Well today i got the urge to get my ears pierced again and they are hurting LOL! I am in so muc pain my feet hurt from the foot doctor and my ears sting too. but I am doing ok, but I hate the way I feel inside, alone and want to not be alone. I hate how I feel. But only time can heal my hurt on the inside of me. I picked up Revenge of the sith ( Read more... )

I have found a new interest in my life, but I still doubt that even I can patch my life with this female. I laugh and make myself happy cause I feel like a new person, someone new to talk too. Some one new to get to know, I hate the fact that if I get to attached then I will drive her away. I want so much attention and yet get so little back in ( Read more... )

I have come to understand that I cant have alot of things in my life. Knowing what to look for in my life is hard sometimes. I have so many mixed feelings that its hard to know what to do. I guess I still looking for a reason to live and I know that there are certain people and things in my life which will never be. I have told myslf time and time ( Read more... )

I am dieing inside to think that I know how my life will turn out. I am in a dream trying to wake up from it. But every day is the same. I wake up hoping that maybe things will be better in my life. However I keep on dreaming cause I know that this is how it will forever be. I am trying to understand why the way things are right now. Not a day goes ( Read more... )

I hate you!I hate you!I hate you!I hate you!I hate you!I hate you!

I think that everyone has their issues and fears that they don't like to admit. But it's untill you step out of the box do you know how you or someone else really feels. I think the fact of the matter is that I am scared of defeat just like anyone else. I know that I have a hard time understanding why my life is so shitty and why no one gives half ( Read more... )

You know whats funny when you want someone to be your friend and then they do the opposite. Moving on is the best thing in the world, I am glad that I can move on and not have to worry about other peoples feelings. Maybe life is meant to be alone not knowing where life will take you. There are other people for me to get to know out here in this ( Read more... )

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I have been reading this book called Who Moved My Cheese? and it talks about dealing with change in your work and in your life. I have come to understand that I have moved on, I only needed to understand that the cheese is no longer here and I need to find out where it has gone too. It talkes about how two mice and two people living in a maze and ( Read more... )

I hate how I feel. alone and lost as always this is what I am meant to be. hurt and dieing on the inside. all I want is to give up. but cant cause I am stubborn. I know that as time goes on life will get better but for now I am alone. I hurt myself and her and know that this is how things will always be. I need to be left alone and not speak about ( Read more... )