe even scitzophrenic. So I understand TOTALLY.
Esp about the going into public thing, I hate it too. I get scared otta my wits to the point where I make myself sick. Its crazy. I've gotten better about it, and I used to have to take some motionsickness pills cuz they make you loopy and all calm. So I totally understand where your coming from on that one. It sucks major ass.
*Hugs* I love you and im glad you opened up to us.
♥

[lucyinthesky___]

Awww thank you Michelle, I've learned more about you now and it's EXTREMELY comforting knowing that you know what I'm talking about. I took motion sickness pills too, I'd get myself worked up to the point where I was going to throw up. It def. sucks a fat one! haha *HUGS* I love you too, and again thank you =) ♥Amelia

[kissinglennon]

i think your wonderful
fellow beatles lovahhh

[lucyinthesky___]

I think you're wonderful too Brie, my fellow Lennon Lovahhhhhh XD ♥Amelia