Inward/Outward

[lula_neith]

What have I been up to? Doing a lot of journaling. Each and every morning. I reach for a pen when I wake up. I'm wanting to be more intentional about the content. That will come. I'm just glad I'm at least getting things out of my brain and onto paper

Comments

[fitzbeew]

hey Lula! I'm glad it sounds like you are doing well. Good for you for volunteering and keeping busy! Just make sure you take care of yourself, whatever you do. :)

Dude, it sounds like the counselors you have had were SUPER lame!!! Good gravy. I have seen Jacqui Lichtenstein at Direction Services counseling over near the Hult Center, since I was like 12, and I love her. She LISTENS a lot. I really hope that things work out for you regarding counseling.

*hugs!*

[lula_neith]

{{hugs}} Good to hear from you! And I'm glad to be doing the volunteering. It is important to try to reach a balance. Like you said: I'm looking to take care of myself, too.

Yeah, the previous counselors were very nice ladies. They were not, however, the best counselors for me. I'm really glad you found someone early on who you work well with! :)

[parlance]

Glad to see you posting! I'm so proud of you doing the Big Sister mentoring.

If this one doesn't work out, you might want to find a therapist who specializes in narrative therapy, to ensure you get space to talk.

[lula_neith]

Narrative therapy? Interesting. I definitely do need to be certain I have the space to talk and that someone is listening. I =need= to feel I'm heard or I lose confidence in my physical voice and I don't see any reason to bother and default to listening to their stuff. Which is silly: why pay =them= for the pleasure of MY listening? =/ I'm hoping the next session is telling to that end.

[lula_neith]

Aww. I miss you here, too. But I know what you mean about having a more... appropriate place for to work through that other stuff. Love you! <3 And you take care, too.

[lula_neith]

"Seriously, if you end up helping and encouraging them you should live a bill at the desk on checkout."

Ha, ha! I so should send a bill if this happens. They've all been kind. But, yeah, not very good therapists for someone like me. It may indeed be that she was just trying to relax me during the first visit. I'm hoping that's the case. We'll see this coming week.

As to wanting the morning pages to be more than 'blah, blah, blah', you may be right. It may be good to have a space to get that 'blah, blah, blah' out. And move on to the rest of the day.

[lula_neith]

See, and I was here thinking you =always= had a life. ;) I'll wait for the seeds to grow. Ha, ha! And like you, I'll probably be called away by some far flung opportunity as soon as they come to fruition. Such is life.

As to the mentoring: kids have a LOT on their plates today and are given so few tools to deal with it. I'm just glad to be there for her and NOT be yet another stressor in her life; too young for this, too old for that. Being expected to know some things. Being expected to =pretend= not to know some things. Teens can have it rough.

Why did I not think of online videos for cooking?! Sheesh. Well. Aren't I smart? Not. You see how distracted I've been? I been online and not even thinking of it as a resource for kitchen stuff.

Oh, yes, girl. Squirrels. Don't sleep on them. They teach me a lot. Ha, ha!