...and as always, as it has been since before the very concept of time began, and as it shall be until well after the concept of time no longer exists, if you need me i'm right here. Just call, send an e-mail, an AIM, what have you. I wish there was more i could do to help.
thanks, babycakes. it does feel good to know you're there. that everpresent source of love and support...i can't even tell you how soothing to my spirit that is. gives me hope. :)
and, on the smoking. don't worry. it is a temporary blip. i just feel like i need to do something kinda destructive right now, y'know? something bad. something to hurt on the outside. i don't know. it doesn't REALLY make sense...but i don't think it needs to! :)
i mean, i know it's a bad example. it doesn't mesh with my value system. it isn't *me*. but, right now, it feels good. maybe it's the forced deep inhaling. sometimes, i just forget to breathe. it's sort of meditative. and calming. even tho my lungs ache and my throat is crying. it won't last forever and, like i said, is better than delving fully into anorexia or obsessive compulsive stuff.
in short, i love you! feel free to give me a ring anytime, i'd love to chat with you. my cell minutes are almost non-existent and i don't have long distance, or i'd be calling you now!
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...and as always, as it has been since before the very concept of time began, and as it shall be until well after the concept of time no longer exists, if you need me i'm right here. Just call, send an e-mail, an AIM, what have you. I wish there was more i could do to help.
And i'm serious... no smoking.
-7r0i
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and, on the smoking. don't worry. it is a temporary blip. i just feel like i need to do something kinda destructive right now, y'know? something bad. something to hurt on the outside. i don't know. it doesn't REALLY make sense...but i don't think it needs to! :)
i mean, i know it's a bad example. it doesn't mesh with my value system. it isn't *me*. but, right now, it feels good. maybe it's the forced deep inhaling. sometimes, i just forget to breathe. it's sort of meditative. and calming. even tho my lungs ache and my throat is crying. it won't last forever and, like i said, is better than delving fully into anorexia or obsessive compulsive stuff.
in short, i love you! feel free to give me a ring anytime, i'd love to chat with you. my cell minutes are almost non-existent and i don't have long distance, or i'd be calling you now!
love,
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