HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka : CHAPTER 14 PART 1

[luna_no_koibito]

Title: HOUSE OF SIN - The Diary of Uke Yutaka
Chapters: 14.1/??
Author: luna_no_koibito
Genre: Human drama, romance, war, angst.
Warnings:  men/men relationship, cursing, sex, violence, incest.
Rating: from PG -15 to NC-17 (Depending on chapter)
Pairing: Revealing this might spoil the story just yet ... suggest looking at the character list (^_^)!
Bands: the GazettE, Dir En Grey, X-Japan, Nightmare, An Cafe', Alice Nine, Kra, SuG.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, and don't wish I did because I'd be sorry for what could befall them （・＿・；）！
Summary:
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CHAPTER 13 PART 2

It was somewhat bizarre and quite unnerving to suddenly feel consciously and completely out of place.

His armchair for example, which had been one of his greatest source distress in the past week since he'd returned home, felt not a single bit comfortable anymore, a chair he'd had for as long as he could remember. It also couldn't have been tampered with, of that he was quite sure, for he never had to threaten anyone as to not sit on it, or touch it in all, but it was as if there had been a silent agreement stipulating that nobody should have, and nobody indeed ever had. For that had and always would have been the “child prodigy's armchair”, which for the seventh day in a row, try as he might to maybe sit straighter, a little bit to the side, or in the dead-center of it, Takanori just couldn't find himself at peace in it anymore. Instead, he'd find himself feeling more comfortable on his feet, arching over his desk if he had to write something, or just walking about the studio, with the book of interest in his arms, if he simply needed to ready or study.

However, a mere armchair wasn't a sufficient reason to cause such a asphyxiating feeling of not belonging, in particularly when he had always forced himself to believe that he didn't belong in this family he always thought he so incidentally happened to have been born, and because of such an unmistakeably childish behavior, in the way he was slowly starting to see everything at the moment, he himself, had probably been the worst one out of all of them, perhaps even worse that Takeru. Because, truth be told, thanks to Akira and others, after a certain point in his life, Takanori had no true reason to resent his family in a whole. Sure, his mother wouldn't see him, and his father would treat him like he was barely even there, but for the rest, everyone else around him acknowledged him, cared about him, loved him, which was a concept still very abstruse to him for love in all sincerity, he didn't understand and knew not what it was, but he had been told he was loved, and for reason even more incomprehensible, he felt like he could believe that; he felt the sudden need to want to believe in that.

Yet now, even as he finally came to terms with the fact that his family had in great part nothing to do with anything that ever distressed him as much, why did he even feel worse than he'd ever had. Why was his studio suddenly becoming so small by the passing of the day, why were his hands itching under his trustfully worn gloves; why was he suddenly wanting out of his own skin? All of a sudden he was doubting, doubting himself so much, doubting what exactly had he worked for so far, doubting what he himself truly wanted. Did he really want to be a world renowned surgeon? Was being mentally superior so important? Where other people's lives just toys he would play with in order to rich his means? Was life so feeble that a mere knife would have been sufficient to end it?

Certainly, he wasn't as naïve not to understand that the accident he had caused, just one week ago, in which Akira had almost lost his life, had had a traumatic impact on his psyche, he just hadn't thought that in his case, its effects would worsen rather than get any better. It wasn't even guilt, or at least Akira had done all in his power to make sure his mind didn't even graze such a concept in his respect, still finding the strength and time to also scold him for having put his own life in danger instead. Nevertheless, he probably still couldn't get past the fact that Akira could have died; that they could have all died. And what was he to make of this? A surgeon who was suddenly concerned, if not even scared, of death; wasn't that the funniest of jokes? It made him feel such a simpleton, and rather ashamed having to admit that he never thought of the possibility of himself dying, at least not so soon, and if he thought about it more carefully, there had been a certain perception of immortality; so preposterous, and so incredibly idiotic.

Furthermore, as if doubting his own future wasn't quite enough, there was a quite tall, relatively over-confident, and brunette issue.

-Y-yes? - stuttered the eye-glassed blond, whom was startled out of his cumbersome thoughts of life and uncomfortable armchairs, by three sudden knocks on the doors of his studio, which however, gave no reply other than a repeat of themselves -... you … may come in ...- added Takanori, whom was now on his feet, and turned towards said door lightly biting his lower lips in slight nervousness, already suspecting the owner of said knocks, but yet again, all he received was another series of three knocks. Not replying, he gingerly moved away from his desk, walked towards his door, and held its handle in hesitation for a second. There really was only one person whom could be as “creatively annoying”, or so he would have thought some while ago. Now, after the accident, quite a few things had happened and quite a lot more had changed at the same time, which also changed his perception of thought person's action from “annoying”, to “awaited”; his “daily awaited” quite tall, relatively over-confident, and brunette issue. Trying to ignore the awkward somersaults that his heart was performing, he slowly opened the door, and stared right into another pair of eyes which where right in front of him, and right at his level causing him to lightly jolt in surprise

-Greetings my love ...- readily replied Yuu, gently smiling at Takanori's blushing features, as he rose from his bending posture -... may I? ...- he then inquired, at which the blond dumbly blinked, and after realizing that he needed to move out of the doorway in ordered to make the elder brunette walk in, he quickly tried to move away but his chin was swiftly and delicately held by the elder, whom, as he walked inside the room, closed the door behind himself with his foot, and bent over to peck the younger lips - … you get cuter by the day, did you know that?- he inquired newly smiling at the younger, who merely grinned, while trying to focus his attention on anything else that weren't those recently discovered mesmerizing dark orbs -... am I not welcomed today?- then inquired the elder in feign curiosity -... is anything the matter?- he also quickly added, at which Takanori bit his lips a little more, and a little harder, all the while, in order to prevent his thoughts to damaged his brain any further, he resolved on not trying to find a proper why to ask what he had been meaning to and just say it as it came

-... Why do you like me?- blurted out the younger, in a rather blunt and flustered manner. Ever since the elder had began showering him with that incredibly intricate four letter word, also known as love, said word had turned to be quite mundane before he could even grasp the actual meaning of it, Because, for a person such as himself, who had no idea what it really meant, it didn't have any importance at those times. Even when the elder began to randomly and constantly kiss him, or even when they slept together, in his little pragmatic mind, sentences such as “I love you” were just a means used to gratuitously obtain some sort of affection, and never conveyed any of the deeper meaning that people would often associate with it.

However, their recent state of affairs had made it so that said “love” had been the main cause why Yuu had deliberately put himself over and over in front of criminals he clearly was outnumbered by, thus had little if no chance of victory, and said “love” was had been the reason he had been able to then leave the place, and still come back the next day with all the help necessary to save him. Thus, suddenly having to realize that said “love” had indeed some sort of deeper meaning, he wanted clarity, given that, he currently felt like he might have been feeling “love”; … but he didn't know exactly for whom, which was driving him insane; for he didn't want to be wrong, and chose the wrong person out of them two. Just ... how the hell did people know?

-Does there have to be a reason? ...- nonchalantly questioned Yuu, calmly walking inside the studio, with both his hands comfortably folded behind his back, at which reply Takanori felt himself quickly exasperate, as he speed-walked behind the elder, and placed himself right in front of him, abruptly stopping his walk

-Y-yes there has! ... does it not? ...T-there has to be, there must!- he hurriedly and hesitantly exclaimed, looking and sounding quite desperate, gaining a mere amused grin from the elder -... there has to be a clear reason, some detailed explanation, some unequivocal sign, if not … if not … if not! it just wouldn't make sense … it doesn't make sense!- he then almost shouted, placing both his hands in his hair, as he absently stared at Yuu's feet, who tenderly smirked, newly bending to face the blond, whose focus raised right to lock with those black orbs, like metal to a magnet

-There could be a gazillion of reasons why I like you Takanori … such as much as there could be one ...- he began -... but the fact is that I find myself not capable of explaining, what exactly makes me feel the way I do about you .. - he smiled, keeping his gaze fixed on the younger's -... I could tell you that I like the way you push up your glasses when they slide down, which has been the same way ever since I knew you. I could tell you that I delight in the smug expression you have when you make an observation, which you know nobody could ever make and or even understand. I could tell you that I adore the way you easily get irritated and angry, for your nose twitches in the cutest way and that is just priceless. I could tell you that I truly believe I fell for you the instant I saw you, three years ago, and that nothing has changed since then, if not gotten any stronger ... - explained the elder, as Takanori kept unmoving, and listening, still staring at the elder as if transfixed, and feeling himself burning somewhere around his cheeks - … I could tell you all of that, and I can presently also assure you their veracity yet … I still do not posses the precise answer to your inquiry ... for there exist none - he concluded calmly smiling at Takanori, who seemed on the verge of a new exasperation

-T-there is … not? … - he painfully inquired, still staring at the elder, whom silently shook is head in agreement -... well … so … how do I know?! How do I know if I fell for anyone?! And what if I think that the people are more than one?! How do I chose the right person?! How do- he began rapidly blur out in visible distress, but was interjected by the elder

-Do you you feel like you need to see said person at least once a day? ...- calmly began Yuu, at which Takanori didn't reply, but merely jolted his eyes straight to the ground, and after a second or two, slowly nodded in agreement - … does your heart seem to act “weird” whenever said person is around, or whenever you hear anyone talking about him or her? ...- he continued, at which the younger silently nod again -... do you feel like ...- resumed the elder, but paused for a second, gently lifting Takanori's head, to reconnect their gazes together -... like you could be no more, if said person were to never see said person again? ...- he kindly inquired, at which Takanori's eyes unknowingly widened just a little, at the thought of such a thing happened, at which he nodded, but still; that didn't help his dilemma -... then does are usually, people say that those may be indications of “falling for someone” if not clear otherwise ...- conluded Yuu, tenderly smiling at him, while dropping his chin, and slowly rasing back up

-But … - lowly resumed the younger, newly lowering his head in defeat -... I believe … I feel this way for both of them … how do I tell for sure … or is there no way to know as well? … - he resignedly inquired, at which Yuu resumed walking, as he hummed in what sounded like pretense wonder, as he stopped in front of the window, out of which the sun had almost concluded its setting

-A kiss ...- simply stated the elder, turning around towards the younger, who was feeling even more confused, for if that were to be the case, it wouldn't have helped, given that Yuu kissed him all the time -... not a peck, like the once I usually give you, not a french kiss given for the fun of it … - he calmly explained -... a kiss, the action, which is a result of two people helplessly and unknowingly attracting each other to a state of prolonged joined lips, after the subconscious realization that said lips wouldn't fit on any other pair - concluded Yuu kindly smiling at younger, who looked at the elder feeling quite impressed and almost relieved, given that that he had never done with the elder; and the sole thought of it was making him incredibly nervous at the moment

-Where did you find such a definition?! I have been looking for something like that all over, maybe if I look there I could fin- almost excitedly proclaimed the younger, but was cut off by a light laughter of the elder

-I made it up Takanori, right now … just so that this mind of yours can relax for a little, and make sense out of something that it really doesn't need to … - kindly explained Yuu, at which Takanori couldn't help but discouragingly pout, given that the explanation did however make much sense -as I said … there is no real definition for anything regarding love. Among all sorts of gents, no matter how common or how great, they have failed in finding or giving a definition … there is just not one - calmly reinforced the elder walking back towards the newly disheartened blond, whom some weeks ago would have rubbed his middle finger on his nasal-septum, as a typical Hayashi, but whom instead bit his lower lip, which was a recent developed habit -... go and kiss him Takanori ...- he then gently expressed not losing his smile, which however seemed more of circumstance rather than felt -... kiss Mister Uke and ... I am sure you will receive your answer - encouraged the elder, placing both his hands on the younger's shoulders -... and … and if it will still be needed, kiss whomever else you think you might have feelings for … - he advised, gently ruffling his hair, gaining no reaction from the blond whom would have normally chewed him off, but was now in a state of deep contemplation - … if you need anything else … anything else at all, you know where to find me - he then concluded, nodding and smiling at the younger, who slowly nodded back in reply, as he as slowly turned around, walked towards the door, and after giving a last look at the elder, he left his own studio.

Kiss Mr. Uke; … right.

What kind of completely out of the blue advise was that? Was he to now somehow get the apprentice, and just like that, kiss him? The idea itself was quite nonsensical, and the brunette was sure to have looked at him like he had suddenly lost it. He couldn't do such a thing, could he? One, he didn't have the guts, and second, he was pretty sure that even if he did, they apprentice was interested in someone else. However, he could have been wrong, it could have been his perception, this was love he was dealing with; it could have been anything right? Moreover, he wanted to know; he needed to know.

Thus, setting himself to do something he never in his life thought he would have done, with both fists tightly clenched on his side, he practically marched on down to the first floor, and towards the infirmary where Akira was, and were Yutaka was most likely attending to the healing blond, as requested by the latter apprentice himself. Once in front of the room's door, he took the largest, and slowest breath he never had, and cautiously pulling up his right fist; he gently, almost imperceptibly, knocked. Receiving no answer, he was about to repeat the action a bit stronger, when the door suddenly opened revealing a quite smiling apprentice, who silently made sign to the sleeping blond, and walked out the room, closing the door behind himself

-Good evening Takanori ...- politely greeted the brunette, as Takanori found himself merely staring at the apprentice, for reasons completely different from those he thought would have made him suddenly immobilize, it wasn't shyness; but it couldn't quite pin point it - … is anything ... the matte- suddenly tried to inquire Yutaka, looking and sounding concerned, but Takanori remained silent, and interrupted the elder by suddenly taking a step forward, still firmly staring at the man in front of him. However, the seem feeling that he couldn't quite pin-point, made him instantly halt. He still wasn't sure what it was, but it seemed to be telling him that something wasn't feeling right at all. The more he tried to force himself to take a further step forward, and simply go land said kiss on the apprentice, the more his heart seemed to hurt -... Ta ...kanori … you do not look to good … maybe you need to rest … I could call for Mr. Shiroyama and- resumed the apprentice, but was newly interrupted by Taknori, who suddenly smiled and lightly exhaled at the same time. Yuu; … now it all made sense

-I apologize Mr. Uke, I finally understand now ...- he excused, and deeply bowed at the extremely confused looking brunette

-W-what for? … and what was … understood?- hesitantly inquired the elder

-I apologize for any harm I have caused you so far, I resent of it all, I have for a while now … but I thought it right you should know - he firmly explained raising up to a straight position, and receiving nothing but a silent bewildered expression from the apprentice, who was dumbly blinking at him -... and I am also deeply sorry, but … I will have to withdraw my invitation to come with me to London, but it is not for anything you have done ...- he quickly explained and reassured as he observed the apprentice' eyes widen in concern -... there simply has been … a change of plan - he added, newly bowing to the brunette, who slowly nodded in comprehension

-You will … not be going to London anymore? ...- gingerly questioned the brunette sounding also slightly astonished, receiving a shaking of head from the younger, and a heartfelt smile

-I will inform everyone, regarding my future plans ...during dinner ...- confidently explained the younger, taking a few steps backwards, for his heart was now urging for something else, it wasn't there; but he knew exactly where to find it; where to find him -... I promise to work hard Mr. Uke, I will make you proud, somehow, and hopefully someday ...- he then paused staring at his feet for a while and then back up towards the brunette with more assurance -... someday you will be happy to have met me, not only for my fame as a “child prodigy” … but maybe as a person as well - he concluded, and brightly smiling at the apprentice, which seemed to have taking the elder completely off-guard, he newly bowed in salute, and walked away

Without turning back, and feeling more confident than he ever had about so many things in his life, he walked , increasing his speed at every single step he took, until he began to run. He ran towards those stairs that would have taken him back towards the second floor, he ran up them, and ran straight in front of his studio, where he took a second or two, in order to recollect himself, as he remained excitedly staring at the closed door. The reason why it all felt wrong, was behind that door, the reason why his heart was now a joyful jumbled up mess of emotions, was behind that door, the person, he loved; was behind that door. With all the eagerness and courage he had, he then grabbed the handle, firmly opened said door, and walked inside his studio, which however was empty.

-Yuu? ...- he lowly called, while his heart kept sinking as he kept looking around his studio, over and over again, as if by doing so, he could somehow spot the elder -... Yuu? ...- he called again, a bit louder, feeling quite exasperated, and almost on the verge of tears -... Yuu! - he then yelled out of frustration, as a few tears began to roll down, but nobody came forth. Yuu was supposed to have been there, he promised he would have been there, so why was he not? -You promised … you said that … you said that ...- … you know where to find me … - ... you .. know ...where to ...- lowly and slowly repeated the blond sniffing a little, as he turned towards one particular direction in his studio, and stared at it as if in a trans, while his tears suddenly stopped to flow

Taking a few slow steps in said direction, he then increased his speed, and stopped right in front of the door that took to his room. Pausing a second, to clean up his face the best he could with his gloved hands, he then didn't give himself time to take a reinforcing breath, and simply paused the door opened, finding his empty bed right in front of himself, which made his heart almost newly sink, if it weren't for the presence that his tail of his eye could sense right on his left. Cautiously and slowly turning his head around, as if doing it any faster could make the presence disappear, he closed the door behind himself, and welcomed the image of the man he loved, standing right in front of one of his window, and serenely smiling at him.

-What took you so long … - playfully began to inquired the brunette -... my love- he concluded, as he kept smiling at the younger, who couldn't help his tears from falling as he happily stared at the elder, and who out of impulse, quickly removed his gloves from his hands, threw them to the floor, and speed-walked right in front of the brunette, whom face he gently grabbed with both hands, and tip toed to kiss. The kiss was slow, awaited, and nothing that Takanori could quite describe. His heart was furiously beating, and his hands left the elder's cheek allowing his arms to wrap around his neck, and keep them tighter, the same way in which Yuu's arms where now tightly wrapped around his waist -... so unbearably long ...- whispered the elder, as they both serenely chuckled

-How did you know I would come back to you? ...- then whispered Takanori, as they kept pecking each other

-I did not ...- lowly confessed the elder, not interrupting their exchange of affections - … I hoped you would ... - he explained, while receiving random stamp-kisses from the younger -... though I will admit, I was about to rush out, when you screamed my name - he admitted, as he allowed himself be hugged by the younger -so … who is the better kisser ...- playfully inquired the elder, after a few minutes they kept silently in each other's embrace

-I wouldn't know … - calmly replied Takanori, whose head was comfortably laying on the crook of the elder's shoulder, as he heard Yuu lightly grumble in a questioning manner -... I did not kiss him … I did not need to- he explained, lifting his head just a little to kiss the elder's jawline right in front of himself, as he serenely allowed himself being held even tighter by the elder, in sign of appreciation for what he had said he supposed -... and I also told him he is not coming to London with me anymore … -

-How come? ...- curiously inquired the elder -... finding out you are in love with me shouldn't have changed the course of your entire life now ...- he playfully admonished, staring down at the blond in his arms, who lightly chuckled

-Everything has changed ...- replied Takanori, lifting up from the embrace, and looking up at the elder, who still kept his hands lose around the younger's waist -... in the sense that us, wasn't the only thing bothering me lately, what I really wanted to do had become a major concern as well … but now I know - he confidently explained and nodded - I … I want to help people- he confidently stated, receiving a slightly confused look by the elder

-Well … a surgeon … already does that Takanori do you not think?- kindly inquired the elder, ruffling the blond's hair, who nodded and hurried to explain

-I want to just help people Yuu ...- he began, taking a little pause to think his statement through -... I do not care about being a renowned surgeon, I do not care about fame … I want to be able to cure people withstanding their class, or how much money they have, I want to help … I want to give- he explained, as the elder raised his hand to cup both younger cheeks, and leaned in to tenderly kiss him

-I understand now … that is quite noble of you … - he whispered, newly kissing him

-But it is not for me ...- reinforced Takanori, gladly allowing himself to be kissed once more -... I really do not want to care about me any longer, I have done a lot of it so far … I feel like I need to reach out, I need to help this world I leave in, I need to experience what is out there first hand, ...- began to state the younger, slowly passing his bare hands over the elder's chest -... and helping those in dire need is the best way I was gifted to … with this hands, which from now on, will only wear gloves during an operation, and … will feel everything else that there is to feel when not - concluded Takanori, staring at his bare hands, as if he were looking at them for the first time, which wasn't too far from the truth

-That sounds as great, but you still need not to be reckless, because your hands still remain your tool to accomplish your objectives ...- tenderly warned Yuu, grabbing both hands in his, and receiving a nod in reply from the blond

-I will need a lot of fund to begin my own “moving hospital”- tried to explain Takanori, but was politely interrupted by the elder, who was bemusedly blinking at him

-Moving hospital? … - inquired the elder, receiving an affirmaitve nod from the younger

-Yes, it woul dbe unfair to keep fixed in one part of England, I'd like to move from city to city to offer my help. He would stay in a city for a while, take care of does who need, and just keep moving, and doing it all over again … well … that is … if ...- he stopped, notcing that he had been including the elder in his plans without even asking - … you would like to still follow me around, and of course I'll pay- he then hurried to reassure but was newly interjected

-I do not need you money Takanori ...- lovingly reassured the elder -.... I never had, if I have followed and protected you so far, is because I had had wanted to ...- he then paused, to newly gain the younger's attention -... the day I we met, the day I saved you, Akira had followed you all the way to that bar ...- he began to explain, as Takanori took in the news with quite a bit of shock, but remained quite allowing the elder to fully explain everything -... thus I had kept an eye on you from the very start, and had agreed with Akira that the fifty percent I would take form you, I was to give him so that he would save money for you, you would basically still have all your victory,a nd he would pay me instead, but you see … I haven't used a cent of the money he gives me, I have my own funds stored form years and years of gaming, thus the money I received form him I saved it with all the intent to someday give it to you -he concluded, randomly moving a stray blond lock of hair out of the younger's face

-So … all this time … you still protected me ...- slowly began to express the younger, feeling very much emotional, and cheerfully incredulous

-I did purely out of free-will … as I said, mine might have been love at first sight - reinforced the elder -... so you have much more money than you think my love - concluded the elder, as Taknaori slowly nodded at the realization -... and as for me, you have absolutely no worry … I would follow you right down to hell if I had to, I have not left you have I not? - precised the elder, as the younger nodded as he understood the obvious reference to their fortunate-unfortunate accident -... and I have absolutely no intention of doing so ever ... only fools let love go when found, and I dim not to be one- he then smiled, receiving a smile from Takanori himself, followed by a grateful nod

-Then … - resumed the younger-... even though what you just told me is extraordinary news, we still would need quite some funds … and I was thinking … out of all the offers I have received, there was the one of … military doctor, which would require us moving out in two or three days ...- hesitantly stated Takanori, firmly staring at the elder to see if he could spot any reluctant reaction -... we would not be exactly on the field, but in the surroundings, constantly curing incoming soldiers, meaning ... that our survival is not guaranteed, but we are not at risk by force … - explained Takanori, while basking in the sensation of confidently being able to say “we” instead of “I” as he spoke -... the money is really good, and it would assure us being able to start something, if ever the war would reach an end, if not we are only obliged a minimum of five years … and also if we are still alive of course ...- continued the younger, while apologetically making his last observation

-Whatever it is you want to do ...- calmly began Yuu - I will for, as I said, I am not leaving your side ever, so count me in for anything you want to do - he concluded, receiving the brightest of smiles from the younger, who quickly tip-toed to kiss the brunette, and widely smiled at elder again, who was now dazing at him in a seemingly petrified state

-...W-what? ...- quickly inquired Takanori looking at the elder's expression with concern

-That smile … -lowly stated the elder -... it is the first time I see that … it is … so beautiful ...- explained the elder, as the younger found himself uncontrollably blushing -... please, do that for me more often if you would my love - he then tenderly inquired, receiving a very shy and silent nod form the younger - Perfect ...- replied the elder, cautiously lifting himself and the younger form hie leaning position over the window -... so I assume you are going to announce this to your family tonight, and I would love to participate, but we are basically moving out, so I have a few things I need to take care of, and would have only the rest of today and some of tomorrow, so that I can help you pack in the remaining day … so … may I leave?- he tenderly explained, and inquired, receiving a ready and rather strong head shake from the blond - … well why not my love? I really need to do this ...- kindly added the elder

-... “Only fools would let love go when found” … right? - innocently answered, and brightly smiled the younger, swiftly receiving a rather passionate and long kiss in reply from the elder

-Do not fret my love ...- then whispered the elder, as they both worked on catching their breath -... it works both ways, thus I promise I will be back first thing tomorrow afternoon ... - reassured the elder, this time receiving a reluctant nod from the younger -... thank you my love - gratefully replied the elder kissing pecking Takanori's forehead, as he began walking towards the main entrance hand in hand with the younger

-And I was so~ looking forward to our first night ...- mischievously stated the younger, making himself sound quite saddened by the matter, making the elder stop right as he held the handle of the door, and turn around to look dpwn at the younger

-Do hold on tightly to that thought my love ...- he began -... because the first night stop we will make during our journey, same as all the stops we make ...- he quickly added -... I will make sure you will not have enough of me ever ...- he whispered leaning in to give him a quick peck -... see you tomorrow Takanori ...- he then greeted, leaving slowly separating their hands, as they exited -... I am very proud of you, thought you should know- he then added, receiving a pleased smile from the younger before the elder proceeded in the opposite way, with Takanori turning around just to watch the elder completely disappear from his sight.

To his greatest surprise, and slight grief, Takanori was already feeling an upcoming sense of longing as soon as the elder had completely disappeared. Absently sighing, while turning around to continue towards his own destination, as he mentally prepared himself to live his future selfless life, he rejoiced in the little fact that being there no “real rules” in love, he could at least be allowed to be greedy about Yuu, whom he knew very well, was the only “thing” he had absolutely no intention of sharing, not now; not ever.

CHAPTER 14 PART 2

A/N: Takanori finally found love, and lost greed (so sweet), and Yutaka had to virtually do anything, though, what do you think he did in that one week that has passed after the incident, in a room alone with Reita? … heheheh … well next part Takanori is leaving in the next part, and poor father Byou will have to watch him leave; what will he do?

It took a while I know I am sorry, but vacations are just keeping me rather busy with family and friends, but the will to write will always be there, so as soon as I get some little free time I do … speaking of which,I should get to write the second part ne?

Much Love -LnK♥(~_^ )/-