Pregnant (but perhaps not for long) Update
So I lost my plug... which if you've been pregnant before, you know translates into "oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!!" and if you haven't been pregnant before, I'll leave out the details and just say it means that labor could start any minute, and at most (**knocks on wood**) three days from now. At my doctors appointment yesterday I learned I'm three centimeters and 80% effaced. At first I was disapointed, because for some reason I was thinking 80% effaced meant I had another 80 % to go... and then this morning I realized I'm retarded and it means I only have 20% to go. Lets hear it for passing basic math...
This may sound completely immature, which is pretty bad for someone who is about to be responsible for a little person, who will grow into a big person (oh my god oh my god oh my god!!!), but I have that same feeling you get when you're about to take a big exam that you've studied like crazy for (I mean really studied: you went to study groups, office hours, made outlines of possible essay topics, and took every sample exam available), and suddenly realize on your way to the test that there was an entire chapter that you didn't realize was covered, and that you haven't studied. I woke up this morning and realized that although I could master any blue-book exam given on pregnancy, i have absolutely no freaking clue what to do once little Angelica is born. I can identify all the signs of labor, give the benefits/drawbacks of using pain medication, even spout out theories of how a baby should be brought into this world, and how it reflects our attitudes of personal rights. But I haven't the slightest clue how to breast feed. It seems simple enough: insert A into B, but I don't even know how to distinguish an "I'm hungry" face from a "I've just pooped" face. And then there's the fact that I've only changed two diapers in my life, and one of those times I put it on backwards. And that's just the basics. What am I going to do when she comes to me with the difficult questions, and I don't have the answers? What kind of example am I going to set for her? I feel like perhaps this would be easier if God would just send me a divine study guide, one that includes chapters on both breastfeeding and our purpose in life.