Tonight, right now, Ive gained dignity. I finished reading a really good book and the words spilled from page to page hitting so close to home that I had a realization ( Read more... )

"You need to relax, and take everything in stride... everything else will just fall into place."
-mom.

the weather is so amazing. i love it.

i wish other things were going as good as the weather.

im coming home this weekend.
my brain feels like its going to explode and my heart is already gone.

i need to get away. for real

Shes gone. Her smell and her crustiness but I miss it already. All that's left of her is the darkened spot of wood where her princess bed used to lie, massive amounts of her food mom has cooked for her, her dishes in the corner, and her treats in the pantry ((and as I was interupted by a phone call i looked down to see that her dishes are no longer ( Read more... )

I dont know why I continually allow myself to get hurt. To get involved with people who only make me their option when Im stuck making them my priority. You'd think that I would learn my lesson. Fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me- type shit.. but no. I keep going back for more to every guy- each person different and doing different ( Read more... )

Something that I have recently been wondering about is this ( Read more... )

i have no more passion
i dont like things i used to
im frustrated and annoyed all the time
a smile is the hardest thing to produce
i have no motivation and drive to do anything
i am tired and all i want to do is sleep

i dont know whats wrong.

heres another thing i dont like.

when somebody thinks that theyre the shit.

im going to flip out.

You know what I dont like? When people arent straightforward with me. I want to know what youre feeling... so tell me. If I didnt want to know I wouldnt ask.
I just wish that I could read your mind. It would make me feel soooooooo much better. Just for my sanity.

blah.

**this has nothing to do with recent incidents.. so no assumptions to be made ( Read more... )

So tomorrow I'm making the treck home until Monday ( Read more... )