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I've been up way longer than I should have, but I'm in a talkative mood, so let's see what I can spill.
I've recently developed a very late fascination with Dawson's Creek. I never watched it the first time around. Even the overly hyped episode with Jack's kiss, never saw it. I did, however, download that episode back in the days of Bessie, just haven't thought to dig it out to watch it since the fascination started. :)
I won't beat around the bush, if you're familiar with the show, you can already guess who my fascination is with. Yes, yes, it's Jack (Kerr Smith - who is also now playing a role on Charmed!). Last episode he went on a "dat" with uhh, Joey? He likes lightning, watches the weather channel, and is just really cool. We have 2 of the 3 in common! Alas, if only he wasn't a character on a t.v. show.
Aside from the very ideal world of the show, things are interesting on the real world side of things, I guess. It's Thanksgiving week...we all know what that means. Well, what it would have meant had things gone the way I'd planned. But we *do* all know that things never go the way I plan. Heather has already dropped her holiday surprise on the grandmother and one of the great grandmothers.
Sometime last week her and mom teamed up and went to each of them and delivered the news. Of course, they don't tell me anything, but I overhear here and there. So far I've heard that my grandma responded with, "So I guess I lose a grandaughter over this?" and mom says, "This is a test from God...". The great grandma I'm not so sure about. Let's all have a big cheer for the holidays!
On the upside, if there is one, there shouldn't be any fingers pointed at me. Unless of course the line of family starts with the, "So when do we get a great grandson/great great grandson/cousin/etc". Someone please remind me what good I have going for me in the holiday season? Besides of course lots of free time to bury myself in work?
Danelle came and rescued me from fall cleaning with the family on Saturday. I've never been more glad for a hot shower in my life after cleaning that crap. First up was a trip to Wal-Mart for necessities -- makeup, barbie dolls, and gum. Next up was a trip to the mall where we saw Doc! He's selling home-made candles and preserves and all kinds of good stuff in a little stand in the mall. A very interesting conversation on what we should refer to him these days followed. Is he still Doc? That was the nickname we used because he was a teacher with a decent degree. We've graduated, been gone a while, and he's retired. Doc still fit? Would it be bad to call him Mike? Dr. Raleigh? It all ended rather simply, though. Anything but "Doc" is just weird.
Quick run through the Dollar store for more necessities -- dogfood, candy, and stationary. At last, we're off to the movies with our sneeked in candy! Huzzah! We saw Princess Diaries 2. It's a good movie. I of course fell for "he-who-is-Mr. Wrong-but-is-really-Mr. Right". Danell hade seen it but wouldn't spoil it for me. Talk about a roller coaster of a movie! All ended well, though, except that they didn't get married. :( Leaves hope for a part 3!
After the movie was a trip around town waiting for Danelle's sister to get home. We ended up at the track to walk a while, which was cool. Danelle has again pledged to start walking with me, through the winter break (Umm, brr?). It was good to be up there again...I think. I kinda cracked my head rather hard on the new drum major stand, so the night is a bit fuzzy.
Hmm, where does that bring me? Well, I guess to the bit of news I've been hiding for a week or two now. =/ I may not be here in the spring anymore. Some of the higher ups from CableOne took dad out to lunch the other day. They asked if he'd be interested in a job in Phoenix at their main site. Well, yes, he's interested. Too early to talk possible money and such, but he's a strong candidate for the job. We won't know for certain until sometime after the first of the year. The move date is tentatively around April, though we're going to try and shoot for May so MaKayla can finish 4th grade here.
Now, I've been presented with a unique opportunity here. I can go with them, live in the capitol city of a state, potentially have the pleasure of having a gay community at my disposal, possibly getting a job with the internet crew of CableOne or any number of other tech jobs that are bound to be in abundance in a large city.... or I can stay here, scrounge up some job on the opposite end of the tech spectrum, pay off the $3000+ debt the parents have run up on taxes here, keep the house for my own, scrounge up for some kind of a car, find a housemate to help split costs with, and have a place for "the gang" to still gather when they come into town.
I can put a nail into the coffin that is me walking away from the band forever. I can walk away from the family and the "problems" that may arise. I can walk away from Sean and everyone else I care about here. I could significantly raise my chances of becoming a bit more social. I could move further away from the city that I had really intended to go for at some point -- St. Louis. I could move closer to California, mmmmm, nice.
As unique as the opportunity is, it really blows. I can't make those kinds of choices. I can't choose between friends, family (here and there!), and the escape from Texas I've been looking for.
So, now that the secret is finally out of the bag, don't tell anyone, eh? The rest of the family doesn't know, and the parents don't want them to know. Technically, you shouldn't know, but I've spent more than enough time keeping secrets in my life. In the grand scheme of things, this isn't that big of a deal. Not to mention the fact that I'm really going to need friendly support in the coming months to help me make this decision. =/
Good luck if you made it through that, and thanks.
edit: Oh! My Amazon order has shipped already. It's on the way!
I've recently developed a very late fascination with Dawson's Creek. I never watched it the first time around. Even the overly hyped episode with Jack's kiss, never saw it. I did, however, download that episode back in the days of Bessie, just haven't thought to dig it out to watch it since the fascination started. :)
I won't beat around the bush, if you're familiar with the show, you can already guess who my fascination is with. Yes, yes, it's Jack (Kerr Smith - who is also now playing a role on Charmed!). Last episode he went on a "dat" with uhh, Joey? He likes lightning, watches the weather channel, and is just really cool. We have 2 of the 3 in common! Alas, if only he wasn't a character on a t.v. show.
Aside from the very ideal world of the show, things are interesting on the real world side of things, I guess. It's Thanksgiving week...we all know what that means. Well, what it would have meant had things gone the way I'd planned. But we *do* all know that things never go the way I plan. Heather has already dropped her holiday surprise on the grandmother and one of the great grandmothers.
Sometime last week her and mom teamed up and went to each of them and delivered the news. Of course, they don't tell me anything, but I overhear here and there. So far I've heard that my grandma responded with, "So I guess I lose a grandaughter over this?" and mom says, "This is a test from God...". The great grandma I'm not so sure about. Let's all have a big cheer for the holidays!
On the upside, if there is one, there shouldn't be any fingers pointed at me. Unless of course the line of family starts with the, "So when do we get a great grandson/great great grandson/cousin/etc". Someone please remind me what good I have going for me in the holiday season? Besides of course lots of free time to bury myself in work?
Danelle came and rescued me from fall cleaning with the family on Saturday. I've never been more glad for a hot shower in my life after cleaning that crap. First up was a trip to Wal-Mart for necessities -- makeup, barbie dolls, and gum. Next up was a trip to the mall where we saw Doc! He's selling home-made candles and preserves and all kinds of good stuff in a little stand in the mall. A very interesting conversation on what we should refer to him these days followed. Is he still Doc? That was the nickname we used because he was a teacher with a decent degree. We've graduated, been gone a while, and he's retired. Doc still fit? Would it be bad to call him Mike? Dr. Raleigh? It all ended rather simply, though. Anything but "Doc" is just weird.
Quick run through the Dollar store for more necessities -- dogfood, candy, and stationary. At last, we're off to the movies with our sneeked in candy! Huzzah! We saw Princess Diaries 2. It's a good movie. I of course fell for "he-who-is-Mr. Wrong-but-is-really-Mr. Right". Danell hade seen it but wouldn't spoil it for me. Talk about a roller coaster of a movie! All ended well, though, except that they didn't get married. :( Leaves hope for a part 3!
After the movie was a trip around town waiting for Danelle's sister to get home. We ended up at the track to walk a while, which was cool. Danelle has again pledged to start walking with me, through the winter break (Umm, brr?). It was good to be up there again...I think. I kinda cracked my head rather hard on the new drum major stand, so the night is a bit fuzzy.
Hmm, where does that bring me? Well, I guess to the bit of news I've been hiding for a week or two now. =/ I may not be here in the spring anymore. Some of the higher ups from CableOne took dad out to lunch the other day. They asked if he'd be interested in a job in Phoenix at their main site. Well, yes, he's interested. Too early to talk possible money and such, but he's a strong candidate for the job. We won't know for certain until sometime after the first of the year. The move date is tentatively around April, though we're going to try and shoot for May so MaKayla can finish 4th grade here.
Now, I've been presented with a unique opportunity here. I can go with them, live in the capitol city of a state, potentially have the pleasure of having a gay community at my disposal, possibly getting a job with the internet crew of CableOne or any number of other tech jobs that are bound to be in abundance in a large city.... or I can stay here, scrounge up some job on the opposite end of the tech spectrum, pay off the $3000+ debt the parents have run up on taxes here, keep the house for my own, scrounge up for some kind of a car, find a housemate to help split costs with, and have a place for "the gang" to still gather when they come into town.
I can put a nail into the coffin that is me walking away from the band forever. I can walk away from the family and the "problems" that may arise. I can walk away from Sean and everyone else I care about here. I could significantly raise my chances of becoming a bit more social. I could move further away from the city that I had really intended to go for at some point -- St. Louis. I could move closer to California, mmmmm, nice.
As unique as the opportunity is, it really blows. I can't make those kinds of choices. I can't choose between friends, family (here and there!), and the escape from Texas I've been looking for.
So, now that the secret is finally out of the bag, don't tell anyone, eh? The rest of the family doesn't know, and the parents don't want them to know. Technically, you shouldn't know, but I've spent more than enough time keeping secrets in my life. In the grand scheme of things, this isn't that big of a deal. Not to mention the fact that I'm really going to need friendly support in the coming months to help me make this decision. =/
Good luck if you made it through that, and thanks.
edit: Oh! My Amazon order has shipped already. It's on the way!