tired

[lukeboi]

So fucking tired today. I don't understand, I got 8 hours, and woke up not too late at 10:15. I took my vitamins, ate a substantial breakfast and lunch and have drank 2 cups of strong coffee but I can't shake this fatigue. I fell asleep a few times in class just now. I'd nap, but I have to go to work as soon as I get back to campus. Guess I'll

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[aspinelesslaugh]

"I guess you just learn it and eventually stop freaking out about whether or not you 'qualify' or if you're gonna say the wrong thing and get 'busted'."

I've been on T for almost 5 months now, and I'm passing pretty consistently but I can't shake that feeling that I'm going to get busted if I say the wrong thing. I'm always worried that I'll say or do something that'll reek of female socialization and all of a sudden all the guys who've been calling me 'buddy' and 'bro' will turn around and start treating me like a freak. I know, intellectually, that this is just my paranoia and that there are a million ways to be a boy...but I just can't stop worrying about it. Arg. I think facial hair and chest surgery are the only things that are going to make me feel safer in that regard.