master zhuāng and the butterfly

[lula_vampiro]

We all know that story about Zhuāngzǐ's dream of being a butterfly, and his waking up and not knowing whether he was a man who dreamt of being a butterfly or a butterfly dreaming he was a man. I think mental illness feels a lot like that sometimes. During the periods in my life when I have been comparatively stable, the times when I've felt

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[lucys_sister]

Hang in there Lula, you are loved. :)

[lula_vampiro]

thank you, darling <3

[miraling]

I don't know how much it helps, but any distance on my part is the result of a) school and b) my own soul-sucking moods. I read one of your posts while in the grip of one this past weekend and it made a lot more sense to me than such posts normally do, emotionally.