To all girls... beware!
This is really fucked up. Seriously, seriously fucked up. I want to graduate, dammit! This is just...!
I think I'm fucking pregnant, and shit'll hit the fan once the preg test says I'm positive. Before anyone would tell me that I should be happy... lemme just say... this is a case of unwanted pregnancy.
I'm not sexually active, for one. I also do not have a boyfriend. How'd this happen?
I was happily chatting with my friends when one of our guy friends gave us drinks. Of course we took it, I mean, they're our trusted friends, so why wouldn't we take 'em? Then everything just became all happy and fun and that's where the shit starts. I don't remember much of what happened after I got dizzy. I woke up the next day, on my bed, without pretty much clothes on. I panicked and thought 'shit'. I could barely walk the entire morning, and I was pretty much hung over. Then a girl friend of mine called, turned out she was the one who took me back to my room. I was effectively calmed by that.
That night, the people who were with me talked to me. They basically told me all the shitty stuff I did. And then one of them told me that one guy, the one who gave us the drinks, were taking advantage of me during the entire time. And there was a point in that time that he took me somewhere I don't remember at all. And they said we were the only one there. And that they saw me with him, with pretty much half of my fuckin' pants off.
Nobody said anything after that.
I immediately messaged the guy, asking him if I did something stupid that night, unfortunately, until now he hasn't replied anything yet. It didn't help that he left the place permanently, the party was for him, a send-off party.
It's been almost five weeks since it happened, and I don't know if I had my period or not. There was bleeding around five days after that night, but it didn't last long. I wake up in the morning and feel sick for most of the day, and I immediately fall asleep, which is not normal for me, as I am usually awake until wee hours of the morning.
But if you ask me if I'd want to carry on with the pregnancy once I get the positive from the test, I'd say yes. The guy might be a dick for not replying, or for taking advantage that night, but it's not the baby's fault.
The thing is... I'm in an academy. Once they found out, I'll get my ass kicked out of school. It's my last year in college, and I don't have any other college to go to because the tuition fee for most colleges are so high. Yeah, I'm a goddamned scholar, but I do make mistakes. One time big time though. -_-
Not even to mention how I'm supposed to tell this to my mother. She'll kill me. Or worse, humiliate me in front of people and tell me that she didn't raise me to be a fucking slut. (oh yes, she does that! if she dotes that even for the simplest things, I doubt she'd pass this opportunity to do it.
This is shitty. But this is also my fault. If I hadn't gotten myself drunk that night, I wouldn't be in this predicament.
I know I'm wrong, so please don't tell me that I'm stupid and such. Or that I'm horrible... Please, I need your advice! =(
I don't know what to do anymore!
I think I'm fucking pregnant, and shit'll hit the fan once the preg test says I'm positive. Before anyone would tell me that I should be happy... lemme just say... this is a case of unwanted pregnancy.
I'm not sexually active, for one. I also do not have a boyfriend. How'd this happen?
I was happily chatting with my friends when one of our guy friends gave us drinks. Of course we took it, I mean, they're our trusted friends, so why wouldn't we take 'em? Then everything just became all happy and fun and that's where the shit starts. I don't remember much of what happened after I got dizzy. I woke up the next day, on my bed, without pretty much clothes on. I panicked and thought 'shit'. I could barely walk the entire morning, and I was pretty much hung over. Then a girl friend of mine called, turned out she was the one who took me back to my room. I was effectively calmed by that.
That night, the people who were with me talked to me. They basically told me all the shitty stuff I did. And then one of them told me that one guy, the one who gave us the drinks, were taking advantage of me during the entire time. And there was a point in that time that he took me somewhere I don't remember at all. And they said we were the only one there. And that they saw me with him, with pretty much half of my fuckin' pants off.
Nobody said anything after that.
I immediately messaged the guy, asking him if I did something stupid that night, unfortunately, until now he hasn't replied anything yet. It didn't help that he left the place permanently, the party was for him, a send-off party.
It's been almost five weeks since it happened, and I don't know if I had my period or not. There was bleeding around five days after that night, but it didn't last long. I wake up in the morning and feel sick for most of the day, and I immediately fall asleep, which is not normal for me, as I am usually awake until wee hours of the morning.
But if you ask me if I'd want to carry on with the pregnancy once I get the positive from the test, I'd say yes. The guy might be a dick for not replying, or for taking advantage that night, but it's not the baby's fault.
The thing is... I'm in an academy. Once they found out, I'll get my ass kicked out of school. It's my last year in college, and I don't have any other college to go to because the tuition fee for most colleges are so high. Yeah, I'm a goddamned scholar, but I do make mistakes. One time big time though. -_-
Not even to mention how I'm supposed to tell this to my mother. She'll kill me. Or worse, humiliate me in front of people and tell me that she didn't raise me to be a fucking slut. (oh yes, she does that! if she dotes that even for the simplest things, I doubt she'd pass this opportunity to do it.
This is shitty. But this is also my fault. If I hadn't gotten myself drunk that night, I wouldn't be in this predicament.
I know I'm wrong, so please don't tell me that I'm stupid and such. Or that I'm horrible... Please, I need your advice! =(
I don't know what to do anymore!